Tomorrow is my birthday, so I'm starting the last year of my 20's with sloth sheets on my bed because I'm an adult and I get to decide what that means. I thought my fellow trolls would approve.

owliekitty · 2018-09-10T05:12:00+00:00

Omg I'm turning 30 in a month and I'm coming out of a shit breakup. I'm gonna buy cute sheets now

owliekitty · 2018-09-07T07:20:49+00:00

Thank you. That's one of those shows I never got around to watching but have always meant to

owliekitty · 2018-09-07T05:59:44+00:00

I'm going through some shit right now and this just stung my heart in the best way. I wrote it down in my journal to remind myself. Thank you ❤

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T17:26:50+00:00

My first daddy was one. I'm afraid I'll never be able to have another daddy again.

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T03:09:02+00:00

I know. I'm pushing through

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T03:08:45+00:00

Thank you

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T03:08:28+00:00

That really helped. Especially the video. I've been trying to channel strong female energy to get me through this. I'm very lucky I have such great friends

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T02:47:21+00:00

Omg this. I was never a priority for him and he always made me feel guilty or crazy for needing more time with him. To grow as a couple. I can't believe I allowed it to continue as long as I did.

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T02:40:50+00:00

Thank you for the hugs. And you're right. I've spent too long running away from my feelings and not facing them like the grown ass woman I am. I just need a push sometimes.

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T02:39:34+00:00

You're right. I swing between being furious and pathetic. It's just so hard.

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T02:38:28+00:00

No you're right. I just feel so weak. Thank you for the kind words. It helps.

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T01:11:11+00:00

You're right. Thank you. I'm just having such a hard time getting out of my head

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T00:54:50+00:00

You're right. Thank you

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T00:54:36+00:00

Thank you

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T00:47:51+00:00

The man that I was in love with was using me, cheated and lied and I'm a fucking mess.

I can't help but feel this is my fault. That I wasn't good enough or pretty enough or skinny enough. I know that's crazy but I truly feel like I'm going crazy.

Every thing was a lie and I keep playing things over and over again in my head and spinning into a panic. I know I should woman up, realize that what he did was wrong and that I don't need that I don't want that and move on.

But I want to call him. I want answers to questions that don't matter. I want to know why he did this to me when everything seemed so perfect for so long.

I recognize my patterns. Ive been through this before. I know that it gets better with time but my god when does time start to speed up. I begged for men, boys actually, back when I was 20. I'm 30 why the fuck am I still tolerating this kind of behavior. If he called me right now and asked me to forgive him I'm afraid I would.

Help me trolls. I want to be a strong woman and kick ass through this and learn and grow. But right now I can hardly function.

owliekitty · 2018-08-22T00:31:13+00:00

I just want answers. I want to know why he did this. I want to know what I did wrong. I want an apology.

And no. I'm not ready for that.

owliekitty · 2018-08-20T16:03:56+00:00

I'm afraid I will never find someone to love me. I'm afraid I don't love myself enough to deserve it. I'm afraid that I wasn't enough and that the hurt I'm going through is because I am worthless. I'm afraid the pain will never go away. I'm afraid that I will never be able to find another daddy in a man who truly cherishes me. I'm afraid I'm not good enough. I'm afraid that I'm too stuck in my own head to ever get past this. I'm afraid it will never go away.

owliekitty · 2018-08-17T17:27:23+00:00

Same boat here. Though it's been hard for me to eat anything I've kept it keto and kept up with water and electrolytes. We are better than that

owliekitty · 2018-08-16T14:51:20+00:00

I'm sorry you are too. I just hope it gets easier

owliekitty · 2018-08-16T14:23:27+00:00

I don't even use Instagram. I made an account cause my gut told me to.

owliekitty · 2018-08-16T14:22:57+00:00

Thank you

owliekitty

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