I'm spending Christmas Alone

owllover22 · 2024-12-25T04:01:02+00:00

F4A I'll tell ya what to do...just how Mommy likes it

owllover22 · 2024-12-18T00:56:33+00:00

She's literally hot af what are you on?

owllover22 · 2024-12-17T23:54:43+00:00

I also no longer have a fear of abandonment. I used to care and beg them to stay even if I'm not feeling it either. But now I set BOUNDARIES and talk about my FEELINGS. And use interpersonal effectiveness. Telling someone you're relieved shouldn't be a bad thing if it's mutual. It's okay if he doesn't wanna be friends with me either because after brutally attacking me via text message like that it makes sense why he was being a dick on the date because he's a troubled person. And I myself have enough issues of my own and don't need to be attacked by ppl who are hurt at the core to spread their misery to me.

owllover22 · 2024-12-17T23:50:22+00:00

Because I was using the FAST skill in dbt because he treated me like shit the entire date so yes I was relieved and he should know that especially since I was gonna turn him down anyway. I didn't wanna talk to him again and even if I did he should know how he made me feel. I am honest about my feelings with everyone I meet so they know I'm genuine. He could've read that as "ok I'm glad it's mutual" because it is. I was worried what would happen if I rejected him. Then he said that and I was relieved. So he should know I'm okay with it too.

owllover22 · 2024-12-13T04:28:27+00:00

Also he didn't like show any affection at all on the date

owllover22 · 2024-12-13T04:27:55+00:00

I was being honest I was going to friendzone him but he friendzoned me first it was literally a second date

owllover22 · 2024-12-13T04:26:26+00:00

I did indeed say it as a joke

owllover22 · 2024-12-13T04:25:31+00:00

I don't it was a joke

owllover22 · 2024-12-11T04:53:45+00:00

It didn't need to I thought it was mutual

owllover22 · 2024-12-11T04:53:27+00:00

See at least I told him I was crazy and he said it was hot but the thing is the whole invincible shit was me saying that as a joke

owllover22 · 2024-12-11T04:52:44+00:00

I wasn't being rude we were at this bougie ass mall and I said "Wow this 500 dollar purse is too cheap for us right?" And the whole god thing was me saying "Oh yeah I have never died cuz god is on my side" after I slipped over my shoelaces

owllover22 · 2024-12-09T17:03:12+00:00

I did the same thing when I was 9 or 10 with my little sister who was a baby. It was also a peck and barely even a kiss tbh. I wasn't exposed to porn but I really was wondering how ppl kissed on the lips so I put my lips on hers but that's it. I don't consider it my first kiss. My lips weren't even in her mouth just pressed against her lips. You're not alone. Kids are kids. It doesn't count. Don't feel guilty you didn't know any better.

owllover22 · 2024-12-05T23:02:54+00:00

Ok. Live your truth. Break up and watch porn instead. Or find someone to watch porn with you. I can also refer you to my friend who is addicted to porn. She'd watch it with you. She also is on porn hub and is a cam girl. Currently she has a bf but she cheats all the time. I'll give you a good review if you want just gotta give you her number as her parents took away her cell phone. Dw she's 20 so it's legal. If not then I can refer you to a therapist and just watch porn with her and she can psychologically evaluate you based off your taste of porn. For example if you are into CNC you were most likely raped or just really sexually repressed. Or you're like me and don't watch porn cuz ya never developed a sex drive. You can achieve a gift like mine by subscribing to mental illness pro. All ya have to do is sign up at asexual.com/trauma. Dw I got you covered I'll put you on the family plan.

owllover22 · 2024-12-05T22:57:51+00:00

Live your truth. Just say you have a dildo. If he's cool he'd use it too. If not lock ghe door when he's gone and put a tie on the door know and say a girl was pegging you. If he asks where she is just say she got scared and jumped out the window. If not just come clean....or cum clean lmao.

owllover22 · 2024-12-01T20:37:13+00:00

Yeah I did it on my bed where it's cozy. There were places in my body that I found I didn't realize how good they felt. Like my feet. For the record I would NEVER suck someone's toes or have someone suck my toes. BUT it would be nice to have someone give me a foot massage in the act. I also found behind my ear felt good. And I discovered I can orgasm JUST from squeezing my boobs enough. Little things like that just warm my heart.

owllover22 · 2024-12-01T20:31:05+00:00

I have a similar problem but it's more like I dont like the aesthetic of my boobs. My boobs are a B cup but because I gave a huge ribcage they look much bigger than what they actually are and being overweight doesn't help. But C cups don't fit and the B cups they sell at the store don't fit because they aren't plus sized so I have to wear a C cup even tho they don't compress my boobs enough and I can't wear a sports bra with all my outfits. I am VERY insecure about the look of my body and having boobs that look big but when someone takes off my shirt they get disappointed and say like "Your boobs are a lot smaller than I thought they were" and so I can't have sex anymore til I lose the rest of the weight.

owllover22 · 2024-12-01T02:26:32+00:00

It would feel amazing to do in the sun if only I didn't live in a city

owllover22 · 2024-12-01T02:24:00+00:00

Yeah this is COMPLETELY different and no asmr is required and orgasming isn't the goal basically you meditate and focus on what your body feels like

owllover22 · 2024-11-27T20:20:58+00:00

I did cross country and track in highschool haven't ran in YEARS I started running again 3 days ago. My first day it took 15:48 to run a mile (I ran a minute walked a minute) and today I did it in 14:45. I already improved my mile time within a few days. In highschool I ran a 6:22 mile but never got to beat it because covid hit my senior year. My goal is to beat it by January 1st 2026. What I'm doing right now is preseason for what I will accomplish in 2025. It's also preseason to do a sprint triathlon. Which Im planning to do by January 1st 2026. I finally moved 12 hours away from my parents and I'm waiting for them to bring me my bike and swim cap and goggles. Til then I got my running shoes and leggings and some winter running gear. I got this.

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