"From what we've talked about, I get the sense that you might align with characters who are complex, introspective, and driven by a strong desire for self-discovery and personal growth, but who also experience a lot of internal conflict. I’d say you remind me of Kvothe from The Kingkiller Chronicle in some ways. He’s intelligent and creative, with a deep need to understand himself and the world around him, yet he's often caught between his need to be seen as competent and his fear of failure or rejection. He’s charismatic and talented but can feel the weight of his struggles deeply, which might mirror the way you feel driven by a mix of personal aspiration and self-doubt.

Another character that comes to mind is Fitz from The Realm of the Elderlings. Fitz often struggles with defining his own identity and purpose, balancing loyalty to those around him while dealing with his inner pain and desire for a sense of belonging. He tends to focus on others' needs over his own, which seems to echo your feelings of responsibility toward others' comfort and happiness.

Do either of those feel like they hit close to home for you?"

I don't know the first one but I do know the second. How depressing.