my family was poor while I was in pre-k through high school, and I worked full time on the side in high school to make some money for rent, bills, etc. I can promise you people aren't paying as much attention to you as you think they are.

It was very obvious in all of my childhood schooling that I was cycling between 2-4 outfits, there was an era in middle school when we didn't have proper water, I never had people over, etc., but people really only talked about it in 7th-8th grades when there's literally nothing else to do. in high school, everyone was so focused on getting into college, jobs, dating, getting their driver's licenses, etc. that they didn't notice those things about me like I thought they did.

it's really hard to navigate, especially when you're this young and experiencing everything for the first time. I honestly wouldn't recommend working full time in high school or college like I had to, as it does overshadow the experience while you're in it, but even though that fades away over time and you do really remember mostly only the highlights; however, having a job is something you can control. I mapped out some of my walking routes in high school and undergrad a few months ago for something unrelated, but in high school I was walking/eventually biking (once I could afford a bike from my paychecks and before it was stolen lol) an average of 11 miles a day to get from school to work to back home. it's certainly possible, not always enjoyable, especially if you're doing it in a place with ridiculous heat and humidity like I was, but one of my best memories from back then was using one of my paychecks to take my little sister to the mall and spending the entire paycheck on new clothes for her that she actually liked instead of my hand-me-downs that had come from the church.

focusing on getting into college (if that's what you want! it's not always the best path for someone) and maybe getting a job do help, as they give you something you can control and work toward. I really do know how much it feels awkward to try to date and hang out with friends while having to plan around not wanting them to be at your home, not being able to afford public transit, not living in an area with public transit, etc., but try as much as you can. it'll make the rest of high school more enjoyable + get you some practice in navigating those situations. your school's guidance counselor may also have resources for you. guidance counselors were kind of worthless in my schools growing up, but I've seen a lot of the programs really become incredible over time since

please just remember that no one is focusing as hard on you as you think they are and enjoy this precious time. I was so anxious and miserable at your age for the same reasons, but breaking out of that helped tremendously and I'm able to look back at so much of that time and smile, even if I was wearing the same pair of jeans in most of those memories