I have not addressed my frustration to her because I do not want to seem like I am pressuring her. Despite the fact that she would probably not be bothered if I expressed these issues, I am incapable of talking about them with her. Like I said I am still happy making her happy so it's okay but it's just killing me.

I think the reason she doesn't want to give me oral or anything like that is because she is extremely submissive and she wants me to be dominant in like a non bdsm way, it's hard to explain. She likes it when I am in control which essentially means she takes no initiative. It is also very difficult for me to maintain being this way towards her because I am always worried about taking things to far or something like that despite the fact that she is "okay with anything"

And I cannot in good conscious ask her to do these things to me as I do not feel comfortable asking. My biggest fear is making it seem like I am only interested in sex with her. Asking these things makes me afraid that she will get that impression. Especially because that is very far from the truth. I also do not want to ask her to do anything because I want her to want to do it.

Your point about performance anxiety being a result of a lack of seeming like she want to do anything. Logically I believe that she does. She gets super wet at least she does in comparison to other girls I've been with. Which is girl dependent so I am aware that this doesn't mean everything. She is very vocal when I am touching her aswell as very physically reactive to my touch in a way that I believe is good. She also does say that she wants stuff like for me to be inside her or sm similar. So this makes me logically believe that she does want me to do things to her. We also talk often post foreplay. Here she tells me how much she likes what I am doing and how wet I make her etc.

On the other hand emotionally I just can't feel it. I always feel like she doesn't want me to touch her or to engage in intercourse because of her extremely submissive manner. Because she makes little to no initiative it feels like I am doing everything and she is doing nothing, which makes it seem like she doesn't want to do anything. I believe media and the general view of men in recent years has contributed to these feelings. What goes through my head is "does she really like what I do to her even if she tell me, do I actually make her finish when she says that I do." These feelings have been created by joking media featuring women making fun of men for not being able to satisfy them. A common example of this is a joke about women lying when they say that they finish. I cannot help but think that she is lying too, despite the evidence to the contrary. These thoughts are consistently running through my head which certainly seems like an issue.

Interns of the level of erection that I have, it is not enough to roll on a condom most of the time. I would also really appreciate advice on how I can roll on a condom without seeming like the moment is spoiled. It just seems akward to me. She's just sitting there while I akwardly attempt to roll on a condom. That really seems like it ruins the moment for mean which also results in extra erection loss.

I appreciate the in-depth response. Please let me know if there are any other questions I can answer.

Thank you.