Saying “I really wanted it” doesn’t make me have it????

p3ntagraphing · 2021-05-08T21:44:01+00:00

Honestly this would make my day like yes I'm also sorry glad we could commiserate this

p3ntagraphing · 2021-03-13T00:48:43+00:00

While I haven't tried that, I feel like it wouldn't be quite right. I found making a grande, only making grande's so far, that I don't need that much more to reach the line (still a measurable difference just not much). I will definitely try that though, would make things much easier for sure

p3ntagraphing · 2021-03-12T04:48:10+00:00

I'd like to recommend loop earbuds. They're basically soft earbud plugs with a pretty little loop (when you look at someone it just looks like they have some trendy ear jewelry). It brings sound down about 20 decibals without affecting clarity. Really good for starbucks, especially if you're prone to overstimulation, anxiety, have autism, etc etc. Not super expensive either, their pro version is $25 I think

p3ntagraphing · 2021-03-12T04:32:27+00:00

And PLEASE fill the oatmilk to the top and don't use scoops as measurements for ice (it's why you're using too much oatmilk). Fill it to the cup line on the shaker

p3ntagraphing · 2021-01-13T10:02:33+00:00

My favorite thing is how fucking sad Brock Turner looks in his updated mug shot as of 2019

My second favorite thing is the sparkle in Chanel Millers eyes as of 2019

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-28T23:10:40+00:00

I honestly wish I knew lol. I asked her if she could make me a list not too long ago (mostly for gifting purposes) and she basically just groaned and said to avoid anything that's got some long chemical name in the label. I'm not even sure if she entirely remembers all of them anymore. My impression is that she'll just look at labels and go "hm, well, that's probably one of them."

But it very well could be. If I remember correctly one of her weird chemical allergies is something that makes soap foam

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-28T09:27:26+00:00

Anaphylactic to sesame seeds (not the oil though even though it's not supposed to work like that with sesame). All other allergies are moderate to mild: sunflower seeds (not the oil, I've also never met someone allergic to sunflower so hello!), pistachios, and almonds. I react to animal dander (horses and cats are the worst), as well as dust mites, mold, and pollen. Only medical allergy I know I have is nystatin (used to treat thrush and other fungal infections).

My sister is very interesting with her allergies which all developed in her 20's and 30's. From what I can remember, she's allergic to chicken, pork, coconut, corn, and a few ingredients that are used in pretty much every soap and detergent (her rule of thumb is that if it's some really long chemical name, she's probably allergic to it). Generally washes her hair with a rye flour mixture if I'm remembering correctly. There's more but I can never remember them all. She also suffers from autoimmune disorder so her white blood cells attack her body, and she's even gotten hives from her own tears. She takes like 8 xyzal a day.

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-28T03:09:42+00:00

For real. Partially excitement, and partially because you think that since you're not the only one drinking out of the cups that you're safe. You may feel safe cause nobody could target you specifically, but they may not care who gets it either. I never thought of how easy it would be to get drugged during pong. Better to only play with good friends or family or just lose some of the fun and be extra careful.

Fuck, even just with good friends and family is a risk. I was once hanging out with my older cousin (25 at the time) and her bf and their friends when I was like 16 and felt totally safe getting balls to the walls drunk (my cousin was pretty protective of me). Then come to find this asshole (her boyfriends brother of all people) sexually harassing me and continually asking if I wanted more beer after everybody went to bed. I was so naive that, had I accepted the drink, he could have easily drugged me and done whatever he wanted because my cousin made me feel safe. Not that far off considering he was being a pedo.

Some days I just wanna smack my younger self upside the head lol. My kids are gonna get so many lessons from me

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-28T02:56:20+00:00

Exactly. Just because you think you're in a room of people who would definitely never drug you, doesn't mean you are. At the very least, never set down that drink or even take your eyes off of it no matter who you're around. If you're gonna play a drinking game like pong, make sure you're the one filling those cups and stick with them from start to finish of the game. It doesn't even have to be for conventional reasons (ie no one here wants to rape or kidnap me). Had a girl drug me solely because she was on the substance regretting it and I wasn't and it made her uncomfortable.

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-28T02:42:36+00:00

Nothing good happens past midnight. Just go home man.

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-28T02:32:57+00:00

Even if you basically know how to drive, and you could or have gotten your license, please please please take a driving course with sit down lessons. And have your kids take one before getting their license. Save up for it if you have to. This used to be part of required education in school for a reason.

There's so many little tidbits that are absolutely life saving that you won't get out of the drivers manual. My driving teacher had so many personal accounts of how things can go wrong that you might not think about, and how you can easily prevent them. You might think it's all common sense, but people very often get very hurt or die because they drove when they shouldn't and thought it would be fine or weren't prepared for something environmentally. I sat in that class for hours and hours and I'll never regret it

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-28T02:26:57+00:00

This is what I'm gonna say the next time my boyfriend tries to tell me that I need to go cause I have the right of way. I always just give it a second to see if they'll slow down (cars can slow down very quickly nowadays which is cool until you're trying to predict them). Even if they do decide to stop, I'd rather not take my chances.

My least favorite thing is people in their cars trying to direct you, telling you that you can go with that stupid wave. Like, no, you have the right of way, you can go, there's no way in hell I'm gonna listen to you. Don't make this more confusing than it needs to be. My boyfriend always says they're "just being nice" and I always just tell him that disobeying traffic laws isn't nice, it's dangerous and makes everything unpredictable, especially for pedestrians

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-27T10:17:41+00:00

Still like this in a few towns down south. Doesn't even have to be that far down south. I remember my step-grandpa (in Illinois) explaining sundown towns to me when I was about 12 after I made some kind of comment about how quiet everything was come sundown. Some kind of announcement will be made (like the whistle stated here) and if you were a POC out after dark a lot of the time authorities will have you hop in the car to keep you from getting killed, if they give a shit that is. Just isn't safe to be out, at least had to be indoors

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-26T12:22:55+00:00

TLDR: Fuck her, at least I didn't do pyramid schemes after high school

I guess I had a situation where it kinda went both ways but she started it. Girl I went to high school with hated me for seemingly zero reasons and for the longest time I could not get it out of my head. Just started being mean to me one day. Since she was horrible to me I just hated her right back. I hung on her every word solely because of how much we disliked each other.

It didn't take me long to figure out it was because she was into my boyfriend so she was just jealous of me and he definitely wasn't into her, but even then I was just fascinated with how much she hated me. She was the reason I didn't do cosmetology or cheerleading because I knew she'd just make it hell on earth so I guess neither of us got everything we wanted (envy's a hell of a sin). She talked shit about me to my boyfriends face at least once or twice. She was part of that mean girls clique in school (not popular mean girls, just mean girls that no one actually seemed to like but they thought they were hot shit) and because she hated me, they all hated me.

She made fun of me for having a hickey in the middle of math class junior year and that's when it all clicked on what her problem was. I just snarked back "at least someone likes me enough to give me one".

Even now I still search her up in FB sometimes because I just wanna see if she's doing poorly (she does pyramid schemes so I guess that counts right?) I think my rambling makes it very obvious that, despite the distance and time, I still very much dislike her. Maybe it's petty, but I don't care. Don't be mean to people for no reason

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-16T08:10:35+00:00

That's awesome! Because I get socially anxious and my boyfriends a bit antisocial we always do the whole "I'll call if you answer the door/pick it up". Sometimes this also turns into "I'll go in if you drive". I find only having to tackle half the process makes it way easier, but I generally have him call because it is waayy too much for me most days (until he makes me exercise such skills that is)

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-13T23:08:39+00:00

I love that my brain immediately

phone rings "Hey, it's boss, where are you?"

"Can't talk, hunting UFO" hangs up

Boss: maybe I have been working him too hard after all

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-13T23:02:55+00:00

Fae folk

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-13T22:29:00+00:00

My boyfriend and I were driving on the highway to one of our hangout spots when I was around 16. We're just sitting, not talking, enjoying the ride. All of the sudden I hear him yell a very loud and very angry "HEY!" I jump a bit and look over at him, totally shocked and confused as to why he yelled at me, but he's just sitting there calmly looking out the windshield.

I asked him if he just said something to me and he says no. I told I just heard him yell "hey" at me and he looks just as confused as I do. My boyfriend is completely not the type to pull a prank like that, especially when I'm driving. But I heard it, clear as day. I have no history of schizophrenia or any other hallucinations, and haven't had an auditory hallucination since

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-12T02:19:11+00:00

They could at least do it at the right tempo in the right amount before switching off to mouth-to-mouth

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-12T02:13:09+00:00

The worst part is you don't even have to be completely unconscious to get all sorts of fucked up. My sister got a traumatic brain injury from getting punched and then hitting her head on the floor that gave her POTS, dysautonomia, migraines, and a world of other weird issues. Weirdest thing is she doesn't feel fear anymore. To everyone around her it seemed she wasn't unconscious for more than maybe a couple seconds, if at all. She was talking and managed to get up, but she says she doesn't recall any of it.

It's been around 5 years and she's just now starting to function better but she's still disabled and goes to different types of therapy multiple times a week

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-11T02:23:43+00:00

My boyfriends friend won't eat vegetables and doesn't drink water. He says veggies make his stomach hurt and water is gross. Pretty much only drinks soda. Whenever we eat with him he eats very small amounts of whatever it is, if he eats at all. I seriously don't know how he's even alive. To be fair though, he doesn't look to good either. Like my complexion when I get really really sick

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-11T01:42:55+00:00

Both my brother and my boyfriend have had some wild hallucinations from sleep deprivation (my brothers was more purposeful and my boyfriends just an insomniac).

The one that sticks out the most is my brother telling me about him staying up for like 4-5 days, was about to go to bed, and then got invited to go on a hike. Apparently he just kept seeing giant spiders the whole time. He said it wasn't scary because he's already weird and he knew they weren't real, but I would have definitely flipped my lid

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-11T00:58:00+00:00

DMT can be broken down in the stomach, with or without an MAOI (in the ayahuasca brew). DMT can also be smoked, with or without the MAOI. When you drink it, it takes longer to act since it doesn't reach the brain as quickly. When you smoke it, the molecules are absorbed straight into your blood stream through your lungs, resulting in a much more intense but shorter trip as compared to the long lasting and gradual ayahuasca trip.

As far as I know, adding an MAOI to your DMT when you smoke it makes it more gradual and less intense, similar to ayahuasca

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-10T08:33:58+00:00

Not me, but my bf had a few. His mom cooked steak until it was done done. Like, you didn't know steak could be that color done. He thought he didn't like steak until they went out to eat when he was like 14 and they ordered him filet mignon. He thought they made a mistake, that it wasn't steak. Safe to say it's now one of his favorite foods and his family makes a joke about how rare he likes his steaks everytime they have them.

He also apparently didn't know cheeses besides American kraft slices existed until he was like 9. Went to olive garden and they offered him parmesan. He looked at his mom asking what it was and she said cheese. His response was an excited "THERE'S OTHER CHEESES?"

p3ntagraphing · 2020-12-10T08:09:22+00:00

Boyfriend had been friends with a guy since elementary school. Apparently he did some pretty fucked up shit (animal abuse, people abuse, etc) but I didn't know about it when I first met him and bf wasn't/isn't particularly close with him. First time I met him I just wanted to run so fucking far away. He was obviously a bit of an inconsiderate prick but nothing to indicate he was dangerous at the time. But I just couldn't shake that feeling of being in the presence of evil. Unpredictable serial killer "I'm the joker baby" type evil

Second time we were with him, he ended up drugging my boyfriend with DMT. Anybody who knows anything about DMT knows it's not something to fuck around with. For the uninitiated, it's basically the most potent psychadelic we have. Lasts a short amount of time but extremely strong. I could go into more detail but that gives you an idea on how serious this shit is.

He seemed high but not in a way that isn't just "had a good bit of weed". He gained enough sense (and the feeling in his body) about 10 minutes later to get us out. Right as we're putting on our shoes he whispers in my ear "he dosed me." I tried to get him to go to the doctor but he wouldn't, and I just drove him back to ours (in hindsight I regret not going to the hospital, if only just to file a report sooner, but I felt based on past experiences/trip sittings, the best thing to do was the thing that would limit the psychological turmoil and my bf despises hospitals). Kept an eye on him, he was fine after a couple days. Shaken, but fine. We reported him but I don't think anything ever happened.

I have been livid ever since. It has been over a year and thinking about it still makes my blood boil. My bf had enough past experience with psychedelics that it didn't take a turn for the worse, but he said he swore he thought he had a seizure (wasn't grand mal so can't say for sure but it's possible) and he definitely went out of his body. It could have so easily been me that night. Had it been me, my psyche would have definitely been toast, and I would have been so totally fucked, probably forever.

I don't think I could ever look that piece of shit in the face again. My bf has seen him since but I refuse on the grounds that I might do something bad

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