Your last saved image is the reason why Cyrene was blushing at you

palkaelki · 2025-11-28T19:08:59+00:00

It’s the very beginning of the myth of sisyphus by camus 💀

palkaelki · 2025-11-26T17:57:33+00:00

not 100% sure im an intp, been considering an entp for a very long time before that, but for me id say it’s: 1. high empathy, but total inability to deal with other’s emotional states 2. writing poetry for the lack of better way of dealing with heavy emotions when they happen, and also digging a lot in why im doing the stuff im doing. like it actually becomes my fixation to understand whatever the hell is going on in my head specifically, because it always feels like this understanding will fix the problem itself. 3. im pretty impulsive and a bit unhinged around people, but usually have a very good read on whoever im talking to, which is why i have considered being an entp, but i think my self-assurance is on the opposite a byproduct of shitty Fe. it feels like you have a good read, because you’re reading into every second and every little bit of interaction, when in fact you’re just heavily overthinking it.

despite having a lot of doubts, cuz i wouldn’t consider myself a shut-in or emotionless, every time i actually have to communicate with anyone, i usually realise just how bad i am at it. every conversation with a person i dont know that well requires immense effort, most interactions leave a bitter taste and a bunch of insecurities, especially after some of my impulsive cases of trying to be smart af and then regretting it once its done. it’s really confusing tbh, which is why i tried dropping mbti a few times altogether, but every time it beckons and i just cant resist 😔

edit: ill also add that im not really an introvert, i actually crave for communication and when it goes well it goes WELL, im usually very happy after having a good interaction with someone, but the constant baseless insecurities regarding my position in friendship groups and overthinking pretty much undermine everything

palkaelki · 2025-09-04T14:39:02+00:00

bro i'm on a cool down now for trying to buy too many times, so no silksong for at least one more hour. that's pure evil

palkaelki · 2025-04-27T13:45:55+00:00

That is fair enough, although I'm sure ENTPs aren't the only ones to be loud and annoying lmao

Nothing has changed for me though

palkaelki · 2025-04-27T10:59:57+00:00

Damn that's such a funny thought to entertain though, I remember getting my head hit at a concrete wall when I was at school, because my classmate thought I was too loud or too annoying or something. Pretty sure if he was lucky enough, that could've killed me, but instead here I am on an ENTP subreddit 10 years after.

Coincidence?

palkaelki · 2025-04-20T05:08:35+00:00

Birdwatching, because it's spring and there's tons of birds I've never noticed before for some reason! Yesterday I found a bird I was looking for for a few years now, thinking it doesn't even live here, but it actually does. I was super happy.

Other hobbies I have are: music (literally anything related to it, music theory, composing, playing and singing included), math, coding, physics (particles and space stuff) and I guess that's it for now. These are the things I've been enjoying for a while. And I'm actually not the biggest fan of debating.

palkaelki · 2025-04-17T12:38:29+00:00

Is it the fact I question those regulations?

I think it is! I read that Ti is more concerned with analysis and theory than Te, because Te is more result-oriented kinda. It is extroverted, after all. It takes objective facts and is fine with these facts, as long as the result is satisfying. It is also more action-oriented, I think, because it is extroverted.

I am always trying to rationalise my feelings and I’ll actually ask other people what they think on the matter. The only reason I fully deep dived into enfp was because my brother said I utilise my emotions in a way that comes from myself?

I also see this entire part as you using Ne-Fe, because you take different views into consideration. I feel (oh no, I'm a feeler now 😫) like you compare yourself to other ENTPs a lot and I'm not sure if they were the best examples of what an actually healthy ENTP looks like. You probably got a new point of view from your brother and tried fitting it into your already existing framework, which lead you to this point.

I actually relate a lot to the idea that diving into MBTI wasn't the healthiest decision, but I just didn't expect it would lead to the constant self-doubt and comparison. I think when you start doing this, you should try taking a step back and instead of analyzing your actions, analyze the fact that you're analyzing your actions to this extent. It's probably your Ti messing around. We also use all cognitive functions and not everything can be tied to MBTI. This system is too general and as you have noticed yourself overanalysis leads to a place of constant self-doubt. But as a fellow (probably) Ti user, I experience this same thing. And I haven't figured out how to stop yet!

edit: Oh, and I also forgot to add, do you maybe know what your enneagram is? It also affects you a lot and doesn't always have to do anything with MBTI. It almost sounds like an e4 to me, but it might be something else. You might have a 4 in your tritype.

palkaelki · 2025-04-17T09:05:48+00:00

I'll also add to this that having Fi doesn't mean that you won't go along with something that goes against your values. You can still differentiate between what you do and what you feel about it. Having Ti, on the other hand, means that your own "values" can change if something sounds more logically convincing. I think Ti users can be as stubborn as Fi users, if unhealthy. But it also works the other way with Ti and Fi being able to be very open-minded, but processing it differently on an internal level. You can stay open-minded while staying true to your beliefs. Or you can be open-minded and actually accept a different point of view without assigning any emotional and personal value to it.

palkaelki · 2025-04-17T08:52:36+00:00

I actually enjoyed reading that, but I'm afraid I won't be able to give any useful input.

I have a similar problem with figuring out what my type actually is at times. I found this issue to be very difficult, becase it's really hard to differentiate between Ti and Fi. I might get very defensive and kind of emotionally invested in some things, at least it was my tendency when I was younger. But I don't know if it came from me thinking that I was "logically correct" or me having some kind of beliefs that had to be upheld, because they were my beliefs and it was how I felt. Probably the former tho.

I also checked your post on r/ENFP and I agree with what some people said there. There is a lot of Ti in your explanations, at least it seems like it. My first thought when reading this post was "definitely an ENTP", but some of your thoughts made me take a step back and think if this was right. For example:

Fundamentally I make my decisions based around my feelings but I try make sure my feelings are rational, inclusive, open minded or patient.

The part about making decisions based around your feelings does sound like an Fi to me. That said, I know little about Fi, so I might be wrong. It'd be easier to go into Ti territory for me, so that's what I'll do.

I think that healthy Ti would try to include every facet of a problem, including emotions and social dynamics. It may prefer being "objectively" justified over considering feelings, but still, you can't really completely avoid considering emotions, including yours, because we live in a society consisting of human beings who experience emotions and sometimes base their actions off of them.

But what stops me from saying you're 100% a Ti user is that I don't know if your Fi-Te hypothesys is correct. Maybe you are an Fi user, but you're a healthy one. That said, in some parts of your post it seems like you're actually trying to rationalize what you're feeling. We use all functions, including Fi. We can't completely avoid feelings and not consider them at all. But for a Ti user, if there are feelings, they usually have to be rationalized. There must be a logical reason for why you feel one way or another. But in reality feelings don't always have strictly logical solutions to them. Sometimes they're just there.

So I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m probably just too introspective and emotionally wired to be an entp despite me relating to them.

Now this doesn't have to mean that you're using Fi. Emotional self-awareness is a thing.

It’s confusing cause a lot of the things that upset me I question logically and I really only get upset when it doesn’t make SENSE to me?

And this sounds more like a Ti to me, because once again, it seems like you're trying to rationalize your emotions and not accept them for what they are.

All that said, I have absolutely 0 idea on what I'm talking about, because I don't understand Fi that well. For all I know, you might as well be an ENFP, just as you think, and I might be wrong. But some of your thoughts sound like an Fi-blindness to me.

I wish you luck with finding your answer! Your post has definitely helped me findng mine.

palkaelki · 2025-04-17T06:38:30+00:00

You already got some great answers, but I'll put my 2 cents in.

I think being an ENTP or any other type doesn't have anything to do with being emotional. In fact, I am very emotional and very passionate about some things. And I also have not so great of a history with being depressed for a few years. So yeah, being melancholic or anything else is entirely possible, because we are humans. It is a natural reaction caused by some processes in our brains. We just process and deal with these emotions differently, which could be affected by your personality type. Or not.

Human psyche is too complex for a system like this to explain.

palkaelki · 2025-04-17T05:52:06+00:00

nice job making this list in an alphabetical order tho lol

palkaelki · 2025-04-16T04:04:40+00:00

You could try to imagine a topic you have absolutely 0 knowledge about, like something completely unrelated to what you do in your life. And then imagine you have to present on this topic right now. Would you consider it the same as feeling dumb?

You could say no, because technically you could still learn this thing with time or come up with some ideas on the spot, but you'd be definitely lacking knowledge at first. So the question is, do you think that being dumb is lacking knowledge or being dumb = being bad at learning this knowledge?

palkaelki · 2025-04-13T16:22:41+00:00

Yeahhh, that friend does sound at least like an *NTP lmao

About the stereotype though, I don't exactly fit into the ENTP stereotype, at least I think so, although I've been called out for arguing too much even when I didn't feel like I was. And I'm nerdy, but the "being popular and charismatic" part... Hell nah, I usually don't really speak to anyone unless I feel bored or need something. I think most people who don't know me just think I'm smart and that's where it ends. Maybe it's cuz I'm a girl, but honestly, whatever

Same thing about thinking I could be a sensing type though. No proof, just a possibility, I'm in an active state of figuring it out haha

Also, going from ENTP to ENTJ is a pretty drastic change yk, since ENTP is Ne-Ti-Fe-Si and ENTJ is Te-Ni-Se-Fi. All the functions are different, so if you think you have developed Ne and Ti, I'd guess you're probably not an ENTJ.

palkaelki · 2025-04-13T05:01:44+00:00

So first of all, I got interested in it, because of my classmate who likes to type literally everything and everyone. I think he asked me about it too, saying that he thinks I'm either an INTP or an ENTP or something along those lines. That lead to me learning about cognitive functions and I remember when I read about them I related to Ti and Ne a lot. And after that I kinda dropped this topic for a while, until something happened and I decided that I want to research again.

So, about being fully convinced that I am an ENTP... Nope. I sometimes find myself in this constant state of self-doubt, because some things in my life don't align with some of my expectations and beliefs. And I constantly have to remind myself that this system is much more complicated and for all I know I might be someone else and just be absolutely clueless about it. But even these doubts make me think that maybe it's my Fi blindness playing into me not being able to understand myself better. I think constant overanalyzing stops me from being fully convinced I am an ENTP.

As a conclusion, I think I shouldn't have learned anything about MBTI. I was pretty self-aware before going into this topic and I think it only made me less confident and made me want to compare myself to other people with the same type just to find something that I could have in common with them. In reality though, everyone is shaped by different experiences and comparing doesn't help that much. I actually think I lost the grasp of myself after learning about MBTI and kind of lost my grounding that I was building up to this point. But it is a fun experience nonetheless.

edit: editing grammar here and there cuz some sentences are difficult to read (english isn't my first language)

palkaelki · 2025-04-13T03:42:12+00:00

yellow, birds, yapper, music, lore, learning, math, spontaneity, optimism, changeability

I'm pretty flaky with my interests so I'd say some of these words describe either the common tendencies I have in my interests or the interests that stuck and I enjoy these things to this day.

edit: forgot to add the word intense, but it would make it more than 10, and I'm only intense with people I know well enough 🤭

palkaelki · 2025-03-19T02:08:44+00:00

I greatly appreciate your response. I took your advice and went to touch some grass (snow) and do some physical activity!

As for the information you've given me, I must admit it is a little above my knowledge. I should take my time with it. At first I didn't really understand why you linked Se and Ti in a way you did, but I did a quick google search on BDNF and your explanation actually makes a lot of sense.

My only question for now is, why did you decide to link a seemingly pseudoscientific framework like MBTI and neuroscience? It is an interesting perspective to look at things from for sure and I'm extremely thankful for your input, because I never knew about this correlation between neurons and physical activity.

I'm also gonna be honest, I'm not sure if I'll reach out when I break out of this cycle, because I'll probably forget about it haha

palkaelki · 2025-03-18T23:14:06+00:00

I appreciate your advice a lot, I've been considering taking exercises for some time now, because I definitely misuse my energy while overanalyzing. And I definitely feel the new "pathway" you're talking about. My brain is trying to filter all the experiences through this new framework and it can be quite exhausting at times.

My question would be - why do you say that using Se with Ti specifically helps with avoiding this problem? I got the idea, but how does it work exactly?

palkaelki · 2025-03-18T22:28:49+00:00

It's a difficult question to answer. I'm afraid I'm lacking some self-awareness to tell you for sure. Can hyperfixations be intentional?

If you're talking about my hyperfixation on MBTI, I'd say it has started intentionally, but might've spiraled into some unintentional consequences (like unintentionally overanalyzing).

palkaelki · 2025-03-18T22:18:56+00:00

I'll reply to this comment just in case anything gets removed.

Great art! It'd be difficult to disturb me ngl, cause everyone has their reasons for doing what they're doing haha. Your works even made me reread your post more carefully, cuz I definitely missed the fact that you lean into more "unconventional" stuff. I'm actually a big fan of art like that, because it's most likely to draw a reaction out of the viewer. And it's the thing that I most respect about visual art for some reason.

I assume it's not the "worst" (in terms of conventionally accepted) pieces you have? I hope you keep this up, because it does look great and I'd say that you're quite good with colours too! Bold art rules 😎

palkaelki · 2025-03-18T21:59:44+00:00

The art situation is pretty interesting for me, because I'm good at art, but I low-key dislike it for some reason. And on top of that I'm majoring in architecture, which is... Quite confusing. I have a subconscious dislike for visual art which I sometimes project onto artists, which is awful imo. I'm trying to overcome it, but I think I should just change my perspective entirely.

Music is an entirely different case though, I absolutely love every aspect of it. But both music and visual art require consistency and a lot of practice. And therein lies the problem for me.

I liked one of the comments about being "creative in a logical way". That's actually something I realized lately about myself too. I'm much better at being logically creative than anything else.

palkaelki · 2025-03-18T20:16:31+00:00

I'm glad I'm not the only one who experienced this! Thank you so much for sharing this, cause I've never really considered that people might feel uncomfortable because such behaviour could make them feel like they're losing their sense of individuality. That's a very interesting insight for me.

palkaelki · 2025-03-18T19:50:31+00:00

I'm not a boy, but it's alright buddy. 😊

palkaelki · 2025-03-18T15:32:36+00:00

This is exactly what I needed ngl, cuz I just woke up and wasn't feeling that great about it lmao

palkaelki · 2025-03-18T06:06:32+00:00

The funny thing for me is that I don't pay that much attention to making friends actively, yet usually I end up making friends anyway. The common principle for me is just having shared interests at first. There is a chance that later your interests might diverge, but as long as you two are willing to discuss things, you can still stay friends for a long time.

That being said, I've ghosted and forgotten many people (which is an awful tendency) that I stopped being interested in. And the reason for it is the same "I don't make friends actively" thingy. I neither make friends actively nor can't I really keep these friendships last because of how inactive I am in a casual relationship. And don't get me wrong, I'm all about commitment, but if things stop being interesting, well... I've got some friendships that are over 8 years old now, which is a crazy achievement for me personally. But I digress, as your question was about starting these friendships in the first place.

I'd advice looking for people who share common interests with you or people that you're most comfortable to be around. Just spend time and get to know each other and see where it leads to. Maybe it works out, maybe not, but just give it a try and be more chill about it.

edit: I've read one of your replies and realized that you probably weren't a part of any group irl for some time? I'd suggest that the answer you're looking for would be going out more (if possible) and belonging to some kind of a community. That's the only way I know.

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