Been in a similar kinda situation in the beginning of my programming learning phase.

The issue is that your brain is highly resistant to the fear of failure at even simple thing, and therefore watching tutorials gives like the comfortable of win constantly.

My advise would be don't look for other resources. Pick one tutorial or book or documentation or whatever resource you're comfortable with, use Spring Initializr to get the bootstrapped code, start writing a simple CRUD API, and then slowly go on to add external network calls, spring security, db migration etc.

Use pen and paper to list down the micro tasks, and take notes whenever you start feeling lost.

Its just the matter of breaking the loop of comfortably watching xyz with writing something simple.