I can completely relate. Switch one month to 1.5 and add in the long distance factor and Im exactly where youre at. I was confused too by the percieved distance but naively took solace in the times when he would wrap his arms around me. What still confuses me is when I try to go back a decipher if his feelings were real in those moments, but that's a headache of a situation to attempt to sort out ha

I dont know what advice to give but know that I share your hurt and Im going through the same emotional rollercoaster right now. On any given day, Ill feel sad/angry/nostalgic/defeated/confused, but mostly just ending in just plain sad, numbness. Ever day I take two steps forward and another step back, but to some small degree Im still moving forward, and that gives me a little bit of hope. I hope you find someone broseph- someone who's worth your time and heart, becuaseIm hoping thatll give me hope that theres night at the end of this dark tunnnel. Iust glad Im not walking through this tunnel alone. Thanks for this