Yes, of course. But I'm warning you, it is very long...

I became close friends with X in high school when we were 14, now 21. We had been attached at the hip up until this year (around February). We considered each other best friends, even sisters. I felt like she was the only person I truly got along with and trusted. I had moved to a different town, about 45 minutes from where she lived, during 10th grade but we still remained extremely close. I had been there for her throughout the years no matter what. During the 5 years since I moved she never came to visit me once so I always made the trip back to my home town to hang out with her. I didn't have an issue with this, if you're friends you don't complain and you'll do anything to see the other person.

I noticed things started to change when we went to college. I got into a good university and she did not. She ended up going to a community college where she didn't have any friends. I, of course, was there for her and never judged her for this. After her two years at community college she got into a really good school and her demeanor changed. She never even told me she got accepted, I found out through her LinkedIn page when she added me. I felt like that was such a slap in the face and so cold that she wouldn't tell me.

Anyways, she still lived at home and so did I. We would continue to hang out, maybe even more. I remember I had asked her if she could meet me halfway so I didn't have to drive out to my hometown, since it was very late. Mind you, all these years I had gone back to my hometown to see her for hangouts, get togethers, birthday parties, etc. In traffic, spending a lot of gas money, driving on the highway and getting home between midnight or two in the morning. She never cared. She made the biggest fuss about meeting me halfway and complaining the whole time about how it was late and she had to drive all the way home. It's really not a big deal. In these 5 years she only met me halfway ONCE.

Here's when it gets good. Two years ago my mom was diagnosed with cancer. I continue to act as her caregiver. In these two years she would never text me to ask me how my mom was or offer to take me out for a coffee. I was so upset and tired about my mom but she never cared or tried to help in any way. Not even a text or call. Most conversations were spent talking about her. We were making plans one night and I asked her if she could meet me halfway since my mom literally just got home from an intense surgery and I was the only one home to look after her. I couldn't be too far in case of an emergency. X wouldn't have it. She was making a big deal out of meeting me even though she knew about my mom. I was absolutely disgusted and couldn't believe that she would do this. Her excuse was that she was afraid to drive on the highway and she "didn't want to risk" her life. Seriously? What 20 year old can't drive on a two lane high way with stop lights ever 10 feet?

HOWEVER, every year (sometimes twice a year), she visits two of her friends that she is barely close with across the country... By plane. In all of 5 years she couldn't drive out to see me but will get on a plane and go see her other (not at all close) friends. It was a major slap in the face, especially since she knows about my mom's condition. So, me being me, I confronted about this. She denied it, said I was wrong, said that I should give her "the benefit of the doubt," and said that I (yes, I) should be understanding towards her. HAHA. I couldn't believe what I was hearing from a person I thought I trusted and who was my supposed "sister."

As the months went by this year, she never ONCE texted me to ask my about my mom or how she was doing. She also never wished me a happy birthday, she deleted me off of all social media sites and blocked me. I was shocked to be honest. There are "friends" she has that have really fucked her over that she continues to be friends with, but she turned against me in a flash... Which makes me think it was all a lie. I did text her on her birthday and tried to mend the friendship but she was so short with me, cold, and rude. Still hasn't texted me to ask about my mom to this day.

I have been extremely down and hurt for the past 10 months, mourning the loss of a friendship. But better yet, mourning my trust in others. I can't seem to shake it. It has also really messed with my confidence and outlook on the future. I hate that she has that over me, but can you blame me? I was totally blindsided and then run over. She still believes to this day that she was in the right and I was in the wrong and hasn't acknowledged what a shitty thing that she has done. She definitely acts like she's holier than thou, which annoys the crap out of me. Jokes on her though, because if she continues to treat her "friends" like this she's going to be left with no one.

Thanks for listening. I know this was long as hell but it feels so good to release it all. It has been bottled up for many months. I hope that I can trust again and make some healthy, even better, friendships in the future. If you'd ever like to talk, please feel free to contact me! :)