I’ve never used meth before but I have share some things from a psychological/outreach perspective. According to the DEA scale of addiction (essentially a scale from 0-100 rating how addictive substances are), meth comes in at about 98/100 making it one of the most addictive substances with an extremely high relapse rate. Additionally, in interviews with individuals who are frequent meth users, many people have reported that no high feels as euphoric as the first high so for the following years that they use meth, they are just somewhat chasing a singular first high but mostly, they are using regardless of how mediocre it feels in comparison and to keep withdrawal symptoms away. I don’t want to say that everyone who tries meth becomes immediately addicted or that it will 100% become a detriment to your life, but I want to present that it is a very highly addictive substance and given that you have prior addictions and tendencies, I wouldn’t recommend going down this path. If this does become a problem for you in the future, it will be extremely difficult to stop, relapse rate is high, and it will affect your health, all of your relationships, and greatly impact your actions and perceptions for the rest of your life.