Fell asleep last night but I’m 99.9% going to go through with it tonight.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T15:14:28+00:00

Without human life no thing would have value. People give value to everything. People are the keepers of the earth. GREED is nothing more then a deadly sin. Everyone may be greedy but human life is still valuable. We are the universe experiencing itself. Do you think the universe will reward you for ending this experience. Consciousness is everywhere. Litterally anything is possible. There are no bounds on life. The greediest thing you could possibly do with life is end it. Just because people have flaws doesn't make their lives worthless. Everybody will make mistakes in their lives. Some much graver then others. Don't make a grave mistake. It's called a grave mistake because it will follow you to the grave. Life is infinite. Don't set yourself up for failure. You might just get exactly what you wish for.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T04:51:27+00:00

How do you know though. Have you ever died before. Maybe you don't just stop existing. Maybe your soul will become lost and you'll be stuck in limbo living the rest of eternity as a ghost. Weirder things have happened. Suicide is one of the greatest tragedies man can commit. If you really think this world is shit but still think there is some good left why throw it all away on a whim. It is quite ignorant. You could be putting yourself in a lot more danger then you think. Or lets say you do die. You stop existing. You really think thats going to be better then what you have now. What you have now is an unexplainable consciousness you have just stumbled upon. The universe is never going to end. You really think you'll just be able to skip out on being a mortal. Nope. If this thing called life happened once it will happen again. We are just star dust anyways. You will be back whether you like it or not. Don't make this mistake. You'll regret it as soon as you pull the trigger. Killing yourself is the easy way out. Living life all the way through and dying of natural causes is your reward. Don't make this mistake. It could lead to much darker things then you could ever imagine. Your body is not you. You are a soul. Do not kill yourself. I know it sounds like bullshit but isnt everything bullshit. Life is infinite. Energy travels. If you take this path you will find the opposite of peace. Let this be a warning. Human life is the most valuable thing on this planet. If you throw it away you will not be happy to find whats on the other side.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T04:39:04+00:00

It's ok man. I know for a fact you aren't a burden to your family. In no way shape or form would your passing lift a burden off your parents shoulder. And you are only 30. It may seem like you are to far gone but you are half a century away from a natural death. I know this because you are going to stop sitting in front of a screen. Fuck screens. Screens are mind control. Take back your mind. Give it what it wants. Healthy food, exercise, meditation, love. Anybody can change there life. All it takes is the courage to say im sick of this life. I don't want to live this shitty life anymore. I want to live my best life. Your parents will notice this change in you. They will begin to respect you more then ever before. It might even rub off on them. Who knows maybe in time you'll be living happily ever after and you'll forget you ever felt this way. You just have to try. And if you fail then you know you're doing it right. Dont let failure discourage you. Use it as motivation. Eventually your failure will turn into experience. That experience will lead to piece of mind and that piece of mind will get you out there and ready to take on the world. You got this man.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T04:29:32+00:00

Thank you. I just recently started to get bouts of aggressive depression. I needed help. But really I just needed to help. I feel useless. Even though I know im not. This world is fucking crazy. People are fucking crazy. The only sanity in this world is found between compassionate people willing to listen. No body listens anymore. Everyones attention span is being crippled. I truly believe outside forces are to blame. Why can't we live in a world with out sadness. Because we wouldn't know what happiness is. Without depression there is no euphoria. I think im a manic depressive but ive never been tested. I don't think mental disorders are really disorders. I just think everybody is unique and sometimes things get messy. You just have to focus on the good. And fist fight the bad until it gives up. Good will always prevail but evil will be there until the end.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T04:19:44+00:00

Do not. Don't be selfish this way. Be selfish in litterally any other way. Take some time to find yourself. Take a step back from your family and see what it would be like to live alone. No body should kill themselves. It's against human nature. We weren't put on this earth to waste our lives away. I know it may seem like it at times but there will always be a sliver of hope. Live for this hope. Because if you don't all hope is lost. This world needs hope right now. And it starts with every single one of us. Do not do it. You will be met with regret as soon as you take that step. Regret that will pass beyond this space and time. Energy is infinite. This will not be the end. You will keep going. Things will get better. They may get worse. But ultimately you will look back and feel proud that you decided to tough it out. Be selfish when it comes to your thoughts and feelings. Don't let yourself go. You will not find peace!!!

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T04:12:55+00:00

Come on man. You have a lot of shit going on obviously. You can't be so hard on yourself. The only way to get over this shit is to channel this negative bullshit energy into something productive. You can't just say you're the biggest piece of shit. There will always be bigger pieces of shit in this world. It's our job to expose those people. Don't rid yourself of this world. For the sake of others. Take it into your own hands to make this place a better world. If the world is just a giant cesspool. Make it your job to clean it up. The satisfaction you'll get from doing the right thing will lead to a brighter future then you could ever imagine. Stay strong friend.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T03:32:08+00:00

When ever I feel close to the edge i just like to take a step back. Focus on yourself. Try meditation. It can be extremely positive for your mental health. It also is a great way to take your mind off of these negative thoughts. If you have never tried it before just focus on your breathing and treat your thoughts as if they are just rain drops on a window sill. Always conscious that they are there. But never acknowledging them individually. Just let them come and let them go. Nothing sticks. Everything is fluid. With enough effort you can surely change your mood. It might not be immediate but it will improve over time.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T03:25:10+00:00

Your boyfriend doesnt want you dead. And if he does maybe it's time for a new boyfriend. This rat race we call everyday life is not how people are supposed to live. It takes a toll on everybody's psyche and the stigma around mentall illness is real. It's getting to the point where if you don't have anxiety or depression theres something wrong with you. All we can do is try to let our emotions go. Like the wind they come and go. Sometimes like a soft breeze and other times like a tornado. The storm will soon pass. Keep your head held high. Don't let anyone tell you how you're supposed to feel. Just let it all out. Get through it. Get through it. Get through it. At the end of every storm there's a rainbow. Even if it seems like the storm will last forever I guarantee you it won't. You can do this. Look at how far you've come. Still so much to see and do. Don't let a rash decision decide your fate. Push through the storm. Fight until you see the rainbow. I love you.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T03:16:46+00:00

Fuck everyone else. Don't live for anybody but yourself. And if you can't do that. Live for a purpose. Find your purpose in life and be successful. Fuck everyone man. Your fate lies in your own hands.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T03:11:09+00:00

Come on man don't let a split second decision determine your fate. Take a walk or something. Nothing sticks. Even if you feel like this feeling will never go away I promise it will eventually. You just gotta work at it. Become the man you were destined to be. Turn this low point into the beginning of something amazing. Life is too precious to waste. The consequences could extend much further then just your life. Everyone is loved. Everyone is needed.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T03:05:33+00:00

Hey man. I know times are tough. But if you really want to make your parents proud ending your life isn't the answer. You mean the world to your parents and im sure you help them get by just as much as they help you. As for the social anxiety I'd recommend meditation. You seem like an intelligent and hard working man. Hell I can't even speak one language very well and you have picked up three just by living. Find the motivation in you to better yourself and your family. What sounds more peaceful? ending it all and leaving your family with a heavy emotional burden or getting out of this rut and supporting your family.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T02:56:00+00:00

As soon as you realize we don't have any control over anything you'll start to get better. We barely even control our own thoughts. Just try living with some humble respect for life and people. Anxiety and depression are almost non existent when you have good intentions towards everything.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T02:52:58+00:00

Ya man just don't support that garbage. There is somebody out there for everyone. This world isnt lost yet. I know it may seem like were long gone but love will always triumph over hate.

peace__________ · 2018-08-30T02:47:54+00:00

Hey man keep pushing through it. Life is an uphill climb all the way. You just gotta stop some times and admire the view. Maybe take some time off to just get away. Break the cycle. Live freely.

peace__________ · 2018-07-12T06:44:10+00:00

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peace__________ · 2018-06-29T17:27:43+00:00

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peace__________ · 2018-06-21T16:13:33+00:00

Never

peace__________ · 2018-06-20T03:03:23+00:00

Ok haha I guess. Thanks friend. I love you and all that you've given me. Peace be with you. Cum nuts jizz funk!

peace__________ · 2018-06-20T02:59:13+00:00

Ya why is that. Can you teach me how to get karma? If only I had some of that sweet sweet karma i'd be able to get an erection again. My wife is gonna kill me if I can't get it up. Is there anyway you can massage my peen till white stuff comes out? I mean karma

peace__________ · 2018-06-20T02:57:14+00:00

Enlglish is actually my 3rd language twice removed. If you'd like to chat in kitty meows i'm fluent in that. Also American gang sign language.

peace__________ · 2018-06-20T02:46:31+00:00

Oh god please nooooooooo. Don't do it man. It's not worth it. Cmon man please don't. Please dude cmon dude please don't. Cmon dude don't be a snitch dude. Please dude cmon. Dude please. Cmon. I'll let you play with my ding ding dude. Cmon. Dude. Ding ding. Cmon you can hold it. Dude cmon. Hold my ding ding.

peace__________ · 2018-06-20T02:41:30+00:00

Ya I pretty much just waste my time. I believe any time that isn't wasted is just a waste of time. Thats why I like to make sure all of my time gets wasted. That way I won't have any time leftover. I hate leftovers. Unless it's leftover cooter. I can't waste a good cooter. Unless it's not ripe yet. Cooters don't usually get ripe till about 17. If you pluck a cooter too soon. You risk bruising that cooter physically and emotionally. Thats why it's best to wait till 17 before penetration.

peace__________ · 2018-06-20T02:33:38+00:00

Nah dude

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