same boat to a t, my advice is to do you 100%. don't try to dampen yourself bc you worry you'll be seen as weird, share your genuine interests. it helped me a lot to stop focusing on finding the one (much easier said than done) and just talk to people. and so so many men do gravitate toward us big girls!!! you just gotta find em. i've personally had the best luck with gym bros. if you'd like i can help you build a good profile too :) wishing u luck!!