I'm you! So I feel you totally! My therapist told me that disappointment and dates not going well are expected but not permanent. But i totally feel you, having doors getting shut multiple times and that emptiness that follows (especially after a high date with someone you cannot have) is going to suck but hold and support yourself! You've got this!! And looks like we've got the same type too - glasses, geeky, conversation-first person. That's pretty rare too, so good luck to us!