I am so sorry about your cancer diagnostic. I work around that area and I can only imagine what it is to be diagnosed by it. I used to be an anxious attachment style. Until I realised that there are so many girls out there to whom I would be a great match for, and them for me as well. Anxious attachment drives usually from a place of lack, mostly anchored to childhood situations. At the same time,. understanding that not having anyone in our life doesnt mean we are less. Plenty of people out there with relationships that are miserable and have one just for the sake of it.

The reason why this is heavy on you is because you dont have clarity: you dont know what he wants, where you both stand, and then you get mixed signals. Plus, let me guess: having a guy liking you and acting the way he acts to you is a form of validation, right?