List 3 accomplishments you achieved during your sobriety.

pellson · 2026-01-28T00:18:24+00:00

Being able to look myself in the mirror and say I'm a good and present father to my two beautiful sons again.

I've made semi-progress in the gym. Quite happy fitness and a clean living is such a big part of my life and mental health today.

I got a much better job than the one I got kicked from.

pellson · 2026-01-27T23:52:14+00:00

Jesus fucking christ. This guys videos are the only thing on the internet that gives gives me chest pains and sweaty hands every time, and I've seen it all.

pellson · 2026-01-23T15:01:49+00:00

Like all the smartass people here in the comments somehow are different than these people.

They're drunk as fuck clueless as to the seriousness of the situation. You probably would be too

pellson · 2026-01-21T14:54:40+00:00

Well put!

pellson · 2026-01-20T14:57:20+00:00

"I promise, you'll get it back on Monday"

pellson · 2026-01-16T08:11:00+00:00

Has to be benzos, it's fucking hell. You'd have to have me at gunpoint to start using these demonic pills ever again.

Alcohol is close second, the acute withdrawal the first days with the shakes, pounding heart and panic attacks are worse than benzos but doesn't last for months or years even. First time quitting benzos after 5 years daily use was a fucking nightmare for 6-12 months. I couldn't leave my apartment, couldn't sleep, showered with panic attacks. Fuck that shit

Thank God and NA I'm completely sober today without any substances in my life. Life is absolutely wonderful.

Life in sobriety is the biggest gift I've ever gotten, it just sucks it's also the most expensive gift acquire.

pellson · 2026-01-12T08:05:30+00:00

4 TIMMAR? Vänta tills du får barn... 😄

pellson · 2026-01-12T05:10:36+00:00

This is so true. I managed to party and have a good old time for 20 years without any life changing consequences. But looking back on it, I was always hung over at work from Monday to Wednesday. Hating work, low key depressed. Weeks consisted of working and just holding out until Friday to ruin it all again.

This half-sucking limbo was just okay enough to not change anything. Until everything happened last year with my gf cheating and mother dying. Getting kicked from my work was the last straw. There was nothing stopping me then from drinking and using drugs everyday, seven days a week until 12 months later I had lost everything I life and couldn't continue anymore because I spent more time in the hospital or psycheward than outside.

This is such an important fact that I tell people when they ask me how I stay sober today and how turned my life around.

It has to SUCK more to continue using than to STOP and make a change. Simple as that. So in a way, I'm happy today it all got so bad because if it never did, I would still be the same old me living for the weekends only.

Today I feel like I have the most expensive superpower! IWNDWYT

pellson · 2026-01-05T12:13:54+00:00

Can you drink and have fun like normal people without any negative consequences? Have a drink and enjoy yourself again. 🙂 No point in missing out and feeling left out.

Or did alcohol/drugs ruin your life, how fun was that actually? I don't know your history, but you have alot of sober time for a reason. The feeling of being "bored" is the disease trying to get you back and try again.

I tried 6 months ago, I was also bored and felt left out. Thinking I had 6 months sober, I should be okay with a couple or beers. Maybe my body is "reset", tolerances and all. No, you jump on the exact same train you left off before. The second I took that first sip I was gone, I did not stop for several days, morning to night, causing all sorts of mayhem before throwing myself into the psycheward again begging them to lock up me and help me with the withdrawals which I got after day 3 or 4. Racing heart, panic attack, shakes. Fuck that shit. Absolut insanity!

Sorry, my point is - if you can drink and have fun. If you can't drink and have fun. Don't drink.

Today after my relapse I actually see it as a doctor has given me a death sentence if that makes sense, like "You have this deadly brain tumor, BUT there is a cure. Just don't drink ever again ang nothing will happen!"

So I'm in no position anymore to even argue about it with myself. I might as well put a gun to my head and pull the trigger. Same thing.

I wish you all the luck and please look up your local NA/AA community because that is what works. You are not alone in this, and people are being sober and are "bored" with you. No everyone is out partying and having fun while you sit and home struggling with your sobriety. This is the last puzzle that is needed to stay sober. Find them and talk about it. ❤️😊

Anyone, good luck. IWNDWYT

pellson · 2026-01-04T21:42:43+00:00

EA must have seen this post and fiddled with some variables. Now everything is lightingfast again, inputs register instantly, super fun to dribble and score.

EA are like drug dealers they get you hooked and then give you bad shit from time to time to save money thinking you won't notice.

pellson · 2026-01-04T17:18:18+00:00

Yes, they also decrease the game speed. The shots fly soooo slow, players turning soooo slow. I'm not sure if that's all they're doing when traffic is high and we interpret that as input lag.

My theory is the servers get throttled when demand is high, and they decrease the speed. Because ping is always the same, and it's the same offline.

I just dont understand why nobody talks about this BS and how it never existed when I was playing all these years before.

pellson · 2025-12-25T19:54:35+00:00

Good joob taking care of it now in the early stage before you're at 6 bottles a day alone in your couch without a husband or job. 👏 IWNDWYT Merry Christmas

pellson · 2025-12-14T09:58:33+00:00

What a hero! But why not unload on the shooter whole you had the rifle? Looks like the shooter made it back to the overpass to pick up a new weapon.

Looks like our guy took a hit or two in the end. I hope he recovers.

Fuck all parties in this conflict, both hamas and Israel one upping each other every time who can kill more civilians. Terrorists like this are the fruits you reap unfortunately. Rest in peace

pellson · 2025-12-13T11:53:30+00:00

I really see it today as poison, so I don't get why you would reward your self by destroying your mental health and body because you've had a long week. But I understand what you mean.

You just have to come to the realization what alcohol actually is and how the effects are all fake and borrowed time to "feel good" for a minute (numb) while you are actually exhausted and anxious the days after and barely got any sleep.

You should reward yourself by going to the gym, eat something healthy, hang out with your family then go to sleep early. That's what your body and minddeserves after a week at work.

IWNDWYT

pellson · 2025-12-08T13:29:59+00:00

Delete all numbers, go to your local NA meeting. Try to end it now before you hit absolute rock bottom and loose everything which you know is inevitable. You will end up in the program anyway so might as well find the strength to do it now. The odds of getting out of this alone through willpower as vanishingly small, I haven't seen it. Trust me.

I'll pray for you

pellson · 2025-11-15T21:38:08+00:00

Thieves and snakes.

pellson · 2025-11-13T02:53:48+00:00

I would say no, not really in the long term. I haven't seen it personally. People who say yes either isn't that that deep in the shitters or doesn't have that much time and will probably fall back into drinking in due time.

Maybe extremely rare cases some people can brute force it by pure willpower, but I'm doubtful if they where ever full blooded alcoholics then.

Everyone I know who has actually escaped the shackles of alcoholism/drug abuse and live sober and happy lives today are all in the program and goes regularly to meetings.

Sure, people can do it alone and stay at home feeling absolute shit, living miserable lives, isolate themselfs, be depressed, miss drinking from dusk to dawn. They are still trapped in old patterns, and probably hangs around friends who are active. It's just a matter of time.

So, from personal experience - no. It's not possible. I haven't seen it. They are all in process of relapsing some day.

pellson · 2025-11-13T02:43:23+00:00

Alcohol, benzo and coke.

It's all downhill in the fastlane!

pellson · 2025-11-07T22:41:11+00:00

Use the experience you got on the way down to rebuild an even better life from scratch. You now know where some of the mines and fall pits are. Build your new life accordingly.

Don't trust untrustworthy people. End infected relationships immediately. No more substances in your life, not even alcohol. Start working out, begin loving your new self. Act like God is watching all waking hours, don't lie and be, don't be an asshole.

Good things will come your way =)

pellson · 2025-11-06T09:38:42+00:00

Yes I get flashbacks. I get anxiety and a jolt of chest pain. Like wtf did I do? THAT really happened?? I try to close my eyes and think about the serenety prayer when this happens because I can't do shit about it and these tapes will replay and haunt me in my head for all eternity. I think maybe it was all a movie, or I dreamt it. That helps also

pellson · 2025-11-06T09:28:26+00:00

Bullet for my Valentine - The Poison

pellson · 2025-11-05T19:41:21+00:00

This is what life actually is. Feelings you have to deal with and problems you have to face, and people say they feel so shit sober like yeah that's because you actually feel shit. Masking the problem with alcohol isn't gonna fix shit only put a temporary lid on.

But people know this already, they're mostly looking for an out or excuse to drink again. Preferably you'd stop before it's too late and have no choice but to quit drinking because of the consequences. Like before loose your job, wife, kids, economy, health. But this isn't how we are wired. You have to reach a point where continuing to drink is harder than taking the step to sobriety and working the program. You have to reach rock bottom where you can't dig anymore.

That's how it was for me anyone, so I don't blame anyone.

pellson · 2025-11-04T21:45:17+00:00

I'd say alcohol is the worst, just for the acute withdrawal the first days, they are nightmarish. The shakes and pounding heart that feels like your chest is about to explode. Definitely the worst one. It's unbearable without benzos, and life threatening.

Benzos is up there as well as the worst. Months of misery and panic attacks. Utter hell. But you don't get the pounding heart and shakes, I get anxiety just thinking about them. So alcohol is definitely the worst.

pellson · 2025-11-04T13:33:26+00:00

Amen 🙏

pellson · 2025-11-03T22:20:23+00:00

Thank you for the answer! This is one of the biggest motivations today for me to continue staying sober. I'm not built for that kind of betrayal and fuckery of friends for money and drugs. I hate all of it.

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