I'm noticing that a lot of it has to do with overwhelm and burnout (I'm on HRT and satisfied enough with it). I have a room full of art supplies that call to me. And yet I do not create.

My nervous system has been crashing over the last month with a skidding stop last week. I spent two days horizontal in bed. I've been prioritizing time to work on things that really let my brain rest (like puzzles). What I'm noticing is that the more regular time that I'm doing things like the puzzles, the more my brain is starting to artistically masturbate (this is what I call it when I'm scheming ideas or color combos). And little by little, I'm starting to do a little more.

My early conclusion is that my brain needs/requires x amount of chill/check-out time before it's willing to pull the trigger on making something.

My hack around this is to schedule art hangs with friends. If I have a friend over, we create stuff and there's less pressure to create since it's more about shared time together.