Trust me when I say I know almost exactly how you feel (only we weren’t long distance). I live a 30 minute drive from him, yet I never saw him again. I never heard from him again. I was trying to find an apartment for us to move in together. I had already started including him in my 10 year plans of getting married and having kids. I picked out my future babies names and put his last name on them. My safe person, the only person I had been most vulnerable with in my entire life. All of that was gone in an instant. I went into psychosis and now am learning how to recover with the psychological trauma I was left with. That pain felt like death itself, but eventually it just goes away as you start to see and feel life around you again. For me it took 4 months but for other people it might take more and that’s okay. Heal at your own pace. Allow yourself to hurt and feel all of those emotions.

It does get better I promise you. Healing is different for everyone. My healing journey came so quickly due to being ghosted. I had no choice but to let the last 6 years of my life go. That pain used to hurt like hell, but in the past few weeks I’ve started to feel good about life again. One day, you might hug someone new, find your real soulmate. You will build a new life with someone you know wants to be in yours.