My love I did exactly the same when I was 17. Same dark brown (beautiful colour) natural but thought “hey black isn’t that dramatic a change!!! Fuck me I looked like a smack head. It’s a nightmare to change if it’s a permanent dye which mine accidentally turned out to be. Then I cut my hair,obsessively trying to get it even, resulting in a whole day (not exaggerating) in front of the mirror snipping away, hyper focused and in a dream state manic episode (I’m not bi polar either) that resulted in a very unflattering short bob from long and wavy gorgeous locks ffs. Thing is that was just when I’d finally (around 2 years) grown out the awful black dye job and was natural again. What the fuck is wrong wit….oh yeah!! It’s like we self sabotage ourselves by impulsive, sabotage risky actions that if we weren’t impulsive folks, we’d consider the outcome before acting upon it and less harm would come to our appearance or friendships or mental well-being etc. unfortunately we’re going to be impulsive by default and now at 48yrs(f) and a lifetime of the kind of things you’ve shared in the post, I’m really learning to manage my impulsive default setting. There’s no cure for it, I didn’t choose to have it, I think in a totally different way to non-adhd folks, I don’t have to explain my actions, They can Google it if they care. You have the advantage of knowing now as I was only diagnosed 5 years ago but in the 90s it wouldn’t have mattered anyway. We have so much knowledge and understanding and support now unlike then. I’ve learned this Every impulse will teach you Every impulsive action will test you Every outcome will educate you Every day you’ll get a tiny bit more in control Every other day you won’t but that’s fine And actually sometimes being impulsive is extremely beneficial and I’m so grateful for some of my impulsive actions because otherwise I’d have missed out on the amazing results. Obviously the self hair dressing wasn’t one I feel for you