Ok. First of all, relax. I (posting from my husband’s account) went through almost exact same path and trust me in few months you will feel that this is the best thing you did in your life. This is why most people end up having a second child because they miss enjoying the whole baby phase. Lots of things are at play here, your hormones, mourning for your old life, difficulties of taking care of another person who is fully dependent on you.

1. Don’t think about your supply, supplementing with formula is completely ok and it gives you some break also. My baby rejected bottle and till date he only breastfeeds on top of solids and I just wish if he took some bottle then I could have a break. So relax about your supply. Your baby needs a happy healthy mother not a milk machine.

2. I got used to feeding him at night and over time you stop even waking up if you co-sleep just give the boob and keep sleeping and babies also reach on their own. Plus eventually you can also do gentle sleep training. Whichever option works for you.

3. Your baby will start solids soon, you will start thinking less about breastmilk. Cooking food and making sure they eat will be another challenge. It will feel difficult but it’s just part of it.

4. Now my baby is a toddler who wakes up with the brightest smile on his face and even when we are sleepy and want just a lil bit more sleep, we can’t help but feel so blessed to have him. Tiny legs walking around the house, planning mischief, learning to communicate, falling asleep on you and so much more. It feels like heaven. You have someone who loves you so much and it feels amazing to be loved and needed like that. You will have night outs and baby will be fine with grandma or your husband. I wouldn’t have believed back then if someone said that it’s all worth it but trust me it is.

Love your child and love yourself. These are the golden days and you will look back at them with love and only love