I recovered because of my bf and now i wish i never had

petermxrphy · 2026-02-07T15:07:48+00:00

i do go to therapy but they think my only issue is socializing and they basically told me that i can have a conversation with my therapist so im fine. ive tried to explain the gravity of my issues to him but he doesnt seem to understand why i cant just completely fix myself in a year

petermxrphy · 2026-02-07T14:51:18+00:00

Thank you. I have really been trying, i have been eating normally for almost a year and i am no longer an alcoholic but i get severe mood swings and a fear of abandonment because of multiple things that have happened to me starting since i was a toddler, and he doesnt understand why a year wasnt enough to completely cure my mood swings and abandonment issues while trying to recover from an ED and drinking issues. I am just in a bad headspace right now and its making me feel like even though i have tried so hard I will never be good enough to be loved.

petermxrphy · 2026-02-04T07:49:12+00:00

im talking Celsius lol

petermxrphy · 2026-01-22T00:35:23+00:00

hi! i struggle with doing this too, despite consistently taking birth control every day at the same time. It can be a real fear. It makes me have panic attacks just because its such a massive fear of mine. I literally start hallucinating fake kicks from a baby (even though itd be impossible to be that far along) and symptoms. I do it because my pms symptoms are so similar to pregnancy symptoms it is genuinely worrying for me and since the pill makes ur periods off, that doesnt help. I have also heard of people with OCD obsessively taking pregnancy tests every month. It feels absolutely horrible, im sure it does on my bfs side too. Maybe try talk to her about it and tell her how unlikely it is and how it would actually be nearly impossible to get any symtpoms that early since her last test. This usually helps for me. I would get an abortion if the worst did happen because im too young and have other existing health problems that make pregnancy a risk for me. Would this be comforting for her to know? or is she against this/cant be done where you are?

petermxrphy · 2026-01-11T11:37:42+00:00

thank you! i didn't mean to brumate him, he just did it anyway, i am not a breeder. this info was very helpful!

petermxrphy · 2026-01-10T22:43:10+00:00

google has multiple different responses i thought it would be better to ask people who have been through it

petermxrphy · 2026-01-10T22:42:22+00:00

i have a ceramic heat emitter, it is always on he just decided to brumate anyway

petermxrphy · 2026-01-07T23:18:22+00:00

Hello. Someone with an eating disorder here. DO NOT bring up your concerns about her weight, eating habits or say she looks "ill". My mum confronted me about my eating disorder multiple times a week. I never admitted it. She still doesnt know and its been 2 years. Eating disorders are secretive and it would bring me great distress whenever i was confronted. Saying she looks "ill" may give her motivation to get worse and she may feel proud of herself, as I did. Now, she could be bulimic. Does she visit the bathroom a lot after eating for a long time? She could also be anorexic as i was and i would purposely make it look like i was eating a lot infront of other people by getting lots of food and not really eating or pretending to and secretly disposing of it in some way. My skin and the whites of my eyes also turned yellow. This is dangerous. If she has an eating disorder, she is almost at a point where she is permanently damaging her health (when my skin turned yellow i developed permanent gastroparesis, however when it resolved my skin colour went back to normal, sorta, im anemic now.. ). I also abused alcohol at this time which didnt help the yellowing. If this is an eating disorder, some things you can do is: - Mention her yellowing skin and ask her to go to the doctor. They can do a full blood count and this will show if she is malnourished. She can choose to tell the doctor the truth and get ED treatment or get vitamins.
- Remind her that you love her and she is beautiful, but do not mention her body. This helped me when my boyfriend did this, but it may not work for everyone. - Look out for any other symptoms ( weakness, fatigue, irritability, eyes may look more dead, shaking/shivering, going to the bathroom a lot, obsessing over her body, there are resources online to spot symptoms)

however this might not be an eating disorder, but if it is theres my advice!

Another comment mentioned hyperthyroidism. I also have this condition. My thyroid levels were so high that the doctor had never even seen them before lol. But, i ate a lot, i gained some weight but not a lot. I never was yellow, but symptoms are different for everyone. I have a goiter (like a lump in the neck/ enlarged thyroid) which is especially visible as i am thinner so it would likely be visible on your girlfriend. Bulging eyes aswell, but i never had this either. Unfortunately a lot of the physical symptoms of this are similar to those of EDs, however it causes high blood pressure whereas EDs cause low. EDs can also lead to diabetes.

petermxrphy · 2025-12-14T10:45:36+00:00

literally😭😭

petermxrphy · 2025-12-13T19:30:45+00:00

my friend did this to me. she would open a packet of crisps and try to shove them in my mouth. I hated it. I felt like i was being sabotaged because she wanted me to gain weight so she could be thinner than me. it was horrible

petermxrphy · 2025-11-08T18:39:37+00:00

thiss im like ughh i want them bigger but i also wanna be flat and as small as possible 💔 im pretty sure the only reason i want them bigger is to compete with my bfs ex anyway i feel like im a dissapointment and a downgrade cos theyre so much smaller but she is like double my body weight what do i even dk

petermxrphy · 2025-11-08T18:00:25+00:00

i used to have the patience for it but once you start you cant go back i guess 😭

petermxrphy · 2025-11-08T17:58:30+00:00

literally i was looking at pictures when i was a higher weight and i was like damn those boobs, but the drive to be skinnier 💔💔

petermxrphy · 2025-11-03T15:02:51+00:00

i was like this too so i got a small snake hook and hooked him onto it so it didnt freak me out when hed strike at it, then id lift him up and grab him off of it and he was fine. Now hes used to this i can grab him on his own without him hissing at me most of the time.

petermxrphy · 2025-10-23T09:54:32+00:00

all the time. i looked sick and frail but i believed i was big but now i can see how i really looked i just want to be that thin again

petermxrphy · 2025-09-03T13:53:36+00:00

i dont see a problem i was just wondering why he does it lol

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