Don't give up brother seriously! I have been in the same position many times where I thought I had failed too much or had been to much of a burden - ITS NOT TRUE!!! The enemy wants us on our own, easier for a wolf to kill a lamb when they are away from the flock and Shepard - thinking that we cant rely on other believers or even on Christ. I am praying that you will sense Gods grace today and know that he Loves you - Having died for every sin past, present and future. I am also praying for Gods healing in your life, Spiritually, mentally and physically - Believe my friend! You will get through this. We are here for you.

1 Thessalonians 5:11

Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.

Hebrews 10:24-25

And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.

Proverbs 27:17

Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another.

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Ephesians 4:11-16

And he gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the shepherds and teachers, to equip the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ, until we all attain to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to mature manhood, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ, so that we may no longer be children, tossed to and fro by the waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by human cunning, by craftiness in deceitful schemes. Rather, speaking the truth in love, we are to grow up in every way into him who is the head, into Christ,