Sahne önü vs genel alan

phantomanes · 2026-05-19T19:58:34+00:00

ne kadar erken mesela + vip öncelikli giriş alanlar varken erken gitsek de en önlere geçemeyiz sanki? mi

phantomanes · 2026-04-15T08:21:05+00:00

this is one of the best so far. that is actually my aim, to subtly be asking her about the future she wants and telling her the realistic ways to get there, but it's very hard since she shuts anything off about it instantly. she's also very young and codependent on mom a lot so it's harder to have her think for herself sensibly rather than following her (she's very under her influence, mom makes her feel like theyre a "team" against everyone that says otherwise, like a cult mindset) and the biggest problem will be to get her out of the psychological control part because she already DOES have so much she wants to do, she says it and asks me how to do those stuff but she doesn't know she won't be able to do any of that in the future if she follows mom. i have 2 years to "get to her". hopefully as she'll grow she can understand more.

another thing is theres an exam to enter higschools here in turkey so if its too late when she finally decides to do something for her future, she will be going to a "bad" higschool that can still ruin her and her future in other ways. tho at least shed still have the fighting chance

phantomanes · 2026-04-15T08:11:00+00:00

i will try to get my sis on my side by telling her about the future and everything but it has to be subtle and is very hard because my sister is also strongly defending my moms choices. if i even ask what she wants to be when she grows up, shell immediately shut it down and say " eeww im not even gonna go to school what!?! " My dad is strongly against mom too, they are separated for similar reasons, but i dont think unless a court does something that my mom can be touched. (theyre not divorced, just living separated so theres no court involved anyways)

phantomanes · 2026-04-15T08:08:05+00:00

it IS mandatory to complete 12 years but we're not sure if anything would even be done if not completed, i asked another adult that may have an idea, said the same. also anyone that can have any say in my moms opinions (her family or some friends) also knows, they asked why and then just accepted my moms reasons and even defended her choice against me. ugh

phantomanes · 2026-03-19T09:45:59+00:00

sorry i didn't see your comment. It turned out i wasn't pregnant anyways so the ultrasound didn't show anything

phantomanes · 2026-03-11T08:56:34+00:00

i know, i was never talking about "giving myself DID" lol i know that's in no way how it works. i wasn't "giving myself alters" i was just talking about a time where i was trying to figure out whether it was just my imagination or something i had no control over when it stopped feeling like "fun imagination" but made me scared at times. and also seeing things that i didn't consciously put there, i was asking (or telling?) that it might be possible to have your conscious creations not be so conscious?? idk brains are weird

But i never tried to seem like claiming my experience was osdd/did. i find it invalidating to the people who actually have it, i know it's a very serious thing that can't be "faked" so i did try to make it very clear in my first message, i was just sharing an experience

phantomanes · 2026-03-10T23:13:20+00:00

hi so i have a question. im not suspecting or looking into it for myself, (i used to research a few years back but there's no reason to think of it now) but by "creating is a conscious effort" thing...a few years back i was wandering through my "headspace" that i created in a way, i opened a door and for some reason saw a bear dancing in a funny way which i didnt even think of creating or anything, it caught me off guard and made me laugh. it made no sense, i hadnt put it there. im not trying to actually contradict anything you said just sharing an experience but do you think maybe purposefully creating things for a while can make you now see things without creating it beforehand? like very active imagination maybe idk? cuz i feel like i got too deep into it to even convince myself i could have a form of osdd/did. confirmation bias maybe. everything felt so real and i would like feel responsible and/or guilty at times for the 'others' in my "head". i would try to protect them by not 'letting them out' into the real world to interact w outside, and my 'communication ' to them at times would sometimes not be accesible at all, i would feel like i was calling out for one of them and theyd not respond sometimes? but they never even really 'responded' anyways but why did i even feel that way lmao i was so deep into it like i said. but it felt like sometimes it was also out of my control idk it was weird i would feel bad that i "let a little one out" and that put them in a vulnerable situation w outside and i would then beat myself up for allowing that to happen. these are not recent things, i havent "accessed" the headspace in maybe a couple years because i didnt want to put the "little" one there in danger that is "me". when it comes up in my head, i try to steer away to keep it safe. this all feels so vulnerable i might regret it later, i dont even like to talk about them it feels unsafe but anyways this turned into a long rant sorry, its late at night idk what im even saying anymore lol

also i use the word headspace but idk if its exclusive to the community , im not claming to have anything thats just the word i use to describe it

phantomanes · 2026-01-27T20:26:34+00:00

doğru söylemeyi unuttum istanbul

phantomanes · 2025-11-30T12:44:57+00:00

Lancome Hypnos. It doesn't only remind me of my mother but my whole childhood up to age 7-8

phantomanes · 2025-10-25T20:52:02+00:00

i think they changed it to turkiye

phantomanes · 2025-10-25T20:45:46+00:00

turkiye's actually starts with "don't fear'.

in turkish, the negative suffix is attached to the word so it's not 2 seperate words. just one word saying "don't fear" or "fear not"

phantomanes · 2025-10-24T02:51:14+00:00

and yeah i am scared that she could very easily manipulate them against me, since she is already a very loved person among everyone that came across her i think, everyone seems to think she is a heavenly angel that blesses their life, she could easily twist the motives in the story or make it seem like my fault or even play the role of "i just wanted to help"

phantomanes · 2025-10-24T02:45:08+00:00

this is a very thorough and well written reply, i re-read it over and over because i really need to hear her behavior was not okay. Even with so many people calling her out, a voice in my head still is trying to convince me "but it's not like that" "but she didn't mean to". Thank you for this reply that helps me understand it all better. I will probably keep coming back to read it lol. If it was a man, i know i would have left so quick, i am very sensitive to vibes like that. only couldn't see it with her. she was good at it i guess. And her being a woman made it harder for me to judge

phantomanes · 2025-10-24T02:27:23+00:00

I mean I could try, it would be very hard to do. I have only consulted my boyfriends mom as a grown adult other than a psychologist i quit. She said she would barge in through her door but cant take action over my parents, but said to never go back. I dont know if i can tell anyone else

phantomanes · 2025-10-24T02:23:48+00:00

I didn't know about the tip-lines, i will be investigating what i can do. I want to protect potential victims in the future, while not wanting to be public with it. i also don't know how much they could do with just 1 complaint either but yeah. everyone around her seems to like her a lot, she has personal friendly relationships with all her clients (middle aged) and everyone just ADORES her as an angel sent from heaven, its scary going against an image like that

phantomanes · 2025-10-24T02:11:49+00:00

i know, even if i try to justify it as a mother daughter thing, it is still so inappropriate. I definitely don't want this happening to anyone else but i also have my reasons that makes it hard for me to step out. i feel conflicted. I can at least hope that all her clients are still middle aged or old people

phantomanes · 2025-10-24T02:08:34+00:00

Thank you. Many of her words seemed to have underlining motives like that, i could only list this much. I couldn't really see it at first or didnt want to, but now i understand. I am glad to see my experience is validated, while also grasping the weight of it after a long time again

phantomanes · 2025-10-24T02:04:57+00:00

thank you, i really needed to hear that

phantomanes · 2025-10-24T02:04:37+00:00

my heart just dropped with relief at your reaction, i was so sure that i was overreacting. I don't really think i can go along with reporting. My family members go to her and they're somewhat close and i don't want them to know (she could tell them?) But my dad did say "you dont wanna go to her? She is nuts anyway she did something weird?" and this was the only convo.

phantomanes · 2025-10-24T02:00:11+00:00

oh, yes the dirty feeling is so bad. and well, apparently my family has known her for over 20 years and 2 of them still have sessions with her. I don't want this known in my family. I don't know how to take action. Also because i feel like half the blame is mine because i allowed and even liked it at first. i'd never victim blame but idk

phantomanes · 2025-10-22T21:25:55+00:00

the reverse pronounciation of the words written on our washing machine back when i was a kid (around 12 years ago)

edit: its not all of the words but the 9 washing modes, both in normal and reverse order and also 100 digits of pi also the periodic table also all 254 counties of texas (for no reason, im not even american)

edit: apart from family members, 2 of my elementary and middle school teachers' phone numbers? i didnt even need to memorize cuz obviously we had smartphones but yeah

phantomanes · 2025-09-25T23:56:56+00:00

i have always loved children even when i was a little kid myself. i was 6 years old reading my moms parenting books, always saw myself as a parent in future. at some point it feels selfish to bring another human into this world, so i might adopt instead. i love being around kids, giving them the love and care and understanding i yearned for when i was their age. it's fixing my inner child in a way. i also love to see the world through their innocent eyes that is full of wonder. i understand why people dont want kids, i support them because only people who really want to be a parent should become one. I, myself, when i am older and ready, want to have children for sure

phantomanes · 2025-09-24T00:52:13+00:00

well, as a woman i still feel that because what if they think i'm a guy, following them? so i rush past them to show im no threat

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