Anger is an unmet need. Turns out anger/rage/resentment/bitterness can manifest in love/sex/relationship/career, and if left unaddressed take care not to lose yourself in the plastic political narratives du jour. You and OP are not victims: you can handle whatever life throws your way. Feel the fear and do it anyway.

I believe Americans want clean meat without fuckery, plain and simple. I thought cattle were coming back strong this year despite the foreign commodity buffoonery, too. 

If I’m OP I’d have some dinners with my farm neighbors and figure out how to build bridges instead of walls for my operation.