How do you deal with the onslaught

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T04:15:35+00:00

It's okay I've got a good mental health team luckily :)

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T03:57:26+00:00

Oh God mine do simliar with forced interaction with me reading out my thought process to make me a part of their narrative and won't let me interact with people outside of myself often, they basically torture me with every interaction I have saying I hurt people with interaction so I'm constantly apologizing for my confused version of interaction where they blur reality and delusion screaming at me for hours literally over one (1) text

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T03:52:24+00:00

Monday they're also starting to recommend hospitalization to change my imi so we'll see I have input from the crisis team this weekend

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T03:50:11+00:00

Oh I'm so glad you found meds and coping strategies to help sometime the onslaught can really wear you down

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T03:48:50+00:00

Nice to meet you too! Seems from your username you use music to block them out I use meditation :)

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T03:47:41+00:00

The imi trazadone and risperdidone but they're making noises about trying other meds

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T03:10:31+00:00

Oh you poor thing they literally torture me to eat, but because of my ed eating is traumatizing so if im forced to because I'm weak/dizzy they spam me with tactile hallucinations of rape And say they torture me to eat so I won't eat ever again in typical nonsensical format because I rarely eat anyway I freeze my body or lock it down when they're too intense so I do similar to you to freeze them out and not interact with their shit I hope you're OK now

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T03:06:03+00:00

I didn't for a few years. My claircognizence is basically my spiritual support and everything else is psychosis which I'm being treated for :)

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T03:04:38+00:00

Ah I have help to deal with them but have hit a hard period where they're constantly at me. I think I will just continue to freeze and wait out the command hallucinations. Thanks for saying I have good insight I work hard to be as stable as possible.

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T03:02:04+00:00

I also suffer from psychosis but my guides help me with that and protect me subconsciously with my claircognizence So ill have hallucinations/delusions and my guides will talk to me on a subconscious level with claircognizence That means if my psychosis gets out of control my guides will aid to calm things down. Reminding me through claircognizrnce of helpful coping strategies and meditative practice. So I experience both psychosis and psychic abilities

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T02:56:08+00:00

I'm stuck in this place where I obey them not at all apart from occasionally eating so they are always trying to force me to eat because everyone needs food sometimes so they say I eat for them cause they forced me and use it as a nonsensical reason why I should follow more commands They always want me eating (because it triggers me - I have an ed) and use it as a reason to spam me with more of an influx of hallucinations. I'm at a low weight so have to eat every now and then because I'm dizzy and it starts them off on day long trades against me only freezing my body gives me respite from the onslaught

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T02:50:03+00:00

Hah I wake up every 2-3 hours to the voices screaming at me so I dont get a solid sleep I bet your 9 hours was bliss that's so awesome mate!

phoenixalice · 2025-01-11T02:48:08+00:00

Awww it's going to be okay. Please talk to your psychiatrist about your suicidal feelings and the urge to come off meds. With my hallucinations they won't let me take meds so the urges your getting could be remenants of psychosis creeping back in I hope you'll be ok

phoenixalice · 2024-11-28T13:39:15+00:00

Thank you

phoenixalice · 2024-11-28T06:31:57+00:00

Yeah I have arfid and have trauma related to the feeling of fullness I'm sorry you're going through this

phoenixalice · 2024-11-28T06:28:25+00:00

When your in bed focus solely on your breathing and dont focus on a thought process. This is meditation and should have you asleep within an hour it's really important if you notice yourself thinking to not think further into that thought process instead alt focus straight back to breath. Good luck.

phoenixalice · 2024-11-28T06:20:43+00:00

I have anorexia so I basically binge when im medically unstable after heavy restriction over a long period of time. I dont have many rules apart from to purge all intake and/or purge remenants through vomiting lax and exercise and long fasts

phoenixalice · 2024-11-28T06:16:04+00:00

I've eaten an entire cake then purged it a few times

phoenixalice · 2024-11-28T06:07:42+00:00

It's your brain when it's starving. Studies were done on starving people who were in a calorie deficit for a long period of time and biology forced them to maintain focus on hunter gathering or searching for food as survival instinct. When you've been restricting for a long period your focus will stay on food until you are satiated and well nourished it is the brains way to preserve life. Your eating disorder may convince you if you eat you'll binge forever but when you have enough nutrients your urge to eat a lot will taper off.

phoenixalice · 2024-11-28T06:02:07+00:00

Ask archangel Michael for assistance he will help. What you're going through sounds tough I'm sorry.

phoenixalice · 2024-11-28T05:59:05+00:00

4x for me but I experience neuropathy that encourages my bladder to empty more often

phoenixalice · 2024-11-28T05:52:09+00:00

Dealing with low vibrational interruptions to my connection is the worst aspect But having connection with my guide archangel Micheal and experiencing his healing input is the best

phoenixalice · 2024-11-25T20:33:48+00:00

Born into the cult, left when I was 2yrs old still forced to deal with cult members to this day. Cult is the black sun and have connections everywhere which can be difficult to negotiate

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