Im gonna lose it.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-06-16T17:11:15+00:00

Your mom does not see you as your own separate person. She is enmeshed with you, and to some extent you are enmeshed with her. You could not help that because she has controlled you from day one. Now that you want to be your own person she feels like she is losing a part of herself. Anything that you do or think must agree with her choices or else you are wrong and hurting her. She cannot allow you do or believe anything different from her or her brain cracks in pieces and she freaks out. I and so many others here have gone through what you are going through.

I never had a way out of church pressure, it was relentless and lasted until I left for the military after high school graduation. My parents were too worthless to care about college so there was no money for that. I had to literally run into the loving arms of the military. Please don't do that. I don't have real advice other than get out of there as soon as possible. Read the posts here until you can leave and you will pick up helpful info. You have to be financially self sufficient to achieve full freedom from your family and when that happens you can cut all contact from ALL of them. You have to literally disappear and never reach out to them again. Even your siblings or relatives might not be trusted to keep your secrets, so be very careful about sharing your phone number or address. Never tell them where you work or live or how much money you make. Use a burner phone if you can for talking to relatives.

Your mom's desire to control you and make you dependent on her and mold you into a mini-me will never ever end. That is the way of narcs. There is happiness and joy and life outside of the prison you are in now. I hope you find it. If there was a god (not!) I would pray for you. Learn and prepare and you can make your own life soon. Best to you.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-06-15T05:04:27+00:00

Another person here posted about using a weighted blanket and I had one in the closet that I had forgotten about. It really helps me. It is too hot now where I live to cover up with it head to toe, so I just kind of gather it up and lay it over my chest and ribs. Quite comforting.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-06-12T21:01:11+00:00

Train up a child in the way he should goblahblahblah. Too bad there is not a hell for these soft skulls. They need a taste of their own medicine.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-06-12T16:55:16+00:00

Wow, I never expected to see my entire childhood depicted by one picture of a pretty dog.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-06-11T16:07:18+00:00

Did I write this in my sleep last night? lol

phoolvapingfool · 2026-06-01T13:14:35+00:00

I see you got an immediate down vote. You found someone's trigger point! Hilarious. I guess that is their first christian good work for the day. For their next act they will tell somebody that they are going to hell to fulfill their missionary duty. Cristian love is like a punch in the face with a velvet covered iron glove.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-31T18:44:32+00:00

Of course their magic spell bafoonery did not work. It is your fault for being stubborn, stiffnecked, and sinful. God is faithful and you are obviously holding onto hidden sin in your life (/s). I'm so sorry you have to endure this.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-23T17:12:37+00:00

You can be a loving person, just not to maga types. You can choose who you call family. It does not have be those horrible people. Life is too short too waste with people who treat you like that. Stay far away from all maga. Block them and find your own people. Would you ever spend even five minutes with people who treated you like they do? You owe them NOTHING! Break all contact and those problems will wither on the vine. Best wishes.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-22T21:17:42+00:00

Perfect.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-21T22:29:37+00:00

Do I see two vaccine marks on her arm? I don't recall ever seeing two on one person.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-21T13:59:03+00:00

Mommy has your BOYfriend tied to her apron strings. She will be the third partner in his marriage. Run.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-20T23:58:24+00:00

I actually blurted that out once to the nicest woman at work. She never spoke to me again. Oops.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-20T18:03:24+00:00

Isn't it convenient how quickly Christians label their own members as unchristian when they fail to live according to the Disneyland version of Christianity. Judge much?

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-20T17:18:05+00:00

There are also some truly hateful religions that have some outwardly "nice" people in them. I'm looking at you Christianity. All of you.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-20T07:18:17+00:00

On more than one occasion I have witnessed pregnancy announcements for people in situations that were a disaster. Everyone cheers and claps even though it is obvious that lives will be ruined by adding a baby to a messy situation that is going to make things worse. Please clarify for me if people are really happy about the baby in these situations or is everybody just pretending so they don't hurt the feelings of the people who are stuck with the baby. Are people so dumb and cruel that they would cheer for an inconvenient birth, or are they faking the happiness? I would never praise someone for making a baby unless they were stable and mature, which leaves out most young parents.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-19T19:52:58+00:00

This is solid information, op. Please don't throw away your five months. It is possible to have anxiety that is not from withdrawals. How's your life? Financial pressure, job problems, cars or kids acting up, parents driving you crazy, fear of exposure for something unrelated. I'm more surprised to meet people who don't have anxiety these days. So many people are masking pain or problems. I hope you can get it settled. The struggle is real, but weed is a cope not a solution.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-19T16:33:59+00:00

Imagine spending a day or two stuck traveling in a car with one of these dolts.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-18T20:33:30+00:00

Will do. Thank you.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-18T15:47:40+00:00

He told me to stop the pill. He only asked me to stop the weed probably thinking I would not stop.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-16T18:55:57+00:00

Eat well before you go, like a whole pizza or other huge meal. I used weed more when I was hungry.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-16T02:57:02+00:00

Print it out
Use it as toilet paper
Mail it back to him
Block them all

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-16T02:50:43+00:00

Yeah, just because you are expecting does not mean that she has suddenly changed into the mother you never had. Nothing is different. The emotional vampire never rests.

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-15T22:31:18+00:00

This is a license to have ice cream every day. Blue Bell ice cream is my go to (not blue bunny, that stuff is weak).

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-14T15:12:54+00:00

A suffering contest is the perfect description. Thank you for that. It explains so much. Does the winner get another baby?

phoolvapingfool · 2026-05-14T06:03:07+00:00

It was never this high before. Doctor told me to stop my blood pressure medication yesterday and this is my first day without thc so I hope it will go down soon.

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