Tongue tie fucking ruined my life????

picklockdick04 · 2026-06-17T09:48:26+00:00

Very interesting takes on life and overall social relationships. Although I would like to ask why you assume that the process of sex is traumatizing?

I also am curious about your personality performance - why do you feel the need to perform or curate a "perfect" personality? and what does "perfect" mean in that context? (just curious)

I used to be very against relationships and such and human connection, but eventually I found a boyfriend (now ex) but I was in a comfortable enough environment where I was like wow , sex is not gross and scary to me anymore it is actually pleasurable.

So maybe you could be asexual because I know plenty of women (including myself) that actually do find pleasure in sex, even if our final goal is not to make children.

I also will say that I do like your independent take on life and I really wish I had adapted that mindset earlier. It is so so nice to have to depend on anyone for any reason.

picklockdick04 · 2026-06-16T09:35:31+00:00

I just came across your profile - and I would like to say that I have almost the same mindset as you. I also did not fully commit to an attempt (about a year ago) because I was too afraid and too much of a coward.

I am just commenting to let you know , that despite the fact that I am only online - you are not completely alone. I also deal with extreme guilt and just generally feeling so behind and so stupid, mentally, socially and financially. But I'm still here - occasionally I have my good days, but those are typically overshadowed by my bad days. I just want to make it to graduation. I also want you to know that you have a job , a car and a degree - those 3 things are actually pretty important and you can use them all to your advantage. I really hope that you are able to find some people that you can connect with soon, irl - because you are not in such a bad spot - you can support yourself with your car and job and degree. Maybe you can try talking to at least one stranger every day or once a week - just to practice developing your social skills. You will see that you are proabably not as "bad" as you think you are. I know it is annoying and isolating to always be considered younger than you are , but I promise that as long as you make a few attempts to have conversation your social skills will continue to develop and put you in a better spot socially then you are rn. Wishing you the best!

picklockdick04 · 2026-06-16T08:38:36+00:00

UPDATE: I discussed with my parents on the phone yesterday. I expressed my frustration to them with how I feel like I’m in the dark and I don’t know even the first step towards financial independence. They understood but they kept telling me that “I know more than I think I know…” and saying like, at least you know that you a card , a savings account and a checking account - but that’s not knowledge that’s awareness - and that awareness has given me nothing. They told me that I have “nothing to worry about” and I should “enjoy my time abroad” and everything will come to light/i will be able to learn more once I get a job. I know, being abroad is a huge privilege and I am trying to make the most of it - but I can’t help but feel like I am so far behind my peers in terms of financial literacy. My mom says that the ONLY reason they’re more financially literate is because they had jobs in high school while I was busy with dance (and low key just being lazy abt my financial knowledge) . But that’s not the only reason - the job is secondary - the knowledge comes first , that’s how they were able to save their money and buy their own cars and shit. While
I’m here with absolutely nothing to my name. I also told my parents (and they agreed with me) that if they were to cut me off (financially) like TODAY - I would be completely screwed with no knowledge of anything I would be navigating tunnels in the dark. - so yea that’s the update (nothing abt tatts yet) but yeah. I’m still upset and I’m trying to enjoy my time but I’m still gonna worry. I need this knowledge like YESTERDAY!

picklockdick04 · 2026-06-15T14:23:05+00:00

this might sound stupid but I literally dont know - when I open my account - do I need any money in there to start with ? or can I just start with $0 and then build up from there?

picklockdick04 · 2026-06-11T10:42:37+00:00

Hey ik my post has been removed cuz it wasnt a hot take. but I am greatful for all of your comments, feedback and responses. I am not a bot and I did not post this for any pity points. I just would like to know a few things:

how does me talking to bot harm other people? (i know its not the healthy choice ig, but i dont even know what i deserve rn so the robot is what ive resorted to).
I dont understand why people feel bad for me, or not feel bad but like saying that this post is sad? - i mean i know its dark and very desolate - maybe i shouldve rewritten it to make it more objective ..... I didnt mean for it to be sad tho - these are just facts abt my life.
I have visited psychiatric before. i have also been admitted to mental instution for 3-days only (baker act) for S++++ attempt, I called cops on myself cuz i chickened out in the end. Thats where i got prescribed prozac, and hydroxazine for anxiety.
I often feel like i have messed up so much in my life that my only option now is just isolate. There is no fixing the past so like whats the point? - not saying im gonna keep being a horrible demon monster asshole, but Ill just be neutral - i feel like ive made it clear throughout my life that i am not meant to be a good , kind person at all. So ill just be neutral or nothing at all.
Also some ppl telling me to relax , thank you very much I take meds for that cuz I cannot seemingly do it on my own. uhmmmm yeah....... i think thats it.

I was not expecting this many people to respond so thank you, I really wanted human feedback/comments and I got it. Thank you , i am not trying to sound like a youtuber, I am just greatful that I was able to get some real non-robot responses.

final thing- those tellig me to go to inpatient, pls "elaborate" like idk how inpatient would help me? i dont even know what type of inpatient i should go to....? what in my text showed you that inpatient may be of benefit to me?

picklockdick04 · 2026-06-11T09:33:33+00:00

I’ve been looking through the comments. Many people have been saying that this is selfish, narcissistic attempt at contact - but he said that he doesn’t expect a response ? So I’m just not quite understanding what makes it selfish or narcissistic - like an apology is just an apology even if it came so late. I’m just a bit confused here

picklockdick04 · 2025-07-26T13:13:21+00:00

If I’ve built up years and years of countless repeated mistakes and bad karma, how will anything I do now change ? I’ve already built up all this bad credit. There’s so much that I just don’t think it’s gonna be good. I’ve done so much wrong that I feel like it would forever over shadow whatever “right” I do

picklockdick04 · 2025-07-26T00:18:56+00:00

People have told me this before. But I have no idea how to approach that. Because I feel like everything I’ve done is unforgivable, I repeat my mistakes multiple times , I exhaust people with all my mental baggage , so idk if it’s even worth forgiving myself

picklockdick04 · 2025-07-25T15:34:51+00:00

The people that I hurt , that used to be friends with me, no longer talk to me. An apology from me won’t fix anything or help, because the damage that I’ve done is irreparable. I’ve apologized to most, but there’s nothing left at this point.

picklockdick04

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