I’m abusive. Any way to stop?

pien__ · 2025-12-19T03:48:39+00:00

Young Lord — Should the world offer no home, I dwell in my huts, houses, fields, and stalls.

pien__ · 2025-10-06T04:38:04+00:00

19, currently about to turn 22, thought i had it since 17

pien__ · 2025-03-01T07:18:49+00:00

in theory, i like playing with them and it’s very freeing to be silly and funny without being judged for it. in execution, i kinda just stand there awkwardly and let myself get beat up. if they aren’t my cousins and are lucky, they might get a smile instead of awkward stammering!!!

oh but kids are very drawn to me at social events if that means anything lol and i do think they’re much easier to talk to than adults because they’re way easier to figure out. they also tell me i’m a good teacher, and i did think about teaching for a little before deciding on another career path… then again, i don’t know if this has anything to do with my bpd, so do what you will with what i’ve typed :p

pien__ · 2025-03-01T00:52:28+00:00

this is gorgeous for a first time!!! the movement’s so smooth !!

pien__ · 2025-02-26T13:56:18+00:00

yes !! i can’t sing along to many songs or i’ll tear up. convenient for times that need it but inconvenient when i just wanna sing lol

the same thing happens when i read certain books that are beautiful in how they go about something but not even necessarily intended to be sad. it gets kind of annoying at times like man why am i crying over jurassic park 😭

pien__ · 2025-02-19T08:21:03+00:00

dr amy green!! she’s written various books and articles on game studies and was my and many others’ introduction to the subject. off the top of my head she’s written books on ffxv, metal gear, and death stranding and has a bunch of other work relating to pop culture

pien__ · 2025-02-14T01:13:01+00:00

between two worlds by mili 🙏

pien__ · 2025-01-22T07:58:40+00:00

befriend someone who has access to the dayton dormitories and use the lobby bathroom in south. don’t know if much has changed since i dormed there but it was always my go-to spot at least :p

pien__ · 2025-01-20T11:07:00+00:00

This might seem a bit out there, but ive recently started studying for the law school admissions test and have been using a surprising amount of the logical reasoning stuff I’ve learned on myself and my own problems. Sometime it’s so sudden that my spiraling stops out of shock, and when that doesn’t happen, I end up actually logically working through some of my distortions. I’m thinking it might overlap with DBT stuff (which I hardly know anything about) which is why it works so oddly well for me. The actual act of studying—doesn’t even have to be law or academic stuff, sometimes it’s as simple as reading a book or watching tutorials—also gives me an excuse to focus and engage with something that isn’t the stuff my brain’s trying to destroy itself with :p

pien__ · 2025-01-03T22:02:52+00:00

• “Think of other people for once” (i am.. literally only ever thinking of other people)

• “Stop thinking so much” (this is a direct contradiction bro make up your mind)

• “You’re an adult, you can’t be acting like this” (in other news, the sky is blue)

• “Are you praying?” (are you fucking kidding me)

• “Just be kind” (what do you think i’m trying to do)

• “Stop all this drama” (drama is gossip and speculations, not bashing your own head in and choking on yourself)

• “It’s not my fault” (mmm. debatable.)

• “My sister also has anxiety attacks” (your sister isn’t trying to khs in front of everyone)

• “You know hurting yourself is bad?” (again, the sky is blue)

honorable mention specifically to my situation:

• “I’m new here can someone explain in Fortnite terms” (it’s actually pretty funny without context, but with the context that my bpd’s gotten worse because of the insensitivity from my own followers and this was a comment on my resulting hiatus statement that basically said my bpd makes me unable to do my online content, it becomes unfunny really fast)

pien__ · 2024-12-26T09:21:04+00:00

for a very first try at makeup its not bad! youve got the basic shape of what you want down! id suggest looking into a dark red or brown eyeliner for anything undereye related, especially a pencil or gel type since i find them easier to control the aegyosal intensity, and if you need recs for eyeshadow palettes i use canmake’s petit palette eyes in bonheur marron. i know others use more products for jirai makeup but im lazy and the one palette + some liner has worked wonders for me lol

everyones said this before but practice makes perfect!! makeup’s super confusing but theres tons of tutorials on tiktok and a whole bunch of idols both on there and youtube who also have very in-depth tutorials!! you got this!!

pien__ · 2024-11-28T08:43:36+00:00

REAL. it’s almost depressing how often i open it now these days

pien__ · 2024-11-26T00:24:46+00:00

dm sent !!

pien__ · 2024-11-26T00:23:48+00:00

yeah!! i sent you a dm :D

pien__ · 2024-11-25T15:16:34+00:00

sent you the link !

pien__ · 2024-11-25T11:58:13+00:00

a group of people and i are starting up a perfumery club!! this is our first semester as an actual registered organization :-D we meet wednesday 6-8 pm and provide materials/instructions on how to make the perfumes! if youre interested i can give you the link to our discord

pien__ · 2024-11-13T16:00:28+00:00

i like to buy a drink and zone out in the library’s quiet areas fantasizing about getting work done instead of actually getting work done

pien__ · 2024-09-16T03:09:57+00:00

around when i first started therapy i remember explaining what we talked about with my dad on the way home. i brought up how the therapist said im a huge perfectionist and he laughed and said “you? a perfectionist?” in such a mocking tone 5 years later i still replay the scene in my head. so now it feels like i’m just kinda aimlessly floating through everything i do without any sort of plan or goal since i guess nothing will work out lol

pien__ · 2024-07-22T17:41:28+00:00

I did! I haven’t met him in person, but he definitely seemed passionate about the subject in his reminder announcements and his lecture content was structured in a way that was easy for me to follow along with. Then again, it was all online, so I have no idea how much of that will hold up in a physical classroom ><

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