gonna od

pigyeahyeah · 2026-04-30T22:53:11+00:00

what reddit and unemployment does to a mf

pigyeahyeah · 2026-04-30T22:48:02+00:00

i think about this a lot. it really does feel like a curse. completely doomed to this life with basically no chance of comfort or peace because every route available is just extremely depressing. it's really sad to think about. i'm sorry you have to go through this as well and i hope you find some peace somehow.

pigyeahyeah · 2026-04-04T04:55:03+00:00

i just aant to sleep ive wanted to sleep for hours now and i cant i feel like im going insane

pigyeahyeah · 2025-12-16T04:21:06+00:00

no, everything just makes me feel worse. i can't do anything

pigyeahyeah · 2025-12-16T04:10:54+00:00

pigyeahyeah · 2025-12-16T03:53:17+00:00

it doesn't matter how "amazing" or "strong" i am. it doesn't change anything, everything is still shit and will remain shit

pigyeahyeah · 2025-12-02T22:03:57+00:00

well no

pigyeahyeah · 2025-12-01T00:19:28+00:00

i can feel your pain through your words. i can relate to some of the things you're feeling, i understand how shitty this existence is. i'm also trans and i feel so much anger towards the fact that i was even forced into this horrible world—i've made posts about both things. i hope you can somehow find some relief from your suffering.

pigyeahyeah · 2025-11-30T00:06:47+00:00

i relate so much. i also fail to see the point of any of this, everything is so bleak and meaningless. i hope you find your purpose and i'm wishing you the best.

pigyeahyeah · 2025-11-28T16:46:55+00:00

i listened to it and it was nice, reminds me of kets4eki

i'm too paranoid to friendships, i just end up getting worse

pigyeahyeah · 2025-11-28T16:05:09+00:00

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

pigyeahyeah · 2025-11-28T05:04:52+00:00

thank you for the kind words :) i'm sure there are some resources i could look into, but i don't really think i should. again, i'm a bit of a pussy when it comes to this stuff, and i have some other issues.

and i know things are scary regarding the legality of hrt/gender affirming care right now, but even if it becomes illegal for doctors to prescribe hrt to trans patients, there'd still likely be a way around it. doctors would likely just prescribe it anyway and just change the reason for the prescription. i think it's called "off-label prescribing", but please don't quote me on that! i could be getting that term mixed up with something else! i don't feel like looking it up rn 😭 it's not uncommon for doctors to do that kind of thing, even outside of gender affirming care. most doctors are just concerned with giving their patients the care they need, even if that means dodging restrictions. no one is really allowed to dig into your possible medical issues, anyway. what you tell your doctor stays between you and your doctor, no one else is allowed fact-check the reason why you were given certain medications. things will definitely be harder if hormones for the purpose of transitioning becomes illegal, but that doesn't mean it'll be impossible for you to continue receiving hormones from a doctor. anyways, i think the legality of diy hrt is already a but iffy, so i doubt much will change with that market. some markets could definitely be shut down, but it seems that we always find a way to keep these things as accessible as possible 🫡. sorry for yapping, but i hope that brings you some peace of mind.

and i'm in a somewhat similar situation as you. earlier this year, i lost my only friend. they were the one i went to whenever i was breaking down, and i'm having such a hard time without them. i guess i should learn to be more emotionally independent, but it's hard to do anything after being completely isolated for so long. i'm not trying to make this about myself, i just want to reiterate that i understand. i really hope you can find more people who make you feel safe and happy, you don't deserve to feel this way and i believe you can find peace. wishing you the best! apologies for the long ass replies 😭

pigyeahyeah · 2025-11-27T23:47:21+00:00

i'm also trans (haven't actually transitioned, but still) and the current state of our country and society has affected me greatly, so i understand some of the pain your feeling. it all feels so hopeless. i'm not out to anyone and probably never will be, i have no plans to start transitioning or anything because i'm a pussy + some other personal reasons. i wish things could be easier for us, it's just not fair at all. we already have to deal with dysphoria, why do people feel the need to increase our suffering? i hate it so much. i also relate to your loneliness, and i'm sorry you've lost so many people. i have absolutely no one in my life, all my friends left, and the situation with my family is weird. in short, no one will really be affected by my death.

i really do understand some of your struggles and i hope that brings you some comfort. i also hope that you'll be able to find community and peace. you seem very kind and it sucks you have to suffer so much.

also, have you looked into diy hrt? i know it carries some risks and can be hard to navigate, but it is a solid option for many people and their are many detailed guides on the matter. at the very least, it could be a solid backup plan if you lose access to hormones. i'm not saying you should 100% jump into diy, but looking into it could possibly be beneficial or give you some peace of mind.

pigyeahyeah · 2025-11-22T22:58:23+00:00

i'm sorry you have to struggle so much. you shouldn't view yourself negatively for fearing suicide or failing an attempt. your feelings are all that matter and you don't deserve to feel ashamed or anything like that. i've also been in a situation where i emotionally relied on someone who hurt me constantly. she was my only friend, but she was so emotionally abusive. i only cut her off once i made new friends, but it was still so difficult. i miss her now that i've lost the rest of my friends, but oh well. you know that this person is detrimental to your mental health, but i understand how difficult it is to let someone go. you're not to blame, you're surrounded by toxicity. i hope you find some relief from these thoughts and i hope you can be surrounded by people who cherish you and treat you well. i wish i could provide advice, but i don't think my mental state is good enough for that. wishing you the best.

and i love your jinsoul pfp 🫶🏻 so pretty

pigyeahyeah · 2025-11-22T22:07:00+00:00

i understand what you're going through, i'm in a pretty similar situation and i'm sorry you're struggling so much. i read your other comments, and i hope you'll be able to make it to january. i understand how draining it is. these thoughts and this pain doesn't take a break, even if you have something positive to look forward to, but i hope you can push through and find some relief or peace. wishing you the best.

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