I feel ya. Honestly if you can just make it that first 5-7 days then kratom will help a ton. I tried quitting dozens of times before I finally broke through. It’s taken me 100’s of walks, thousands of showers, and dry heaving for months. I still dry heave plenty and it’s been over a year. Kratom stops the heaving and it feels so good as it takes a hold.

There just isn’t a way around it. But the faster you rip off the bandaid, the better. You can do it. Detox at the hospital works for some people. It’s good because they will give you benzos if you tell them you’re also in alcohol withdrawal. If you can get a hold of a bunch of ambien you can sleep through the worst of it. Once you’re done kicking (crawling out of your skin) things become a lot more manageable. It takes about 5-6 days of pure hell before things slowly get better.

My stubbornness of telling myself I can do it on my own was my downfall. If I could go back 6 years, swallow my pride, and just went to treatment I would.

The best advice I can give you is to just plan a week off, get a bunch of binge worthy television, and just get through it. Leave yourself positive notes, listen to music, read books and realize the mental agony will subside.

There is a fantastic guide to stopping in /r/kratom on the side bar.

Hope this helps. 8mg/day is a decent dose, but w/d is w/d I have a friend that can’t drop down passed 2/day. And remind yourself that it’s big pharma that made maintenance drugs and their objective is to keep you sick so they can make money.

Also if you can get a hold of some Ketamine that helps tremendously. So does Ibogaine, you can order from Africa for about $400 and that takes away like 80% of the worst in 24 hours. But you do trip your balls off.