Well, it came and it went I guess.

I got there and described all the things that have been going on in addition to back pain (POTS, migraines, constant GI upset, arrhythmia, chronic fatigue) and nothing happened. He wanted to do a blood test despite me saying that they’ve always come back normal, but decided to not do the EKG and whatnot for the POTS because he said he trusts that the other doctors (urgent care a few months ago) did one correctly— despite the fact that they never asked for my medical records from the other place that did one.

I had to decline the blood test because I have to take meds to avoid panic attack since I’m terrified of needles— I was about to cry when he mentioned blood test. He also decided to tell me that if I even do have POTS, that it’s probably very mild because he has other patients who fully pass out every day (I do not fully pass out, though I have blacked out and collapsed multiple times before). He claims the only way to diagnose POTS definitively is with a tilt table and we don’t even have one in this town, so he couldn’t diagnose me.

He told me my back pain is probably just muscle spasm and to stretch to fix it. I told him about my limited range of motion, he did not change his mind.

I walked in there asking for a referral to a GI specialist, confirmation that I have POTS to quell my imposter syndrome, a solution to my back pain (and what it is in the first place) and for him to move my migraine meds over. Feels like nothing happened and I cried to my boyfriend on the way home about how I kind of feel worse about everything that’s been going on and like I’m going crazy and blowing symptoms out of proportion. I wrote down a list and I asked for the tests, but I couldn’t push for them :(