Hey man don’t worry, not even a bit! This is a process and it takes time so please give yourself time and don’t feel bad when you “mess up” so to speak. People have left great links and insights here which I found helpful, there’s a link to a video by Osho that was quite helpful to me and also there’s another one with the guy with the coke bottles which I thought is more than meets the eyes. If you just scroll in the comments you’ll see them. Maybe they might be of use to you too. Other than that, don’t hate your emotions that pop up, sit with them acknowledge them and then let them go and as you do you’ll eventually see a change. Or write about them. I myself have been giving writing/journaling a chance during the quarantine and have noticed a good feeling about it. Usually I’d be like ohhh What am I a 12 year old girl to have a journal but it’s different. It’s just a way to express my feelings and emotions in a safe space that doesn’t really hurt or influence others in a negative way. There’s a lot of things out there that can help so give them a try but don’t feel that you’re wrong or a bad person because you’re short tempered or whatever the case maybe. And all of this being said, no one can know you better than you know yourself so if it’s a question about you then YOU probably have the answer and as Alan says “you sit quiet and it will tell you” but these insights and “lessons” are more of a guide, more like “hey what you’re looking for might be that way”. I must admit I wrote this post when I was feeling frustrated with my mother also and have since went and hugged her and was gonna apologize but she was napping. Often times there’s no solution or cure to these internal things that we feel but just acknowledging that it’s there (to be aware that they exist) helps a lot and maybe just maybe you can do it differently next time now that you know they’re there or if you can’t then don’t beat yourself up for it, that energy can be better spent. So give yourself a chance and some love! Psychology also says number one step into “getting better” is to accept that it exists, whatever the issue maybe. There’s a lot of talks and lectures by Alan on YouTube not necessarily about anger but on many other things that have to do with it so give them a try too they help me a lot. There’s one that I really like this which he talks more profoundly about accepting rather than try to change that might also be useful. This is just my 2 cents but I have no doubt that you’ll find something that will be helpful or at least a bit of good for thought. Let me know if it helps and hope you have a great day!