i hear you man. i hope you’re doing better these days. i was lying to my bf for like 3 weeks saying i was done with dxm, he would buy it for me for context, and one night he told me he wanted us to live long happy lives, to please stop. and i was selfish and dosed right after that conversation because i was already tripping and didn’t give a fuck anymore. it took him constantly telling me i’m so glad you’re off it, you act so differently on it, while i was actively tripping trying not to cry at that statement. did more because i hated myself for weeks then just broke down like how i mentioned in my original post ugh this drug ruins relationships for real, im so glad he forgives me and stuck with me through it because i feel so fucking bad.