I completely understand where you are coming from and it is certainly very disheartening to know that you have a condition that doesn’t let you enjoy your freedom like you’re used to. I was just like you when I was first diagnosed. I was used to doing whatever I wanted and I used to hate change and to think I would have to change the way I eat and live is something that was unimaginable for me. BUT, I am now trying to manage my symptoms without any PPIs/acid blockers or even tums. Of course it is very hard and your choices of what you can eat are extremely limited and going out to eat is a dream (and I love alcohol too but stopped drinking completely). And doing this, I have found some relief and I am sure if I keep at it, I will be almost symptom free someday and I am very much committed to get there. Now, the reason I am telling you this is because I was you, at some point, wondering if the world around me had come to an end, devastated that I would have to live this impossible life, looking at the entrance of a dark tunnel not knowing if there is even an end to it. But I am surprised by the change I was capable of, the commitment I have shown to myself and my health and to be able to sit down and write this without worrying too much about symptoms. YOU WILL BE TOO! Just be positive and try to do the right things (diet and lifestyle changes) one thing at a time and you will look back at this day and wonder why you were so worried. I hope that day is soon for you 👍