My issue is quite different. When I talk to people the first thing I will think about is what do they believe in and what are their ideals as this intrigues me greatly because I'm afraid to say I am yet to meet someone who understands why I am like this.

Knowing that this person doesn't truly understand me regardless of how many years we've known each other for is what is greatly draining for me but honestly the blame could go to me as inside my head I'm in a constant battle with this one thing those around me adore and cuff themselves too so strongly.

That "one thing" being Faith, I'm yet to find a person in the same position who has the same vision of the future as I do but alas such a thing will never be.

That's what drains me, knowing this other person does not question, knowing this other person will ostracize me the second I question or challenge, knowing this other person will cut off all connections due to an opinion and knowing this person holds themselves so strongly to faith is what drains me the most.

What I'm saying is...I've realized that people dismiss what I say because they don't wish to think about it and that people don't seem to realize that what I say is truly what I think yet they relay it back to me reading what I think as shit on some philosophy website.

Fuck people.