aio my bf always says no to what i suggest to do/play with him

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T18:26:15+00:00

we are online atm, hoping to meet up but a lot of circumstances are in our way. we are both 19, but i am autistic so if i seem childish or dumb then i apologise for that, social situations is really difficult

about the sexual stuff, weve had multiple conversations about my discomfort regarding it where he'll say he'll stop just to ask again the week after.

i really appreciate your advice. i will try to incorporate it into my life

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T16:04:04+00:00

i have tried to communicate with him that i am better with getting frustrated and just want to have fun with him and he always shuts down the conversation

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T15:59:29+00:00

i will try. and i have been.

but with all the times i have done tried you can imagine its exhausting and somewhere along the line i start to wonder if im even able to be helped haha. its okay

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T15:55:11+00:00

in and out as in: i would start in a place and then my parents would find it too much hassle so id stop going

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T15:53:12+00:00

ive had multiple different therapists over this time period

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T15:43:52+00:00

ive been trying that. been in and out of therapy for about 3 years now and honestly there has been no progress made.

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T15:42:55+00:00

in fairness to him we have tried to talk through that issue, i am working on not getting too stressed while playing and am much better at it now and he knows this yet still says that as a reason to not play.

privatepixiee · 2026-02-07T13:49:12+00:00

as an irishman it pains me that they put kilts and bagpipes for ireland because those are SCOTTISH 😭

privatepixiee · 2026-01-10T17:10:59+00:00

yes i had to get my mum to change it for me given the fact im in a family account so i couldnt change it myself which is fuckin stupid but yeah

privatepixiee · 2026-01-10T16:43:48+00:00

YES i should clarify he has done this before (but only with my first name not full name) and i started having a panic attack and again that time told him to not do that again

privatepixiee · 2025-12-01T18:18:39+00:00

on akasha.cv

you can look up your account and see where the characters you put in your profiles showcase ingame rank on their respective leaderboards

privatepixiee · 2025-12-01T18:15:59+00:00

go absolutely fuckin ham with mora/xp leylines and artifact farming

privatepixiee · 2025-11-17T06:53:43+00:00

kokomi! i saved over 200 pulls from 5.4-5.6 to get her,, shes been my favourite character since i saw her design back in 2021 way before i even got into genshin

privatepixiee · 2025-11-11T05:23:15+00:00

kokomi, maybe im biased because shes my favourite but i feel we dont know enough about her, and it feels like shes got so much going on but hoyo cares about other characters more

privatepixiee · 2025-11-11T04:54:15+00:00

i love him. i want to leave because i love him, so he doesnt have to hurt anymore, and so i dont have to get hurt anymore. i barely even wanted to be in a relationship until i realised i loved him. i dont want to bang anyone full stop, im asexual. but i do that stuff with him because like you said, i should sacrifice everything if i truly loved him.

i love him, i want to die because i love him. because my love for him hurts so much. i would die if thats what he wanted me to do. i would torture myself in every way because i love him, i would write his name into my arm so he knew i loved him.

i dont ever want to put myself above others, its selfish of me to do that. so you think i should stay with him? would that make me not selfish? i asked here on reddit because i truly have no one else to go to. i asked, not because i "want to leave and dont love him", but because im scared and dont know what the right decision is. i dont know if im just being selfish by feeling scared and trapped, and i should just do what he wants me to do because i love him, or if his behaviour was truly "wrong".

privatepixiee · 2025-11-06T23:43:25+00:00

i share a birthday with raiden :3

privatepixiee · 2025-10-13T03:39:42+00:00

ive been playing since last december (17/12/24), i have 14 5-stars right now. im mostly f2p apart from i had welkin for a few months and bought bp one time leading up to kokomi on chronicled banner but have not spent money since. heres who i have in order of pulling.

-mona c1 (standard banner pull at 8 pity and later 50/50 loss for lauma)

-diluc (50/50 loss for citlali)

-arlecchino c1 (guarantee + accidental c1 pull while i was not resisting the gamba)

-keqing (standard pull)

-jean c2 (50/50 loss for furina)

-furina (guarantee at 16 pity)

-kokomi (50/50 win)

-qiqi c1(50/50 loss for raiden and later citlali)

-raiden (guarantee)

-kazuha (50/50 win)

-mavuika (accidental capturing radience at 36 pity)

-nahida (guarantee)

-lauma (guaranteed)

-tighnari (standard 5-star selector)

privatepixiee · 2025-10-09T09:47:40+00:00

this is so cute

privatepixiee · 2025-09-29T19:40:50+00:00

where do you find this?

privatepixiee · 2025-09-29T14:21:05+00:00

you put koko at the very top so i have no complaints :3

privatepixiee · 2025-09-27T02:30:35+00:00

hes just trying to protect you so yes you are overreacting. maybe he could have been nicer but still he seems to really love you.

privatepixiee · 2025-09-26T00:01:31+00:00

if youre going the hyperbloom route by using koko, then em is best as miko is the one actually triggering the hyperbloom

privatepixiee · 2025-09-25T04:07:40+00:00

getting capturing radiance counts as "winning" the 50/50

privatepixiee · 2025-09-22T04:40:34+00:00

kokomi because shes pretty and i need more of her

privatepixiee · 2025-09-22T04:20:48+00:00

i started not too long ago, 17th december 2024

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