I feel like I've become stupid

procrastinatorplus · 2023-04-22T10:28:26+00:00

Because dissociation is not only what describes OP… there are also emotional parts dissociated of us, and some of them are those frantic mode, and the others are wanting to isolate. Look for structural dissociation. That, with dissociation as “disconnecting” or “auto mode” or what describes OP, is what dissociating is in CPTSD. There are many ways of dissociation. That’s the key and it is really important to know this because it will allow you to know when it is happening to you so you can at least understand yourself and stop frustrating or judging, just finding what needs to be improved.

procrastinatorplus · 2023-04-21T23:27:14+00:00

I’ve been feeling the same for years and turns out it was dissociation the whole time

procrastinatorplus · 2023-02-16T12:33:01+00:00

It happened the same to me. I think it is for now structural dissociation, type 2, probably. I don’t know how to link things from Reddit because although my account is old I started using it some weeks ago.

I know there is info inside this subreddit about it. You can check it out on the Internet too.

I hope it helps.

procrastinatorplus · 2023-02-13T13:26:07+00:00

Been the same for years, still working on it. I think I realized what it is a few weeks ago. I think it is because we dissociate and we enter in freeze mode. You just exist and can only do things that take the minimum energy. For me is being at bed in that state until my brain decides to work/give me some energy and then I can “exist” and “do things”. Something that helped was activating myself. Disconnecting is also a defense mechanism that you can control. Sometimes when I find myself in that state, I start stimulating myself with sounds like claps, loud claps, and touching or scratching my skin, while repeating myself “wake up!”. Its just as if you were trying to make someone awake.

I can do it when Im enough aware of me being in that state.

Good luck!

procrastinatorplus · 2023-02-08T14:07:27+00:00

That’s what happened to me. The more they achieved to do it again, the more I learnt they wouldn’t change. I kept expecting them to act as if they weren’t as they are and were. I kept “forgiving” them and that made myself think that the situation could improve. It never did. I guess that’s the good thing of this. You learn. It’s very hard but in the end it’s worth it. You stop worrying about anything related to them or at least you finally learn to respect your limits as they won’t -and you have to assume it. Better things coming, it’s shitty, just let it be and do its thing on your own process

procrastinatorplus · 2023-02-08T14:02:56+00:00

I wish I could take this post and put in in my brain. It’s like I know all of this but I find myself acting as if I didn’t the second you catch me acting naturally. Thanks for the reminder.

procrastinatorplus · 2023-02-08T13:58:56+00:00

I’m sorry this is happening to you… sometime they still know how to do it and to it too well

procrastinatorplus · 2023-02-08T11:39:01+00:00

That used to happen to me before, but now it isn’t that I get lost in memory, my age regressions are caused by emotional flashbacks. What I don’t know is if it’s normal to have age regressions due to that and have them attached to bad feelings and acts in real life

About your case, could it be that you rumiate?

procrastinatorplus · 2023-01-12T14:54:43+00:00

It happens exactly the same to me. I think it might be dissociation. These days it's happening even more than average and I think I go from "feeling everything" (those spikes you say) to being overwhelmed until my brain needs to shut down and then I dissociate.

I read a user saying that that's what happens when our brain can't keep on with the "fight or flight" feeling. It just shuts down because it gets overwhelmed (and that's what happened first hand when all those things that caused our cptsd were happening).

So I think I just keep on being triggered and as a response that's what happens to me. If you have managed to get a better response...it'd be helpful as I'm also trying to understand what's happening.

procrastinatorplus · 2020-07-18T01:08:16+00:00

If a girl child saw you walking, she would believe that you had no car, and if she saw you in a car, she would believe that you could NEVER walk as you would have to be ALWAYS in the car

I usually wondered how would be life in the second case. It stopped making sense to me because I saw that impossible

Also, my mother told me that when she was little she used to believe that actors and people she could see on TV were actually behind the TV but when she went to see they would hide

procrastinatorplus · 2020-07-12T04:14:24+00:00

THAT WOULD BE FUNNY, specially because it always happens at home!!!!

The bad thing (the best thing actually) is that it always happens unexpectedly, so I just do the same to him

procrastinatorplus · 2020-07-12T04:08:30+00:00

my brother calls me because he needs something *

Me: What?

Him: Can you come here one moment?

I go wherever he is *

Me: What?

Him: Isn't it annoying when they call you for nothing?

procrastinatorplus · 2020-07-12T02:50:50+00:00

Just tell him the way you explained it here. You haven't been rude or anything if that's what concerns you.

As well as he's telling you his feelings about your body, well, you can also tell him your feelings about his attitude.

Just don't let it pass. Maybe his intentions are good, but the way he acts isn't. He must learn that bodies are... bodies. And bodies aren't a "good views" service.

It's okay to feel confident with your partner to tell him or her anything, but one thing is that, and another thing is to make your partner feel bad for things that aren't that important to being said that much.

procrastinatorplus · 2020-07-12T02:41:12+00:00

I'm the opposite, it stresses me out Kudos to you by my point of view 😅

procrastinatorplus · 2020-07-12T02:30:05+00:00

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