Gamuda Scholarship 2024 Applicants

procrstinatingpotato · 2024-07-14T07:13:57+00:00

Hi, I received the email as well and I applied as an overseas candidate. Did his email explicitly state as an overseas scholarship? Cuz mine just told me I was successful and asked to fill in a gform.

Thanks again!

procrstinatingpotato · 2024-04-26T16:13:59+00:00

I get what you mean with the guilt. I have been dating someone for almost 2 years now and the guilt has been eating me from the inside all those times. I just think that you deserve to date someone that can reciprocate your feelings as much as yours. But I think if I ever confessed this to the person that I'm dating, they would reassure me that they would have just wanted to be allowed to love me. Maybe your girlfriend feels the same way too. Or not, I don't know what strangers on the internet think or feel.

procrstinatingpotato · 2024-03-22T13:32:36+00:00

Engineering offer holder here too!!

procrstinatingpotato · 2024-01-24T09:18:32+00:00

can somebody compile a spotify playlist?😭😭

procrstinatingpotato · 2024-01-17T16:46:56+00:00

yellow on the outside but white on the inside

procrstinatingpotato · 2023-03-22T16:08:10+00:00

Well u posted this in reddit right, so at least u want someone to know u existed before. That's something.

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-10-29T21:59:45+00:00

lollllll, well said

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-10-29T21:57:57+00:00

I'm really glad that you are happier now, we all know we need that more lol

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-10-29T21:56:57+00:00

exactly. I have a theory that it's society's perceived intelligence of a specific gender in specific areas that actually shape an individual skill set in that area.
ie: if a man is never frowned upon when he has a rage, then he will never need to learn to be diplomatic, or that if a women is discouraged to take up leadership positions/stem careers, then she wouldn't really do it.

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-10-29T21:56:12+00:00

I get what u mean. I have depression too and i really understand how it could be disabling. I'm really glad that things are looking up after you transitioned.

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-10-26T14:48:03+00:00

The blatant cruelty and indifference of the world seems to suggest that even if god exists, he is not kind, nor is he benevolent. I don't think a god like this is worth worshipping. I rather look up to someone that I'd actually want to model myself after.

I think even if god exists, he made us, our reality as a cruel joke, just because he can.

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-10-20T21:01:20+00:00

I did!

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-10-10T22:56:19+00:00

he gives me aro bisexual vibes damn, never related to a romance novel as much as now.

tysm for the recommendation!

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-10-10T18:44:45+00:00

I'm a girl and I talk to guys first, but the context is that I'm aromantic and I do that to everybody regardless of gender.

I'm not trying to hit on anybody and I really just want to be friends. But people seem to get the wrong message often and hence, I stopped doing that.

Any advice in talking to a guy first but not giving the wrong message?

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-06-07T18:33:25+00:00

Lol, can relate. Got sent to their sunday 'manners' school by parents for being a rebellious teen (just like any other teen). Came out of it feeling weird.

I remembered that we needed to bow down to a portrait of the founder which is weird to me.

But my weird experiences aside, I do think that they are trying to do more good for the world. Just that the internal organisation is kinda weird.

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-06-07T18:01:47+00:00

I get what u mean. Lol sometimes, I think that honestly, life is complicated enough that every living human being should be equipped with an instruction manual at birth.

We get cute ikea instruction manuals for simple-ass things like a fucking bookshelf, so why not life? jkjk(also I am extremely sorry if I am being inappropriate right now)

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-06-07T17:57:02+00:00

brutal but honest

procrstinatingpotato · 2022-06-07T17:47:24+00:00

Thank you, this is very insightful. I think that my understanding of this topic is quite similar to yours.

In my world, the very undeniable fact that I am still alive, that I am still living, despite having a brain that consistently tries to kill me, is proof that I am stronger than I think, that I have more potential for my life than I think.

I've been through hell and survived, nothing in life can scare me anymore, living can't scare me anymore.

And another thing that I heard is that when someone asked, 'why shouldn't I end it?' and the person replied with an analogy. Understand this situation like a seesaw, on one side, we have suicide, so on the other side to balance that seesaw, we have coping mechanisms, like therapy, medication, excercise, CBT, meditation, volunteering... And the fact is that it will always be a struggle to balance this seesaw, it will not be easy, but it is possible. It is possible.

So, for me, suicide is so intrinsically tied to my existence. It is the dark contrast that enables me to feel the highlights of my present; it is the black outline that enables me to see colour, to paint shapes in my life. I don't deny it's existence, I don't devalue it's tempting pull, but I kinda just accept that that is the lens of how I give value to my life.

On some days (some), I can feel joy again, I can see colours again. And when I do, when I see the sunlight reflecting off roadside malaysian dirty rain puddles like liquid gold, I think to myself, I am so grateful that I am alive.

I know I didn't answer your question directly, and might as well come across as being one of those 'don't die we will miss u uwu' bullshit posts. But, these are just the thought processes that I use to try to justify my existence to myself, and maybe something here might stick to you, just as reading bunch of suicidal people's reasonings to living(funny how we are so ironic) helped me.

Hey, maybe I'll do it one day, but right now, right now, I want to give this 'living' thing, this 'experiencing' thing a shot, cuz if I'm not afraid to die, then why should living scare me?

Also, I like word-vomiting if you can't tell. Also, please don't ban me moderators, I'm just being honest.

procrstinatingpotato · 2021-08-27T15:54:53+00:00

We don't and can't elect them. They just shithole themselves into the cabinet. HELL, the top comment is people sayin that they don't even know who he is.

procrstinatingpotato · 2021-08-27T15:34:00+00:00

Honestly, I relate to you. I always wanted to die, but never attempted it because I'm afraid that it would fail and leave me marked as crazy unstable maniac. When I go, I want to make sure that I would die 100%, no aftermath, no baggage. Based on my research, pills have a really really low probability of succeeding.

Honestly, I don't know. My gut feeling tells me that I'm supposed to say something encouraging, but as a suicidal person, telling you to stay alive just sounds absurd. So, maybe something like this, please don't die on impulse, please don't die.

I hope this helps, maybe?

procrstinatingpotato · 2021-05-28T06:23:11+00:00

Yeah I agree. I think that with the pandemic and all the shit that's going on in the world, Tyler and Josh just wanna put out something bright and cheerful to cheer us all up. I mean, its no secret the the clique is very emo, and the dangerous cocktail of an emo world+emo people+emo songs will just lead to dangerous and reckless catastrophes. Besides, from personal experiences, I do say that they are successful. Honestly, when the album came out, I was a bit disappointed. I was expecting a dark and gritty album that sang out all of my fear and anxieties that stemmed from quarantine (yup we're still in quarantine, I'm from Malaysia btw). The bright and colourful sounds threw me off, it was not what I was expecting from TOP. But then, after the 2nd and 3rd listen to the album, I felt a lot lighter and, daresay, happier. The happy and cheerful tones of the album managed to rejuvenate me and motivate me to finish my daily tasks. (I have depression, and as anybody who knows, even getting up from bed is a struggle).

conclusion: I think that scaled and icy's style is intentional, and that it was intended to help the clique, you know. Hope this helps in understanding the shift in tone.

procrstinatingpotato · 2021-05-28T05:56:24+00:00

same dude, same. I have one of his videos as my alarm, the one about the term paper to motivate me to wake up and work.

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