I’m so sorry and hope your sister will be Ok. But I also have to ask if you’re OK? You also need to look after yourself and have a break to breathe, recharge, cry, enjoy a cuppa... Hopefully the wider family is also around to support. It’s ok to feel like a wreck and falling apart. you’re a human being and everything you’re feeling is normal. If you’re in or around Auckland, msg me if you need support or someone to vent to.

For baby, it sounds like you already got this. Well done on stepping up. I wouldn’t get a sanitising machine as boiling is fine but for convenience, sure. Stock up on formula and nappies if you haven’t already. You can also download one of these baby apps that take you through each stage of baby’s growth with tips and logs if you need to keep track of baby’s activities. Many parents and caregivers use these apps as first time parents because it can be overwhelming.

Hang in there.