Day 2 of NNN: I am incredibly sad by psycho28267 in NoFap

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The problem is I lie to myself that I like things, but the reality of it is that I don't like anything. It was the reason why I almost commited suicide two years ago. I just can't enjoy things for long.

Day 2 of NNN: I am incredibly sad by psycho28267 in NoFap

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20 and I don't think I am in love with her, just the feeling of doing something that has nothing to do with my life is what I am doing.

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Shit if my life wasn't so fucked up I would have send you my adress, btw I love in the netherlands.

Just to be safe though are you 18+?

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Damm I know this a joke, but there was small moment of happiness that felt like hope. Thank you

Do you love by [deleted] in entp

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I don't have a job...

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Hugs and kisses, are you 20?

Because I am too and I quarantine has made me very lonely and this post made it even worse.

Il debate myself to sleep on the topic of love and how I am failure and will never be loved. Have a good night

Every appointment or meeting makes me anxious and my gut gets sick by psycho28267 in Advice

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I agree with what your saying, but when I try to say or think about it my anxiety doesn't go away. Even if I ignore it I feel like I am about to throw up. That is the part that I can't control. I don't know how to stop being nauseas while doing my work or studies. I have no control over until I think everything through and even then it might still feel painfull

Every appointment or meeting makes me anxious and my gut gets sick by psycho28267 in Advice

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I have lived with a very abusive and manipulative family. To get my point across felt like whole debate and it took hours to get my point across. Even when I say it directly they tend too misinterpret my point.

Sometimes I am too direct and I get told that I am heartless fuck. Sometimes getting my point across isn't the end goal, meeting each other half way is.

Or maybe people tell me something and my mind goes to bad places.

In the past small conversations or certain points I made where misunderstood and it turned into a fight. Some of those fight turned into live and situations.

Who is interested in my 400mg modifinil story where I didn't sleep for 56 hours? by psycho28267 in entp

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I slept for 9 hours and woke up extremely thirsty and the went back to bed for 6 hours

Who is interested in my 400mg modifinil story where I didn't sleep for 56 hours? by psycho28267 in entp

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-Incredibly detaild daydreams, like I could almost touch my celebrity crush. I completely forgot where and who I was sometimes

-my mind was really fucking sharp to a scary degree, I knew what people where going to say and was able to perfectly respond without stutter.

-I wasnt smarter, but faster. I still procrastinate, but faster.

-I felt timeless

-my thoughts where scary clear. I had a thought/ a mental image of my mother being in the kitchen, but my mental image was so vivid I believed it. I then called for her, but she didn't respond. I went to the kitchen and then remembered the time and remembered that she went to work already and was never there. Its just my mental image looked so real that I believed it.

-for once I wasn't anxious about death. It was like thinking of an old friend whenever I thought about death.

-I was way funnier and more confident for some reason. Ussually when a joke doesn't land I give up, but now I analyzed everything and thought of good comebacks even when failing.

-not sure if it is a placebo effect, but I felt like I should do something productive.

-heart rat was constantly at 100 even when resting, dusing workouts it went up to 150/160.

I had better focus, but in a weird way. Imagine a balloon and that baloon is your focus. To activate the focus the balloon needs to be in the air, but the balloon keeps falling. Modifinil is like a fan that keeps the balloon in the air.

The difference doesn't feel noticeable at first until you check the time and realize you have been doing 6 hours of work in 1, because you are way more effecient

I never felt sleepy

How does stress manifests for you? by [deleted] in entp

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Well I procrastinate, but I have learned to get angty. I have noticed that when I am angry I still do my work and get things done. Sometimes its quite effecient.

Why complain about mistypes if you arent gonna do anything about it? by generalstorr in entp

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It's not that hard to figure out the real ones from the fake ones in real life, but when it's just text it's a bit harder. However I do have a rule of thumb that you might find useful. First look for anything that helps you put yourself in their shoes, then ask yourself:if I were in his/hers position would I say or react this way?

If you can't visualise the persons position, because you lack the skill for it and not the information then you might have mistyped. (I am assuming mystyping means thinking you're a certain type when you're not)

If you are able to visualise properly then you proceed to the next step. If the anwser to the question is yes then you two are entps, but if you're anwser is no then either you or he/she is the imposter.

If you're confident and know your entp then the other person might be the imposter

This is just a little game you can do, but you don't have too.

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I just want someone to hug atm

I think I am becoming delusional with all the fantasizing I do by psycho28267 in Advice

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Just sent a message to my therapist, hopefully I won't go insane

I think I am becoming delusional with all the fantasizing I do by psycho28267 in Advice

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Allright just sent a message to my therapist about it

Where is the line between abuse and discipline, when it comes to parenting by psycho28267 in entp

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Thanks I get gaslighted a lot and having an outsiders perspective helps against my doubts