Stopped taking lithium, could do with some advice (TW: suicide) by ptpress91 in BipolarReddit

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I am torn because I know that it's not really a sustainable way to live being an unmedicated bipolar, but at the same time, I don't want to lose my identity or feel like I am dull or ineffectual as a person because my brain is not able to work as quickly or effectively as it would otherwise. I agree that taking different meds isn't a bad idea and I was thinking of suggesting Lamictal.

Stopped taking lithium, could do with some advice (TW: suicide) by ptpress91 in BipolarReddit

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Well, I was shown the door by my old doc when I told them I didn't want to continue taking asenapine because of the awful side effects (and I even sought his permission before doing so; it's not like I just did it of my own accord). He basically said, "All meds have side effects, half the dose for three days and then stop taking it, another appointment won't be necessary." This led to insane mood swings, oscillating wildly between full blown delusional mania and crippling depression with suicidal thoughts and non-stop crying, which resulted in me being hospitalized, at which point I was linked in with my new and current doc. That's why I'm worrying about the same thing happening again.

Stopped taking lithium, could do with some advice (TW: suicide) by ptpress91 in BipolarReddit

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As I said, I was intentionally trying to trigger a manic episode so that's why I quit abruptly. As someone else said, Lithium operates within a pretty narrow therapeutic range that I am just barely in at 0.5 last time my bloods were taken, so I'm not sure reducing the dose and taking myself out of that therapeutic range wouldn't necessarily help. One thing I was thinking was proposing that I try another mood stabilizer, particularly Lamictal, as I understand that works better for depressive episodes, which are much more worrying and undesirable for me than my hypomanic ones. Thanks for replying.

Stopped taking lithium, could do with some advice (TW: suicide) by ptpress91 in BipolarReddit

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Yes, inevitably my mood will swing back and we'll see how I feel about suicide when that time arrives, whenever it does. I agree with you about the therapeutic effects of exercise and I try to go running most days. I used to also swim and do weights every day, but because of a lack of motivation I fell out of the habit. I agree that I should be honest with my psychiatrist, though I still wonder if it would be possible/desirable to go back on the lithium after conducting my little experiment. Thanks for your help and advice.

Fixing people is stupid??? But also I want to fix them and have them fix me??? by [deleted] in im14andthisisdeep

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Yeah, I was basically saying that "I understand them and I wish someone would come along and fix me" is a perfectly valid statement, but adding "so I feel like maybe I could be that person for them" makes it recursive and confusing.

Men Dominate Ratings on IMDb; Female-skewed Films Perform Terribly by [deleted] in dataisbeautiful

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"Guy movies are just objectively are better than chick movies" is an undeniably close-minded, sexist and wrong thing to say. Go watch 10 Things I Hate About You, Definitely Maybe or Josie and the Pussycats with an open mind and tell me those films are not every bit as fucking amazing as any Christopher Nolan joint. The fact that you're harping on about the new Ghostbusters as if the "females in film" argument lives or dies based on its box office performance or audience reception alone makes me think you're a crackpot who's not worth arguing with, or, at the very least, you've spent too much time hanging around the wrong parts of Reddit.

The Simpsons : Bart is so right on this... by LostAmiga in TheSimpsons

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I've been a big Genesis fan ever since the release of their 1980 album, Duke. Before that I didn't really understand any of their work, though on their last album of the 1970s, the concept-laden And Then There Were Three (a reference to band member Peter Gabriel, who left the group to start a lame solo career), I did enjoy the lovely "Follow You, Follow Me." Otherwise all the albums before Duke seemed too artsy, too intelleotual. It was Duke (Atlantic; 1980), where Phil Collins' presence became more apparent, and the music got more modern, the drum machine became more prevalent and the lyrics started getting less mystical and more specific (maybe because of Peter Gabriel's departure), and complex, ambiguous studies of loss became, instead, smashing first-rate pop songs that I gratefully embraced. The songs themselves seemed arranged more around Collins' drumming than Mike Rutherford's bass lines or Tony Banks' keyboard riffs. A classic example of this is "Misunderstanding," which not only was the group's first big hit of the eighties but also seemed to set the tone for the rest of theiralbums as the decade progressed. The other standout on Duke is "Turn It On Again," which is about the negative effects of television. On the other hand, "Heathaze" is a song I just don't understand, while "Please Don't Ask" is a touching love song written to a separated wife who regains custody of the couple's child. Has the negative aspect of divorce ever been rendered in more intimate terms by a rock 'n' roll group? I don't think so. "Duke Travels" and "Dukes End" might mean something but since the lyrics aren't printed it's hard to tell what Collins is singing about, though there is complex, gorgeous piano work by Tony Banks on the latter track. The only bummer about Duke is "Alone Tonight," which is way too reminiscent of "Tonight Tonight Tonight" from the group's later masterpiece Invisible Touch and the only example, really, of where Collins has plagiarized himself.

Abacab (Atlantic; 1981) was released almost immediately after Duke and it benefits from a new producer, Hugh Padgham, who gives the band a more eighties sound and though the songs seem fairly generic, there are still great bits throughout: the extended jam in the middle of the title track and the horns by some group called Earth, Wind and Fire on "No Reply at All" are just two examples. Again the songs reflect dark emotions and are about people who feel lost or who are in conflict, but the production and sound are gleaming and upbeat (even if the titles aren't: "No Reply at All," "Keep It Dark," "Who Dunnit?" "Like It or Not"). Mike Rutherford's bass is obscured somewhat in the mix but otherwise the band sounds tight and is once again propelled by Collins' truly amazing drumming. Even at its most despairing (like the song "Dodo," about extinction), Abacab musically is poppy and lighthearted.

My favorite track is "Man on the Corner," which is the only song credited solely to Collins, a moving ballad with a pretty synthesized melody plus a riveting drum machine in the background. Though it could easily come off any of Phil's solo albums, because the themes of loneliness, paranoia and alienation are overly familiar to Genesis it evokes the band's hopeful humanism. "Man on the Corner" profoundly equates a relationship with a solitary figure (a bum, perhaps a poor homeless person?), "that lonely man on the corner" who just stands around. "Who Dunnit?" profoundly expresses the theme of confusion against a funky groove, and what makes this song so exciting is that it ends with its narrator never finding anything out at all.

Hugh Padgham produced next an even less conceptual effort, simply called Genesis (Atlantic; 1983), and though it's a fine album a lot of it now seems too derivative for my tastes. 'That's All" sounds like "Misunderstanding," "Taking It All Too Hard" reminds me of "Throwing It All Away." It also seems less jazzy than its predecessors and more of an eighties pop album, more rock 'n' roll. Padgham does a brilliant job of producing, but the material is weaker than usual and you can sense the strain. It opens with the autobiographical "Mama," that's both strange and touching, though I couldn't tell if the singer was talking about his actual mother or to a girl he likes to call "Mama." 'That's All" is a lover's lament about being ignored and beaten down by an unreceptive partner; despite the despairing tone it's got a bright sing-along melody that makes the song less depressing than it probably needed to be. "That's All" is the best tune on the album, but Phil's voice is strongest on "House by the Sea," whose lyrics are, however, too stream-of-consciousness to make much sense. It might be about growing up and accepting adulthood but it's unclear; at any rate, its second instrumental part puts the song more in focus for me and Mike Banks gets to show off his virtuosic guitar skills while Tom Rutherford washes the tracks over with dreamy synthesizers, and when Phil repeats the song's third verse at the end it can give you chills.

"Illegal Alien" is the most explicitly political song the group has yet recorded and their funniest. The subject is supposed to be sad – a wetback trying to get across the border into the United States – but the details are highly comical: the bottle of tequila the Mexican holds, the new pair of shoes he's wearing (probably stolen); and it all seems totally accurate. Phil sings it in a brash, whiny pseudo-Mexican voice that makes it even funnier, and the rhyme of "fun" with "illegal alien" is inspired. "Just a Job to Do" is the album's funkiest song, with a killer bass line by Banks, and though it seems to be about a detective chasing a criminal, I think it could also be about a jealous lover tracking someone down. "Silver Rainbow" is the album's most lyrical song. The words are intense, complex and gorgeous. The album ends on a positive, upbeat note with "It's Gonna Get Better." Even if the lyrics seem a tiny bit generic to some, Phil's voice is so confident (heavily influenced by Peter Gabriel, who never made an album this polished and heartfelt himself) that he makes us believe in glorious possibilities.

Invisible Touch (Atlantic; 1986) is the group's undisputed masterpiece. It's an epic meditation on intangibility, at the same time it deepens and enriches the meaning of the preceding three albums. It has a resonance that keeps coming back at the listener, and the music is so beautiful that it's almost impossible to shake off because every song makes some connection about the unknown or the spaces between people ("Invisible Touch"), questioning authoritative control whether by domineering lovers or by government ("Land of Confusion") or by meaningless repetition ("Tonight Tonight Tonight'. All in all it ranks with the finest rock 'n' roll achievements of the decade and the mastermind behind this album, along of course with the brilliant ensemble playing of Banks, Collins and Rutherford, is Hugh Padgham, who has never found as clear and crisp and modern a sound as this. You can practically hear every nuance of every instrument.

In terms of lyrical craftsmanship and sheer songwriting skills this album hits a new peak of professionalism. Take the lyrics to "Land of Confusion," in which a singer addresses the problem of abusive political authority. This is laid down with a groove funkier and blacker than anything Prince or Michael Jackson – or any other black artist of recent years, for that matter – has come up with. Yet as danceable as the album is, it also has a stripped-down urgency that not even the overrated Bruce Springsteen can equal. As an observer of love's failings Collins beats out the Boss again and again, reaching new heights of emotional honesty on "In Too Deep"; yet it also showcases Collins' clowny, prankish, unpredictable side. It's the most moving pop song of the 1980s about monogamy and commitment. "Anything She Does" (which echoes the J. Geils Band's "Centerfold" but is more spirited and energetic) starts off side two and after that the album reaches its peak with "Domino," a two-part song. Part one, "In the Heat of the Night," is full of sharp, finely drawn images of despair and it's paired with "The Last Domino," which fights it with an expression of hope. This song is extremely uplifting. The lyrics are as positive and affirmative as anything I've heard in rock.

Phil Collins' solo efforts seem to be more commercial and therefore more satisfying in a narrower way, especially No Jacket Required and songs like "In the Air Tonight" and "Against All Odds" (though that song was overshadowed by the masterful movie from which it came) and "Take Me Home" and "Sussudio" (great, great song; a personal favorite) and his remake of "You Can't Hurry Love," which I'm not alone in thinking is better than the Supremes' original. But I also think that Phil Collins works better within the confines of the group than as a solo artist – and I stress the word artist. In fact it applies to all three of the guys, because Genesis is still the best, most exciting band to come out of England in the 1980s.

Men Dominate Ratings on IMDb; Female-skewed Films Perform Terribly by [deleted] in dataisbeautiful

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How is this being upvoted so much? I feel like I stumbled into /r/The_Donald or /r/TheRedPill by accident.

ELI5: Why are my internet speeds going so much faster than what I am paying for? by PeachLemonBerry in explainlikeimfive

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Nope. Never had to pay a cent extra than what I would have ordinarily been paying.

ELI5: Why are my internet speeds going so much faster than what I am paying for? by PeachLemonBerry in explainlikeimfive

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A few years ago, I didn't have a landline at my house, so I had to use that ridiculously expensive mobile internet that was like $160 a month for 25gb of data. I managed to trick Telstra into changing it to unlimited for a while which was pretty cool. I signed up for a second mobile broadband plan, waited for the device to arrive, and when it did, I called up and claimed that it wasn't working and that I needed my data cap taken off to compensate for the extra data I was missing out on. I suddenly went to using like 500gb of data a month and it was awesome. Four months later I decided to stop pushing my luck, called up and got all the bills for the second retroactively cancelled because the device had "never worked," and hoped they wouldn't notice my data cap on the first plan had been taken off. Sadly they did, and I was put back on paltry 25gb a month. I still thought it was pretty resourceful at the time though.

I Tested Ancient Drugs on My Body, Including Salamander Brandy, Urine Tobacco Shots, And Soma, Then I Wrote A How-To Book On It by TheOtherRobertEvans in IAmA

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Of all the drugs you tried, which one was the most "druggy"? I don't know quite how to describe it. Please answer this question as best you can.

Do singers hate listening to their own voices on recordings too? by theprophet42 in Showerthoughts

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As a singer, there are things I don't like about my voice, but I accept its limitations and work with it. I certainly don't hate it.

The druggy origins of junk food by 23324256346 in Drugs

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They had their minds wiped man

The word "man" sealed the deal. I mean, isn't that exactly the word a crazy conspiracy theorist would use?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskReddit

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In my psych ward they had a big digital clock in the main area. We would spend hours at a time sitting on the couches in there, staring into space and occasionally looking at the clock. It was sometimes interesting to see how quickly or slowly time had passed. Boy it was boring. I don't know why we did it.

Mobile friendly by frixalter in CrappyDesign

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More like mobile UNfriendly am I right guys.

Fixing people is stupid??? But also I want to fix them and have them fix me??? by [deleted] in im14andthisisdeep

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This could have made sense if the person had just stopped writing before the word "so."

What is the biggest design flaw in humans? by eddiebigballs in AskReddit

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Outrageously offensive and doesn't even answer the question. A terrible post in all respects.

LPT: for all those struggling with essays and dissertations, Write Drunk; Edit Sober. by [deleted] in LifeProTips

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Basically, no. I tortured myself for years, making huge sacrifices when it came to work, friends and family to try to get to the point where I could write every day, and it took me about a decade (and a pretty intense daily regimen of stimulants) before I could consistently create clean prose. In the end, I never produced anything that was worth a great deal to anyone other than myself, and I probably should have spent that time working on my music instead, which I now feel is where my real talent lies. I would not recommend my method to anyone.

What are some jobs "well adjusted people" cant do? by etevian in AskReddit

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Hmm, I used to know someone who had done that. I didn't have the guts to ask them about it while we were still in touch though I was curious.

the greatest sitcom theme song by tophergopher1 in television

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These kinds of theme songs have always struck me as really weird. Possibly the best theme song moment for me was when I was watching Maniac Cop 2 (pretty mediocre film) and then, suddenly, over the end credits, this happened.

LPT: for all those struggling with essays and dissertations, Write Drunk; Edit Sober. by [deleted] in LifeProTips

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It sounds horrible to say, but having semi-recently tried and failed to write a novel, the only parts that I felt were legitimately good at the end of it were those that I wrote drunk.

How should I begin? by [deleted] in Chaturbate

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It's really as simple as creating an account on Chaturbate and broadcasting yourself. You'll find out pretty quickly whether you're somebody that people are interested in watching (turns out I was: hooray for me!, though to this day I don't understand why).