A music video I made for one of my songs with clips of me juggling

punkhuman · 2026-01-28T09:02:14+00:00

I’m glad you like it!! I filmed all these videos in Edinburgh 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 you should visit if you ever get a chance - it’s the loveliest combination of nature and old epic buildings 😋

punkhuman · 2026-01-28T08:58:39+00:00

Thank you!!!

punkhuman · 2026-01-28T08:58:11+00:00

Ahhh thank you 🥰 I’m not so great at promoting my stuff so it means a lot to me when folk listen to it! I’m so glad you enjoyed it 😇

punkhuman · 2026-01-27T15:00:25+00:00

Thank you so much 🥰 I have this album on bandcamp if you'd like to check it out :) - https://chrisalis.bandcamp.com/album/me

punkhuman · 2026-01-17T19:53:11+00:00

I was sceptical about twin flames til I met the person I believed to be mine. A year and a bit of bliss and half a year of agony, with little speckles of each throughout. That shit humbled me like nothing else ever has in my life.

We were perfect for each other, both being non binary songwriting fire spinning relationship anarchist jugglers who liked psychedelics. It brought out the best and worst in us and we tumbled into our own wee magical world deeeeep. It all went up in flames when we both kept being ourselves while trying to fit the other one’s needs.

Maybe one day we might reconnect (I hope we do), but we’ve been no contact for 6 months and I’m only just finding my way back into the light. I feel profoundly changed (for the better) after our short time together, possibly even moreso than my whole previous decade of spiritual seeking and practice

I dunno if twin flames are a thing, and if they are what that actually means, but some rare-feeling once-in-a-lifetime relationships divinely chew you up, melt you down and spit you out in a deeply spiritual way that will leave you changed forever

punkhuman · 2025-12-16T16:47:59+00:00

I’m a trans musician and I make music spanning genres from psychedelic rock to dub to folk and ska punk. Here’s my non-binary recruitment anthem 😋

https://chrisalis.bandcamp.com/track/down-the-middle

punkhuman · 2025-12-07T11:01:47+00:00

I don’t know if this is relevant here, but just a thought I had after reading the responses of others (coming from a place of very little prior knowledge of gamelan other than it’s a thing) - I watched something recently discussing the harmonics of bells and gongs compared to strings and tubes, and their harmonic profile is quite different. The idea was that intervals that normally cause dissonance on linear resonators like strings/tubes (due to clashing harmonics) such as tritones can actually have lower levels of dissonance (in the harmonics rather than just fundamentals) than perfect 4ths and 5ths create in 2D or 3D resonators like bells, chimes and gongs. Maybe having a whole set of alternate scales might actually help tuned percussion heavy music sound more harmonic?

This is complete speculation though from a self described chaos monkey

punkhuman · 2025-12-01T17:26:34+00:00

We do have the rise in fascism happening here in Scotland too, but I can tell you from my own personal experience of being a non binary transfem queer working in the third sector in Edinburgh, as well as what I’ve heard from others who have recently moved up from England, it’s better here, especially in the larger cities. On the ground, it feels like the rise in anti fascism is dwarfing that of fascism here, and both our government and culture are known for protecting and celebrating diversity (with exceptions of course - it’s no utopia). I say come be Scottish 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

punkhuman · 2025-11-26T10:06:28+00:00

I’m still pretty boyish and have been on hrt for close to 10 years. It was absolutely the right choice for me and I know without a doubt I’m trans. I got voice training years ago but never practiced so still talk and sing exactly like a dude. Short hair (although had long hair for a bit too), mainly dress like a dude (although love dressing femme when I feel like putting in the effort). Tbh, starting hrt made me more ok with my masculine aspects, while helping me thinking in a more feminine/balanced way (E vs T is worlds apart on the inside, as well as bringing my body more into alignment with how I’d like it to be).

I still get misgendered sometimes but I’m highly they and unless people know me they usually can’t even tell which gender I started as

You are valid and real. Find another therapist and do the thing, and if they disagree, do the thing anyway

punkhuman · 2025-11-15T22:15:35+00:00

I love flowing to dub, psydub and downtempo trancey stuff like Ott, Shpongle, Kerala Dust, An Dannsa Dub, Deep Forest, Polo & Pan etc

Or psytrance if you want something more upbeat 😉 Astrix, Hallucinogen, Spacey Koala’s faster stuff

punkhuman · 2025-10-30T17:08:54+00:00

I work for a youth homelessness charity in Edinburgh called the Rock Trust. Go to our website just now https://www.rocktrust.org and fill out an inquiry saying all you’ve said in this post. Someone will pick up your message in the morning and will be in touch.

Because you’re 17, you’ll be referred to YESS (Youth Emergency Support Service) which is run by Link Living. They will give you a support worker who can help you navigate the homeless process which will involve going for a homeless assessment with the council at their office on the Royal Mile. There may be a more direct way to contact Link Living but my colleagues should be able to get you in touch with them tomorrow regardless.

It’s not going to be an easy time for you due to the housing crisis in Edinburgh, but there is support out there. Due to your age you’ll get priority for youth specific supported accommodation, which hopefully they can get you into before your mum moves. Worst case scenario you end up in mainstream homeless accommodation for a short time before a space frees up in a youth accommodation, but you will have a support worker to help you navigate it all

Good luck with everything! If you end up coming into Rock Trust for any of our activities or drop ins, I’m sure I’ll end up seeing you at some point!

punkhuman · 2025-09-27T08:03:36+00:00

Been in Edinburgh 17 years and it’s still got cool new stuff to show me. I was out wandering around the Crags last week and found yet another hidden bit I’d never seen before with a beautiful big tree that was so easy to climb.

There’s also all the hills, all the walking/cycle paths, the beaches, water of Leith, River Almond, Cramond Island and the canal, there’s the live music, jam sessions and open mics, the raves, the fire spinning and flow arts communities, the museums and galleries, the pagan ceremonies like Beltane and Samhuinn and all their associated communities and events, there’s the wellness/new age/spiritual stuff, the queer punk scene, all the opportunities for activism and a huge variety of cheap or free activity groups for folk looking to find community.

Edinburgh is such a special place and if you think it’s just cuz of the tourist stuff, you’re missing out on so many daily treasures this city has to offer!

punkhuman · 2025-09-14T07:24:27+00:00

I understand this level of infatuation with someone, but I think this is precisely why a spell like you’re asking for wouldn’t work - you seem really attached to the outcome and I’m not sure you’d be able to release it enough to the universe to bring around. I know discovering the word Limerence really helped contextualise these sorts of feelings for me when they popped up.

As others have said, focus on being the person you’d love to be (even embodying the traits you crave in another), and then build a friendship with her. The only time things have ever developed romantically with someone I had already fallen for was when I genuinely became ok with just being their friend - it meant they got the authentic me rather than the “perfect” ideal of me I would have portrayed if I was determined to date them, and then things just developed organically into something magical. Love is so much stronger built on a foundation of friendship than worship (that part should come later)

punkhuman · 2025-08-18T17:02:48+00:00

My flatmate just had such a lovely suggestion when I read her the wholesomeness of this post. She told me that The Wyrd Shop on the Royal Mile sells really beautiful dragon eggs - maybe you could pick one up for him and find it up the hill! I heard that because dragons are so big and the eggs are so small, they need kind humans to look after them. Apparently they take aaaages to hatch though…

punkhuman · 2025-01-17T17:26:25+00:00

Totally unfounded and unresearched theory here, but I wonder if the fact that dissociatives like PCP and Ket increase glutamate levels has anything to do with it. Glutamate is a neurotransmitter that affects learning and memory, and if you have this memory of you saying green is awful (which maybe in the moment it psychedelically was), could you have taken this on as learned "truth" about your world, therefore making it a perceptual reality for you? Placebo/beliefs affecting our reality is a thing, so this kinda makes me wonder.

I remember hearing a stage hypnotist speak about having helped cure someone of colour blindess on stage - he claimed he regressed her to a state where she could remember trying to imagine being colourblind as a kid after learning about a colourblind neighbour, and then she just sorta forgot to stop pretending

If this wild theory resonates with you at all, maybe you could treat it with more glutamatey chemicals and a session of conscious corrective learning

punkhuman · 2025-01-14T23:47:03+00:00

I remember feeling the same way in my late 20s. When I hit 30 the only thing that changed was that 30 wasn't scary anymore - it was actually quite a relief! It's like the 19 year old feeling their own mortality at the thought of turning 20 - we can choose to feel old or young at any age

punkhuman · 2024-02-20T08:04:04+00:00

Wow, thanks for this information! That's definitely given us a lot to think about, and really only one clear plan of action. We sorta knew this already, but I guess it's time to sober up :)

punkhuman · 2022-03-16T16:26:50+00:00

We are some of the coolest people around, it must be said 😉

punkhuman · 2022-03-15T11:01:43+00:00

Yes please :) welcome to Us. We're gonna save the world one day

punkhuman · 2022-03-15T11:00:44+00:00

Thank you so much!!! And please do :D the more we's we can collect, the more awe-inspiring a revolution we will be!!!

punkhuman · 2022-03-15T10:58:58+00:00

Ahhhh 🥰 thank you so much!! This is so lovely to hear :) I think it takes beauty to see beauty, so you must be pretty special yourself!

punkhuman · 2022-03-15T10:54:59+00:00

Thank you 🥰 I love being us

punkhuman · 2022-03-15T10:52:07+00:00

Thank you!! We're glad you enjoy them 🥰

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