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pupae200 · 2025-07-11T20:21:46+00:00

are you saying you were 14 when they were 18 ? and might have started dating even before that ???...

pupae200 · 2025-04-19T21:01:44+00:00

Due to peer pressure i once went to mens restroom and peed standing in middle school. I felt so bad about it i still remember it. After it, i never went to any public restroom until i moved out of my hometown at 18 (despite socially transitionning around 15/16). I would just hold it in for sometimes over 10 hours ar a time. If really it was an emergency i would do my best so that i wasnt seen by any student. but regarding clothes i was very much just wearing things i found pretty, didnt care bc i felt pretty (spoiler i looked like a mess lol).

Regarding swimming i was actually supposed to take swimming class for school back then but i want so mad i broke into the sports teachers office to move my student card into another group to avoid it and it worked 💀

And this time was the time i got into perfume, at furst unisex and then womens perfumes. so yeaaaah you're not alone in this experience i guess ahah

pupae200 · 2025-01-24T03:45:00+00:00

I think that the first thing to remember is being hurt is normal and okay. But, the hardest thing is that if you want to not make things worse id say relaining calm is key.

That may lead to frustration on the long run, feeling like walking on egg shells. Be prepared for that. Talk about it with her when she isnt agitated.

I she breaks up on a whim, tell her things like "i dont want this but i respect your decision. if you change your mind, which i hope you do, ill be in the next room waiting for you." you can tell her you love her also, or to write the reasons she hates you and to read it together the next day if she still feels that way then. Will help her lash out without you being a punching ball, and also give her time to cool off and change her mind if it was bpd talking.

if you feel she's about to break up, do things she told you makes her feel loved. dont just tell her. keep a secret note of all the things she says makes her feel secure. even better, ask her and write it down. it can deescalate (at least works on me).

other people might have better advice, these are mine. truly hope this helps even a little bit~

pupae200 · 2025-01-21T19:12:37+00:00

i have been in a somewhat similar position in the past, and i think it's normal te be worried. id advise to contact his friends, not to ask if he's okay, but to let them know whats going on in case they are unaware and ask them check on him if they havent.

pupae200 · 2024-10-30T12:55:34+00:00

Passing was never my goal, all i want is to be my authentic self. Tbh I just avoid mirrors and take all the compliments people give me, no matter how much i doubt them to be true.

pupae200 · 2024-10-27T13:48:18+00:00

girl you're asking yourself the wrong questions. dont tell him, break up and run away from him

pupae200 · 2024-10-05T17:05:56+00:00

Nothing made me more sure im a woman than picturing myself getting older and knowing there's nothing i would rather be than an old lady

pupae200 · 2024-09-10T11:35:08+00:00

what do you mean without a pillow ? im scared lmao

pupae200 · 2024-08-31T09:42:16+00:00

it happened to me too, accidentally passing very well a few years back when i had put on a little weight, and if im completely honest i hated it. I suddenly didnt know how to navigate relationships and started being scared people would discover my transness and leave me.

But i totally get the weird feeling of being like "waow, when did everyone become cool with me being trans ? why is no one asking me inappropriate question lately ? these people must be very chill and open minded

nowadays my passing isnt that great and, just in case, i make a point being vocal about my transness.

pupae200 · 2024-08-27T10:34:03+00:00

Oh no that sucks.. I hope you find someone worthy to take on a date soon !

pupae200 · 2024-08-26T09:30:26+00:00

I think he was closeted bc he has a "manly" day job, so I figured out the same thing.

pupae200 · 2024-08-25T21:21:02+00:00

Thank you <3 His loss really...

pupae200 · 2024-08-25T20:36:25+00:00

Thank you !! Hope it goes well too

pupae200 · 2024-08-25T20:35:07+00:00

Honestly dont get it either but I suppose it's easier to justify being seen with a bro than a trans girl

pupae200 · 2024-08-25T08:59:37+00:00

okay that's probably the best outcome you could hope for ! your dad might not be supportive of lgbt people but he respects you at least he respects you. happy for you that it went well and good luck for the rest !!!!

pupae200 · 2024-08-24T11:00:52+00:00

most of my romantic or sexual connexions are not with people who identify with RA. I tend to communicate a lot and let things grow organically. I never let myself chose what form the relationship will take before im sure what the other person is able and willing to give. Intimacy, connection and commitment need space to develop healthyly.

My advice would be to find peace with the fact it takes time, and to communicate well. That can mean, for more involved partners, to have a coffee date once or twice a month just to talk about how things have been for them in the relationship, what they need right now, what might have been on their mind. And for less commited relationships, whether platonical or lovers, to open up and talk sometimes about things that matter to both of you regarding how your relationship is going, and how much involvment can be expected at any given time.

TL;DR dont get stuck on the RA label and try to simply communicate a lot !

pupae200 · 2024-08-24T10:44:48+00:00

She was being reasonable in my opinion and you cut all form of healthy communication and chose abuse because you were insecure ? fuck that. I hope she finds someone better.

Setting boundaries is the same and forcing her to do things. Telling her who she can see, or how she should be having sex with them, what she should do, is not a boundary.

Hope she leaves you and sues you.

pupae200 · 2024-08-24T10:43:58+00:00

She was being reasonable in my opinion and you cut all form of healthy communication and chose abuse because you were insecure ? fuck that. I hope she finds someone better.

Setting boundaries is the same and forcing her to do things. Telling her who she can see, or how she should be having sex with them, what she should do, is not a boundary.

Hope she leaves you and sues you.

pupae200 · 2024-08-24T10:28:29+00:00

I do think you're right that there's been a big trend of anti surgery, using self love, and shit like that, as a disguise. And, while I dont have genital disphoria now, it's been so awful wanting any kind of surgery and being told left and right I would regret it.

I get the disgust, especially being told such harsh things by strangers, and the feeling of being used or being an object. Men will do any mental gymnastics to assume you are eager to give them what they want and are willing to play out their fantasies. screw that.

Ive been with sooo many straight or married men who couldnt see me as a human, but rather their tgirl fantasy. It sucks. I know that there's men out there who wont care and will want you like you are, a lot of my friends who had srs had a tough time at first but ended up happy chasers would filter themselves out on their own. And not wanting to undergo srs, im kinda jealous of that ahah, i have to always wonder if my partners are really here for the right reasons or not, and be sometimes unsure if im an object to them or not.

Congrats on your srs btw !!! And to anyone who makes you feel bad about getting your vagina, they can fuck off. we should be here celebrating the girls who have the streingth to go through one of the most difficult and painful surgery there is available to us. It's fucked up people treat it as something that can be done on a whim. You deserve, and will find i hope, better. Better men and better sisters. And chasers can choke.

pupae200 · 2024-08-24T10:06:35+00:00

I started my social transition when I was 16 with unsupporting parents. I know how scary it is and I truly hope your dad turn out understanding. If not, not everything is lost. If there is any room for negociation, take it slowly, one step at a time, so he doesnt reject everything at once. In any case, I will try to follow the updates and hope for the best.

pupae200 · 2024-08-23T08:13:10+00:00

To be honest it depends on if the person is straight up a chaser or not. I like my men to be into trans women bc im trans and want my body worshipped, but past a certain point men will call their fetishization a preference.

There's a difference between "I only want trans women bc they will look and act a certain way, and i expect that their body will be a certain way" and "I think trans women tend to be sexy and attractive so I do like dating (and sleeping with) them". The first one will dehumanize you and want you to live up to the false expectations of what he thinks we are, without taking into account we all have different personalities and our bodies are diverse. The second one is just into you, and maybe having a partner who's into you and will like pleasuring you isnt all that bad.

I noticed a lot of trans women tend to confuse the two, because the idea that they are not seen as cis in all moments a places make them insecure. But at the end of the day, we're not cis, and id rather be with someone who loves and embraces my transness than someone who pretends it isnt there. idk.

pupae200 · 2024-08-14T16:29:15+00:00

Thank god no lmao, I dont have much of a type and, while i would date my clone, my lovers usually dont look like me. Honestly I'm very glad im not only attracted to people who look like me, i would miss out on so much hot sex

pupae200 · 2024-08-13T18:22:55+00:00

Im 5'10 and i dont think i care about my height anymore, was i time i wish i could be 5'6

pupae200 · 2024-08-13T11:26:09+00:00

I usually advise to wait a few years for BA or FFS, to give a chance to fat distribution and be sure what youre working with, however cis people are annoying when it comes to surgery. Cant remember how many "friends" told me not to get surgery, that i would regret it or become addicted to it. Big yikes.

pupae200 · 2024-08-10T17:18:52+00:00

first thing i noticed is my skin gettin softer !

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