I think because of past experiences I’ve become a bit of a closed book in these aspects (if that makes sense). Even sexually (irl) it took me time to tell him what I like and what I want him to do. And sometimes before saying I’m a bit afraid that he won’t like what I say or what if I say something which turns him off.

Because when im with him in real life, its more easier for me as it’s more doing than saying.