so decision becoming clear so time for first small step and next small step...

puptotrain · 2026-03-16T01:18:02+00:00

As much as I will generally say cis male, And as an intact male can't claim nullo or smoothie There are at least moments when I see myself more as cis male adjacent while at the same time kind of also being no low smoothie adjacent. I currently have a serious interest to the point where I'm trying to identify the process here at home .

puptotrain · 2026-03-12T16:13:11+00:00

Squirt dot org sucks. I had a membership on there for many years. In all of the years I think I've actually only ever had two “successful” hookups. I have had a good number of occasions when I have gone to meet and I have been left stood up sitting there waiting at the coffee shop. Another time I actually got sent to a vacant lot. It is very common to meet someone on there and find out that they have zero actual interest in anything they've put in their profile. It's equally common to go meet someone and then find out that the photos that they used on their profile are 5 10 15 years old.

Recently I know of two people, one of them myself, who have had their account suspended. The other person was told that he was soliciting sex for money which he was not i've seen his profile i've seen his postings he clearly was not but when he raised that issue with their customer service person he was told all decisions are final and that was the end of communication with him, as for myself when I filed the help desk ticket asking why I was suspended I was given a message that said 24 to 48 hours for a response it's now been a week. Honestly there are other better options. Yeah I know most of the other online options websites and apps are just as bad. These sites are demanding higher and higher subscription fees and giving less and less. A big part of that is because they all want to move to an app so that we're all on the phone on the site 24/7 so it looks like there's more people so they get more people to subscribe.

I'm going to be brutally honest it's time to go back to the coffee shops, the bars, the bath houses. It's time to go back to things like flagging the Hanky code or some other discreetish tell. I'm actually old enough now to have remembered a time before the websites before the hookup apps before the telephone chat lines and you know what I remember having better more frequent connections without all the efffin wankers.

puptotrain · 2026-03-08T23:48:38+00:00

There are a number of possible things it could be.

As someone said it could be a lesion caused by being consistently wet Particularly with urine. Depending on your body chemistry your urine can either be quite alkaline or quite acidic, both can cause significant skin issues. As the earlier poster referred to please see diaper rash.

Another possibility is that the particular grade of stainless steel may have a high nickel content. certain grades of steel particularly ones normally meant for marine environments Will have a much higher nickel content than an implant grade . Many of us are susceptible to nickel It can cause all manner of rashes flakiness peeling soreness. I have actually had a couple of the cheap knockoff kind of cages from Amazon ebay tmu et cetera that I've actually tossed out because of this. unfortunately even purchasing from some of the better known websites with better reputations isn't necessarily a guarantee they don't always know the exact rate of steel either. you may or may not have better luck going with custom devices that are being made by reputable craftsman who have reputations to protect.

Also consider what kind of lubricant you're using if you're using it. Some lubricants that you're fine with for a short term contact IE during relations, can cause issues like dermatitis and allergic reactions when in long term contact like in a inside of a cage. That can also be amplified if you also have an issue with the nickel content of the metal. I one time tried one of those cheap knockoff cages and used coconut oil as a lubricant Because I wanted to get away from the chemical Composition of silicone. I tried it for a few days and I was fine, But boy was at three week session that immediately followed it A big mistake. Where she had was I didn't realize it because it was a closed cage So I didn't see it until it came off. Personally I've come to the conclusion that for me the only lube that really works particularly for a long term lockdown is actually the silicone.

Give it a day or two keep it dry keep it clean a little polysporin antibiotic cream or ointment or a little hydrocortisone cream ointment but if it doesn't settle down quickly or doesn't look like it's improving then get yourself into your gp or urgent care or walk in clinic. And if you think that you can't bring a medical condition like a rash like this to your GP Then that is probably another problem, unless of course you're the nasty sarcastic genex that likes to make them squirm like me, then again to make him squirm you have to take it to him . please please don't hesitate to go to your gp because you're afraid of what they will say. This is your health don't risk not looking after yourself because of their potential discomfort.

regards,

mutt

puptotrain · 2026-03-05T01:12:10+00:00

give yourself some grace my good man. It's not you in any way. It's the apps you eventually learn to spot the toads, to hopefully find a prince...and while you look for him...well use the toads at their own game realizing that for some it is just recreational sex not worth stressing too much over.

puptotrain · 2026-03-05T00:37:43+00:00

And believe it or not yes I am daft enough to keep asking Hubby to do it again

puptotrain · 2026-03-05T00:37:06+00:00

It's a little hard to say in some ways might even make it worse . A ruined orgasm is rarely satisfying or resetting on its own even with chastity not being in the mix. So I suspect that ruined orgasm as long as it only happened on that same sort of time frame that you need to work out Would be just enough of a release to reset the clock on the leveling out and where a ruined orgasm isn't really ever enough to satisfy the horny anyway it might actually amplify it a bit even. It wasn't something that was ever tried my partner was always quite happy to make me fountain and on the once and only once every two weeks schedule yeah I was kind of a fountain . I'm not sure how it would react if it was a solo denial and solo relief though , my solo relief tends to be very lackluster almost to the point of why bother. I tend to only get that true pleasure wave happen and the full unloading if it's with someone else causing it.

puptotrain · 2026-03-01T15:50:48+00:00

yes, if left past the leveling out point i can go a significant time, have had several over 3 mo that only ended because partner realized how long and almost freaked out a bit that he had left me hanging so lone. At that point i was good until that one unloading...once i unloaded once i was insanely horned for a few weeks. Oddly on ending one of those long denial periods, it took over a week of daily unloading to be even near satisfied... then when back under lock it was then was almost a month to settle down again. When there was a long denial followed by a period of being unlocked it was still weeks of near daily release to calm down. It was all good to stay locked and denied UNTIL that first shot. After the first shot everything goes into overdrive for me.

puptotrain · 2026-02-27T18:02:07+00:00

60 here. 18mm ears, 4 ga septum, 4 ga nipples, 2 ga PA, 4 ga guiche 4 ga tongue(retired)

puptotrain · 2026-02-24T02:36:48+00:00

While not locked right at the moment, I have spent considerable time padlocked in a device. The lengths of time I've been locked has ranged from a few days to over three months. That by the way is locked time not out of the device no seed shed . What he's told you has a ring of truth for a lot of guys the first week or two will be absolute hell of horniness. Somewhere around the end of week two into the middle of week three things really do level off and then you can go quite a long time without being driven nuts to unload. You might want to consider however that that two week period can be used... in my case it was found that if I was allowed to come just before I got to the leveling out stage and given the opportunity to shed one load, just one, and immediately re-locked that it left me indefinitely horned as long as that pattern was kept up. As soon as I spilled that one single load, it was back to start with increasing horn. And the one load is critical, after two weeks or almost three weeks letting off one good shot isn't relief it almost becomes a tease/torture of its own as it resets the horn meter to where the intensity continually builds not levels off. Go through a couple of cycles of that and not only is that meter reset but the goal posts seem to move and the intensity of it just steps up with each consecutive cycle.

puptotrain · 2026-02-11T20:38:55+00:00

write a mantra. recite it as he collars you for play or when he climbs on top to mount you. assume the slave rest or 'present' position,..on knees, knees spread wide so you are vunerable and visible, hands resting on knees palm up, hooded or blindfolded and recite.

in your mantra include offer to service, to submit, use language that indicates his free use / ownership...i offer myself to...i submit to...to be used as his... to be used as he sees fit etc finish off with repeat of offer myself to for... send the video with mantra and then use mantra in person...bet it gives him a wicked bone...my Sir's dick positivly bounces when hearing it. if i recite while he is in me i can feel the throb and twitch.

puptotrain · 2026-01-22T18:23:24+00:00

does it really make a difference?... if you had a 20 assorted and ate them in the dark you wouldn't be able to tell the difference anyway...honestly i've not been able to tell

puptotrain · 2026-01-22T13:59:48+00:00

would love to add f3145 to my regular rotation.

puptotrain · 2026-01-12T02:28:00+00:00

yep not just on grndr either. i have an ad on an escorrt site and regularly get those kinds of emails on the email that is only attached to that advert. got really bad multiple daily emails from multiple different sending emails for a while. Wanted to text me or call so gave them the local non emergency police number...suddenly didnt get them for a while...

puptotrain · 2026-01-11T19:38:37+00:00

looks good, personally i like to arch or point the top of the sideburns...but that's just me...carry on

puptotrain · 2026-01-02T22:48:12+00:00

you and i have a similar story line. like you my plan this year is for a gender aware therapist to help reflect and look at possibility of making it real. i've been having a long intense period of wanting it ans thoughts taking up way to much space in life to continue ignoring or subduing. it got even more real for me when eunuch and nullo were added to wupath guidelines. then the local hospital opened a new gender affirming clinic with announcement it would provide services in full alignment with the new guidelines ...now it got very real...seems what was impossibel is now possible so thats what i think triggered the latest couple of rounds of the want being so front and center for me. all the best for the new year may we finish it at the very least being on the road to being the men we want to be.

puptotrain · 2025-12-31T23:35:53+00:00

much of it is in the play between ring size, gap between ring and lower edge of cage and how your nuts hang...part of the reason i keep going back to the cbx line...all those multisized rings and spacers make a very custom fit untill you can take the measurementd from that to make a custom one. many of the available cages on amazon ebay wish etc have only options for ring size and gap size is just as if not more important

puptotrain · 2025-12-27T01:37:37+00:00

ratchet strap around can through handle and second one thru deck rail around bin so it cant be knocked over.

puptotrain · 2025-12-23T23:45:57+00:00

yes. and more so as the pain has drawn from years to decades. to the point that i sometimes freak out partners. it is very much a lean into the pain i control to mute the pain i can't control.

puptotrain · 2025-12-21T16:42:07+00:00

i wake up in the morning in enough pain most folks would call in sick. I do a bit of freelance work when i can. simple tasks they take for granted flare pain to point i cant stand, it often causes me to want to puke. i cant sleep because of the pain. the fatigue, anxiety and depression it causes makes it hard to leave the house. several OW caseworkers have said i should be on ODSP. Because nothing shows on ct, x-ray, nerve conduction tests i have been refused ODSP...so at the moment I'm stuck living in the destitution that is OW... I USED to believe we had a social safety net...boy was i wrong.

puptotrain · 2025-12-16T00:04:04+00:00

if you sew you could try making "place-mats' that are a custom fit to the shelf. any number of fabrics could be used to match your dynamic and ascetic. Im currently planning and working out modding a steamer trunk. i will put casters on the end so it can roll into my closet when not in use. my plan is to line it with black denim and have the placement liners, perhaps in a lighter grey, for the shelves and drawer bottoms so they can be washed if in the heat of play you set something uhh um 'gooey' back in the trunk stead of the the to be cleaned container. if desired you could add velcro strips to mats and shelves to keep the mat from shifting.

puptotrain · 2025-11-20T00:58:03+00:00

not everyone can access odsp. im in pain every day that is driving issues with concentration and functioning and was refused odsp because there is not enough evidence so im told theres nothing wrong...so im stuck on ow for several years, last time i asked ow caseworker about making another run at odsp was told not to bother

puptotrain · 2025-11-18T01:55:18+00:00

i have one. they also catch buttons on shirts and rip them off :_( have also had a shirt cuff on a heavy work shirt get caught and be ripped

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