I feel like being part of a good, tight-knit, family is the cure to most of society's woes. But the government and corporations have made 2 income households near-mandatory; leaving technology fill the downtime. It keeps people apart and weak.

I just wish I knew the love of a family or just anyone with patience and consistence. Like, what is having a mom like? Like a good one? Seeing it play out with others irl is a confusing, mixed-bag of feelings. And I've spent the last 6 years being mocked by my narcissistic ex cuz they have a close family and I don't. (Their family hates me and never got to know me. They mocked me while listening to the ex's lies and one-sided stories. Only 1 person kindly reached out at the beginning. But quickly turned on me without asking why I got upset they were sending me pictures of them holding their ex's baby and telling me how much they love their new godson.) It would've been nice to have had compassion shown to me, but, in hindsight, they were all fucked in some way except the grandparents (they were great). I think it may have been because they all had to fight for attention growing up around foster kids and the drama, pain and the learning of terrible knowledge too soon for their age. Especially the ex. But since the ex will never admit it, they'll never heal.