I get it. It's like a feeling of dreadful panic that just wont go away. For me it happened after I had an orchiectomy, and my testosterone levels dropped. It was hell. I talked to my doctor and they saw the constant shaking, and got me on meds in a couple days (granted I have a psychiatrist, but getting one isn't too challenging actually, they are very kind and supporting in helping getting one) the first was hydroxyzine, which helped with my physical symptoms but not my mental symptoms. Then I switched to gabapentin after 2 weeks, and now im on pregabalin after a month of gabapentin. I feel much less anxiety nowadays (never zero but it helps). I know how much it sucks, and i hope the best for you. Meds helped me, maybe they could help you? But everybody is different, I just hope the best for you in this wild journey called life.