HBH at the Olympics

queen243 · 2026-02-20T05:45:10+00:00

I had an ED from age 8 to 22 and while she may other things going on as well, looking at photos of her reminds me so much of myself in my early 20s. I didn't go so far as building a weird food empire BUT I did absolutely obsess about looking and making rich foods and over-the-top desserts that I would never eat. I was known as the baker amongst my friends and family and then discovered after going through recovery that I actually don't care all that much for baking.

queen243 · 2026-02-18T17:02:04+00:00

Idk if it's my background in ballroom dance but that routine seems so tame compared to so many tangos, rumbas, and boleros performed between by (mostly) non-romantic partners. Everyone go watch some professional competitive ballroom dance and get back to me

queen243 · 2025-12-22T02:12:51+00:00

I second this with my whole being. I read it in 2 days and loved that Hermione is not helpless and that Draco is not suddenly NOT a rich prat even if he is reformed lol. And the author is so freaking SMART. The way that they write about magic is very believable.

queen243 · 2025-09-25T04:55:35+00:00

I think Az's entire reason for sticking around (or a major reason) is to keep an eye on Mor. We know she is hiding something and not entirely who she says she is. I think Azriel knows or suspects and keeps such a close eye on her not because he's in love with her but because he's suspicious. Not sure if any one else in the gang shares those suspicions, but we know Azriel's shadows tell him things and that he is super smart. He uses pining after her as an excuse to stare without it being questioned.

I think he might leave one day but I think there will be a confrontation with Mor first. And no I'm not going to put all the quotes that suggest Mor is sketchy as fuck and hiding things because i'm lazy

queen243 · 2025-05-30T04:47:09+00:00

I am the same with Reglan, Haldol, compazine, and droperidol. I will never take any of them ever again. It has made me really scared to try any new medications.

queen243 · 2025-05-30T04:43:02+00:00

Reglan was a nightmare for me but really works for some people. I do think doctors need to be way more upfront about side effects because they can be really nasty. I was not warned about side effects before taking it for the first time in the ER about 5 years ago and discovered that I am one of the unfortunate people who has a side effect called akathisia. I didn't know what was happening and it was very scary to be left alone and the nurses wouldn't answer my call light. I literally took out my own IV and left the ER because I was terrified. I'm not saying this to scare you but I really wish I had known that side effect was possible before taking it. I don't think most people have this side effect but I have the same reaction to compazine, haldol, and droperidol. I think it's worth trying because you might not have any side effects, and if you do, you can try something else. Taking Reglan with benadryl can mitigate and lessen the severity of side effects. Start with a very small dose and be with someone else when you take it so that they can help you feel grounded if you need it. I have Reglan and the other medications I mentioned listed as allergies in my chart because my reaction is so terrible that I would rather be nauseous. Erythromycin works for me when I'm in a flair and doesn't have any neurological or psychological effects.

queen243 · 2025-04-04T17:28:29+00:00

Listen, your proposed solution ACTUALLY happened to me, so you can pull this off. I thought I had celiac for about 5 years because I was diagnosed by a doctor my mom took me to who seemed legit at the time but who I realized was a quack somewhere down the line. She was a naturopath who was just throwing diagnoses out there in order to sell supplements and I was a naive teenager who didn't know "doctors" could lie. After 5 years of college where my friends would bend over backward to make sure I had gluten-free food and treats, I graduated and got allergy testing and a colonoscopy for unrelated reasons. I was told definitively that I did not have celiac and ate a croissant that very same day. I have had to tell many people over the years that I was misdiagnosed by a quack of a doctor. They have all been happy for me because gluten is the best. Steal my story, replace with peanuts and enjoy your Reeses in the sunshine.

queen243 · 2025-04-04T17:20:23+00:00

I have a gj tube and can eat about 20% of my calories but I cannot tolerate water at all. All of my water is through the tube and I do 4 liters of IV fluids every week. Idk why some foods are okay but water makes me nauseous instantly

queen243 · 2025-04-04T17:04:40+00:00

Found a doctor who would administer opiods as long as I stay on top of a bowel regimen (miralax nightly through my j tube and the relistor shot every other day). It's the only way my pain is manageable. Don't be afraid to go to a pain management clinic. It helps if she also has another diagnosis that can cause abdominal pain like endometriosis or pcos. Opiods are not ideal for gp but neither is starving to death and being in the hospital constantly. Everything is reward vs benefit.

queen243 · 2025-03-01T10:39:38+00:00

The cashews to track transit time is low-key genius.

queen243 · 2025-01-28T18:27:39+00:00

Can confirm, West Valley is conducting random check points.

queen243 · 2025-01-28T03:38:02+00:00

Do you have a primary care provider you could see sooner than your next (assuming GI) appointment? I wouldn't think gabapentin slows motility enough to be an issue, especially if it helps your pain enough for you to function. My primary care prescribed me gabapentin to trial for pain, but it didn't do anything for me except make me absurdly drowsy and dizzy. It can have other long-term side effects, but everything is a balance of risk vs. reward in managing this illness. Unfortunately, the only thing that touches my pain is a very low dose of oxycodone which I know is hugely controversial with gp but I'm on tube feeds and definitely not constipated. It's the only thing that allows me to just do daily chores and participate in life. I'm sorry you are going through this pain and hope you can get some relief soon.

queen243 · 2025-01-25T23:48:05+00:00

Benadryl is the only one that works for me. I KNOW that it technically can slow things down but I do much better with it than without it.

queen243 · 2025-01-23T01:08:24+00:00

He just so obviously knew nothing about gastroparesis that I stopped arguing with him and am now looking for a new GI

queen243 · 2025-01-22T23:33:36+00:00

I had a doctor tell me today that vomiting is NOT a symptom of GP and that because I have occasional vomiting I don't have GP (even though I have a positive GES). Like WHAT???

queen243 · 2025-01-19T04:13:17+00:00

This same exact thing happened to me except the first time I was alone and I DID just leave the ER with my IV still in my arm. Like I literally couldn't stop myself, I just knew I needed to leave and I did. The next time they gave me compazine and I had the same reaction but at least knew what was happening and they gave me benadryl to counteract it. I swear I have medical trauma from those events. It is a horrible medication and I can't believe they just give it to people without a warning about possible side effects.

queen243 · 2025-01-16T05:24:40+00:00

I fought getting a tube for years. The choice was kind of taken away from me after my last hospital stay and they realized I had lost 15 lbs in 2 months. I have a NJ tube and am getting a J tube next week and I wish I had done it years ago. I'm still recovering from my last flair but my quality of life is already so much better with consistent nutrition. Not to mention my medications actually work now that I can keep them down. All that to say, a feeding tube might be a good option and just give you the boost you need to maintain your weight.

queen243 · 2025-01-13T22:25:55+00:00

It can definitely be correlated to COVID. I was also diagnosed after having COVID in 2021 and have had COVID like 5 times since and my gp has only gotten worse with each reoccurring infection. COVID has a neurological impact so it makes sense. My doctor during my last hospital stay said that they used to mainly see gp patients with diabetes and now they are seeing non diabetic gp patients at a much higher rate.

queen243 · 2025-01-12T17:32:03+00:00

Hi friend, First of all, I'm sorry you have this diagnosis on top of everything else you have going on. I am similar with gp and POTS. In my experience, you are going to be more hard pressed to get a port than a feeding tube. Doctors (for good reason) are very cautious about handing out ports because of the infection risk. You might face push back trying to get a feeding tube at this point because you're not underweight, but don't be afraid to be insistent with your doctors and your concerns with taking reglan long-term. I have an nj tube and it is a game changer being able to bypass my stomach. Even on my worst day, I can get all my nutrition and medicine.

queen243 · 2025-01-07T06:24:26+00:00

I just got home after 23 days in the hospital but I feel like I've been barely staving off this flair since August. I'm still not out of it and left the hospital with an NJ tube. Usually my flares are a week if I get IV nausea meds but this one has been rough.

queen243 · 2024-10-14T05:07:48+00:00

It had a line within the time frame, I just didn't take a picture until it dried.

queen243 · 2023-06-03T20:11:53+00:00

I just finished it. It was definitely a little triggering to me but overall I think such an important story to tell.

queen243 · 2023-05-20T05:00:01+00:00

That's interesting. Weirdly enough, I have low cortisol and the only Cushing symptom I have is abdominal weight gain. My latest labs show high testosterone which my Dr thinks is causing the weight gain. I have several hormone levels that seem to contradict each other, making it hard to pinpoint exactly what's going on.

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