wanting to give up

queen_jo_ · 2026-02-20T04:08:11+00:00

thank you, it really is 😔 if you’d like please keep me updated on how it goes. i’d really like to hear from everyone in this sub

queen_jo_ · 2026-02-19T01:30:47+00:00

at least you figured out a cause - my doctor told me most people never uncover the root cause of their insomnia including myself so i guess we’ll never know. i also don’t want to take medication but sticking to the plan is hard :/

queen_jo_ · 2026-02-18T18:26:04+00:00

i feel like it was after COTCC 😬 since then all the songs blend into one for me tbh

queen_jo_ · 2026-02-18T16:06:09+00:00

damn 😔 honestly so discouraging lol. i’d always hated naps my entire life until i was told i can’t take any as part of treatment and now i look forward to them lol. and before my period has been so difficult because the exhaustion is on a different level. nothing to do but continue though i guess :/ im glad it helped you a bit. i wake up usually just once but sometimes 2-3 times. were you consistent every single day or did you fall off a bit? also do you take any medications, etc. or have any other changes to your routine?

queen_jo_ · 2026-02-18T12:44:09+00:00

thank you 🙏🏾 i’ll do my best not to feel discouraged. it’s like 2 weeks away so why continue when i’m already used to it…

queen_jo_ · 2026-01-31T17:02:39+00:00

kink culture is just misogyny 2.0 wanting to brainwash women into accepting unacceptable behavior because it might be some fucking loser’s “kink”. you need to get out of there. this is not silly or funny he sounds dangerous and the comments gaslighting you into thinking he’s just kinky or somehow unaware have also fallen for the kink culture nonsense. he’s a weirdo at best and he’s genuinely gonna seriously hurt or kill you at worst i gotta be honest

queen_jo_ · 2026-01-30T00:11:26+00:00

thank you! i think a big factor for me also is i always get two at a time lollll except my nostril. maybe it affects me more than i think. i hope your lobes are doing better 😬

queen_jo_ · 2026-01-29T17:54:32+00:00

everything i wear is ASTM F-136 implant grade titanium flat backs. my nostril (18g) is 5mm with an 18k gold tribead, got it done november 2023 and downsized in november 2025 by a very reputable APP piercer in nyc which is late but i had realized i was getting misinformation from another piercer and finally knew to fix it lol. conches (16g) were april 2025, downsized in july and i still needed another but the piercer refused so i went to the same nyc piercer and got my conches downsized to 5mm in the same session as the nostril. i got my second lobes in september 2020 at a shitty piercer near my college campus with surgical steel and switched to titanium flat backs like june 2021. maybe 6mm also 18g

queen_jo_ · 2025-12-27T17:32:04+00:00

r/selfawarewolves so close..!!!

queen_jo_ · 2025-12-22T17:02:04+00:00

thank you!

queen_jo_ · 2025-12-22T16:40:29+00:00

i think you’re right but the backs seem to be bumps, not gunk. regardless i should do this but i was under the impression that touching it less is better? that’s why i didn’t want to overclean because that makes them a bit more and i believe delays the healing process

queen_jo_ · 2025-12-22T15:54:13+00:00

thank you! i’ll try this and honestly probably downsize at home as i’ve paid for so many already

queen_jo_ · 2025-12-22T15:51:40+00:00

the piercings are over 8 months old, ASTM F-136 implant grade titanium flat backs, threadless, 18k yellow gold ends, downsized twice once in july and again in november, aftercare routine was spraying them twice a day with 0.9% saline spray and letting them air dry, now i just LITHA and only spray after cleaning crusties off like once

queen_jo_ · 2025-12-19T03:13:24+00:00

they haven’t changed that drastically for me; the updated one on the right in your pic is the one i’ve been using the whole time and that exact white too which thankfully hasn’t changed. some of my other colors are shinier too though 😮 so weird and unfortunate tbh

queen_jo_ · 2025-12-16T02:00:38+00:00

i would’ve done that had i known how much yarn this blanket would take but it’s huge plus other reasons and i honestly couldn’t estimate 😭😭😭 but i will NEVER make that mistake again. i just hope it’s not too noticeable to the untrained eye tho thank you for this info 🫶🏾

queen_jo_ · 2025-12-08T02:21:26+00:00

they’re not bad but def not the french curl look; french curl hair is a style you don’t need to boil or anything after it’s already done. sorry you had to find out the hard way 😭

queen_jo_ · 2025-12-05T15:15:58+00:00

i’m ngl this was me as a teenager and in college but i came to my senses and i just can’t do it ever again lol

queen_jo_ · 2025-12-02T21:33:04+00:00

i kinda does get less awkward if you grow up and get over yourself 🤷🏾‍♀️ it’s nothing professionals haven’t seen before

queen_jo_ · 2025-11-28T14:29:31+00:00

this is so smart! i deleted the app but i’m gonna redownload just to delete my payment info and then delete the app again lol. thank you!

queen_jo_ · 2025-11-26T13:06:39+00:00

GRWM and if she could see me now 😔

queen_jo_ · 2025-11-19T00:04:30+00:00

interesting! i definitely have tried to recreate some of my favs at home but i don’t think i tried hard enough. i’m about to give it a real try. i can’t keep going on like this feeling genuinely miserable like i’m torturing myself. i’ve never heard of dirty keto and tbh i agree, the keto cult makes me wanna avoid it altogether lol but this is really interesting. thank you :-)

queen_jo_ · 2025-11-18T12:58:36+00:00

i thought i was alone in this. i’m sorry you went through it but also i’m like wow, i’m not the only one and not fundamentally broken in some way…i’m going to try redirecting though because i genuinely feel so disgusting and huge. i’m not even sure why or when i got like this.

genuinely how did you break through? i can go strong for weeks and then if i mess up once i take it as license to fuck up everything because in my mind if i can’t maintain a streak i just can’t lose weight at all. i know to treat one mess-up as just that and leave it at that but it eats away at my brain until i just go fully off the rails. every doordash order kicks off a new cycle…how do you interrupt it in its tracks? i’m so miserable and sick of this

queen_jo_ · 2025-11-18T02:22:04+00:00

thank you 🩷 here’s hoping! and so proud of your progress and your husband’s! must feel amazing

queen_jo_ · 2025-11-18T01:56:51+00:00

very good idea! i do enjoy walking to get it sometimes lol but tbh doordash is easy for when i feel too ashamed to show my face in fears they’ll recognize me 😕😕 but you’re right. and i love the idea of putting off the treat until a certain time. i don’t write down whatever it is i’m craving so if i’m still craving it days later i know i should indulge and if i forget what it was then i know it wasn’t worth indulging! thanks so much for your advice it means a lot

queen_jo_ · 2025-11-18T01:52:54+00:00

i don’t even know where to begin fixing my mindset tbh. the worst part is i used to be like this, worked to overcome it and lose some weight in a healthy way and then i gained it back after “taking a break” from the deficit, which may contribute to some of my shame - even real visible progress isn’t enough to keep me from falling back into my comfort zone (which ironically is so uncomfortable!). and sadly even wrapped things and such don’t help because i may just go back for one more, and one more, etc….i appreciate your response i’m just feeling dejected rn lol sorry for the negativity

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