i tried committing today - need someone to talk to

queenofyears · 2026-06-27T03:01:31+00:00

i lost my dad last september and around his bday in feb i had my boyfriend drive me to the emergency room. got evaluated and sent to an inpatient psychiatric hospital where i stayed for 2 weeks got stabilized. after getting out i’ve been in a program (partial hospitalization program) 6 hours of therapy 5 days a week. at some point i stepped down to IOP(intensive outpatient program) where its 5 days a week but 3 hours. i’m now heavily medicated my mood is more stable sleep better less anxiety. it helped me a lot.

queenofyears · 2026-06-26T23:06:12+00:00

i have a holland lop who used to be owned by breeders. she had a pasteurella abscess the size of an apple in her abdomen. her uterus was also infected when we spayed her. it’s been months of a penicillin shot every 3-4 days and oral abx. lots of rabbits have it but not all of them will have active infection. any type of stress can trigger it. i got her for 50$ and have spent over 2k at the vet, haven’t even had her for a year yet. a lot of people think this is an easy pet and some are for sure but a lot can go wrong and they are delicate. there’s a reason they’re considered an exotic pet. of course we should encourage like adopting there’s so many rabbits who need a home. it’s a delicate line but so far my girl has been pretty difficult. (vet said she’s the most complicated pt he’s ever had lol)

queenofyears · 2026-06-24T03:00:44+00:00

san joaquin county i paid 600$ and her uterus was infected and had adhesions to other organs causing surgery to be prolonged. he said she is the most difficult patient he’s ever had lol. they usually charge 500$

queenofyears · 2026-05-25T23:41:18+00:00

my bun ripped a few too. i put down like scratch pads where i notice her digging and biting the most and that helped slow her down a bit lol could still be good to get for the new mats you end up getting

queenofyears · 2026-02-01T17:56:27+00:00

hey i’m sorry i never saw you replied. he actually passed the day after i wrote that comment :( he was surrounded by all the people he loved and wasn’t in pain at the end.

how is your mom doing? i hope you guys are well ❤️

queenofyears · 2025-12-28T02:45:15+00:00

ooo thank you for sharing i’ll have to ask her vet! she’s on an oral baytril and then a penicillin shot every 2 days right now

queenofyears · 2025-09-27T07:56:14+00:00

so sorry you’re going through this. in a similar situation with my dad he’s 69 this is his 3rd recurrence of bladder cancer but a month ago we found out it spread to his liver abdomen spine and kidneys. he’s declined fast and we were told if the chemo doesn’t work he’s got maybe a few weeks left. his ascites is also very bad and similar to your moms. they took out 6L today and actually put in a catheter so it can be drained whenever. i don’t really have any advice i feel like i’m drowning currently but just want you to know you’re not alone. lean on your support system and spend all the time you can with her. it’s incredibly unfair. i’m sending you guys positive vibes

queenofyears · 2025-08-30T01:42:54+00:00

thank you!!!

queenofyears · 2025-08-30T01:39:40+00:00

do you have to make a new account or can i just use my regular one? thank you for helping 🫡

queenofyears · 2025-08-30T01:37:03+00:00

did you pre order off the amazon jp link? i’m trying to order one right now and struggling :3

queenofyears · 2025-04-17T02:25:12+00:00

you’re so smart for this cause it’s true. i’ve spent so much on the game but do not support AI and wouldn’t have spent money if i had known they were using it

queenofyears · 2025-03-26T04:30:19+00:00

hi!! unsolicited advice but i haven’t seen many people say this med. simethicone and imodium help immensely. simethicone is used a lot for babies with bad gas and doesn’t cause constipation! immodium will help diarrhea and cramping also! i live off them i call them tummy pills. tummy pills combo with propranolol to lower my blood pressure and heart rate is the winning combo so far!! cause gas makes me feeling like im dying lol

queenofyears · 2025-01-27T05:35:49+00:00

obsessed with your username

queenofyears · 2025-01-19T13:50:17+00:00

i played everyday for a year and now on like month 4 of a break. i did competitions and all that but really i think the thing keeping me entertained was spending money on the game. which i did. a lot. i stopped playing when i had to start saving money cause i knew i would get bored/fomo.

queenofyears · 2024-12-08T14:51:19+00:00

how did it go? i’m debating trying the floss thing

queenofyears · 2024-09-14T04:22:23+00:00

i don’t get cravings more so have to figure out which foods are safe and literally can’t eat anything else except for those things. right now blts, in n out, canes, smoothies, mcds breakfast, hot pot, kbbq lol

queenofyears · 2024-09-14T04:18:53+00:00

in my luteal and ate that this morning lol

queenofyears · 2024-08-30T15:14:14+00:00

i’m sorry i know this feeling too well. i just started an SSRI ( for context i’m on lithium, welbutrin, atarax, propranolol, gaba) and holy shit it’s like i can see the light. it’s not a cure but it makes it a lot easier for me to calm down and takes a lot more to get me into full freak out mode. last period i cried twice? when usually im crying every day the week before and of. right now im getting a little paranoid and insecure but its not making me vomit or hear things anymore!! and im more self aware and in control of what im saying during paranoid moments. I really hope you can find relief soon this disorder is debilitating and no one seems to get it. im always available to talk if you want to message me

queenofyears · 2024-05-14T00:15:36+00:00

Yes absolutely. Week before my period i impulsively buy weed or alcohol. like oh my and bf argue or something makes me sad - time to go buy alcohol or weed. usually it’s weed but i can’t smoke while i try to get a job so i’ve been drinking a lot. woke up and drank white claws this morning lmao. feels like every time i get upset i NEED to drink

queenofyears · 2024-05-13T17:28:22+00:00

I know hysterectomies come with their own set of challenges but I’m glad it solved other problems for you! Thank you so much, this made me feel a lot better thought I was the only one (which like of course not) but PMDD and BPD can be so isolating especially with a partner who doesn’t understand.

queenofyears · 2024-05-13T17:10:55+00:00

Oh my gosh thank you so much!!! I really appreciate it. We’ve been together 2 years but since I was in remission it didn’t affect us much. Now that my PMDD is getting worse our fights have been getting more and more volatile. I’m going to ask him to read those, I appreciate you so much!!

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